She knew love wasn't supposed to be like this. It wasn't supposed to be uncertainty or fear, it was supposed to be about warmth and comfort, or at least that's what she used to think it should be.
Her late fiancé, who she thought was dead, but was just confused and lost after an incredible accident, managed to come back into her life. But even that was short lived, and just a few months later, again, he was gone. Before that her love life was consistently off course. From dating fellow Doctors, or trying to branch out into the mainstream populous, each time she was let down in some way.
She was accused of being too smart to date one man, while the exact opposite seemed to happen with another.
She was told that she was pretty, but not beautiful enough.
Finally she'd met Ronnie, but especially with him, she'd drawn the short end of the stick.
And then there was Jay.
Tall and brooding, having the body of a Roman God, and the soft eyes of a romantic, she knew she was in deep shit the moment she locked eyes with him.
He was everything she was looking for, before she had even realized she was in fact looking. He was kind, but so sure of himself, and it was something about him, something that she felt in the tightness of her chest whenever she looked at him, that made him irresistible.
So when they finally had gotten close, she knew she was in trouble. His bright, luminous eyes and deep seducing voice, always seemed to lure her in. When Zoom shot through the breech in S.T.A.R Labs and took him from her, she knew she was lost. Her person, the man who had protected her and shared countless kisses with her over the better part of this year, was dead.
It was happening again, and she knew what her friends must have been thinking; any man she touched intimately, had died.
This was the predicament she was now facing, as a relationship castaway. To let her inhibitions falter, and to take a chance, or to continue to keep her guard up and be unhappy, just pushing through life; The closer she looked the more she wished she was the latter.
Jay flew back into her life, but in a very unforeseen way, leaving her to reevaluate herself down to her very core, and what she found wasn't the optimistic young woman that had always persevered, but instead, a much darker version of herself. One that had a lust for power, and a unnerving hunger for something more.
That's when she was taken from S.T.A.R Labs by the ever vigilant Zoom, and kidnapped before she had a say in anything. That was also when she realized that Jay was the man who had been enslaving meta humans, and killing innocent people.
That was when she realized that Zoom was Jay Garrick, her Jay Garrick, and suddenly a whole new part of her began to swell to the surface. A part she had trouble controlling began to bubble up, and although she tried her best to fight it, she was happy to see him.
and no matter what she said, she knew he could see it in her.
