Chapter one. Broken.

I looked at my face in the mirror. I was so broken. I was confused. I'm only fourteen, this cant be happening. Tears rolled down my face. I grabbed a bottle, smashed it against the helpless glass. Glass went everywhere. I looked down and saw my face. I couldn't handle it. I went into the restroom. I ripped my clothes of, took scissors and cut them all up. I looked at my arms a thought of putting a blade to my arm flashed into my mind. I hopped into the shower. I was trying so hard to hold onto my sanity. Every time I closed my eyes I would see him.

"Come on Jenny I want you to see my new guitar. Please?" Tyler's deep voice said.

" I don't know where is it again?" I said with my shaky voice .

"its up in my room. Come-on you'll love her"

"Well okay" I followed him up the stairs. For some reason I had a bad feeling about this. Tyler was a nice guy he wouldn't hurt me.

Tyler led me to his room. He was cute about 6'1 dark brown hair clear blue eyes great dimples. He got his guitar a red electric.

"beautiful isn't it?" He said

"Yea it is" He started to sit down on his bed. The music from downstairs was blaring I could barely hear myself think.

I sat next to him and smiled. He looked down.

"Jen I have something to tell you. I love you. I've loved you since the first time I laid eyes on you."

"Wow-wow. I I don't know what to say."

"Don't say just do"

He started kissing me. I felt so weird. I kissed him back. He started to lay us down in bed. He rolled over to where I was on top of him. I didn't think anything of it we were just making out . He started rubbing my back. Which felt good. His breath smelled liked Cherry's. He started taking my shirt of.

"Tyler, no"

"I promise Jen it'll be okay."

I let him take my shirt off wasn't to smart.

He kissed my neck and smiled. Then he started to undo my pants. I let it go on. I felt like he wasn't going to hurt me. He started kissing my body up and down he wouldn't go ;lower then my Stomach or higher the my braw line. He looked into my eyes. His eyes got darker he looked craze. He started reaping my braw of.

"Tyler no! What are you doing?"

"Your leading me on. Don't act like don't like it"

"Tyler I said no!"

"Just enjoy the ride babe"

"No Tyler no!"

He ripped my panties of. I was helpless I tried screaming and fighting him off. But it, didn't work he was to big to fight, nobody could hear me because of the music. He thrust himself into me, it hurt so bad I couldn't help but try to fight. He just went rougher and faster I was screaming and screaming. I finally stopped, I gave up I felt so limp so weak so broken. After two long hours he stopped. He looked at me.

"Sorry Jen." He said. I grabbed my clothes put them on.. I ran all the way home the rain was hard it was pouring every drop that hit me was like a knife to my skin. I got home and went to my mirror.

And that's how I'm here. In the shower hugging myself not wanting anyone to touch me. Crying wishing I would die. I couldn't handle this I just wanted to die my life was just beginning and I lost my virginity to a sixteen year old. I was already dead inside. /3