Hi Minna! I'm sorry I haven't uploaded a lot of chapters lately on my other stories. All my stories are stored on my phone, not on the computer. I'm trying to transfer the remaining chapters so my stories wil be finished and then I can start on 3 new projects for you. 2 FT crossovers while the last is just a regular FT.

So anyway, getting to the reading of this new short story. (Sorry if depressing)


This is just getting even more terrible as each day passes on.

Why is this happening to me? What did I ever do to the world - or even anyone - to deserve such a treatment?

The guild I loved just turned on me like I was some kind of old hated toy from Christmas. I was torn apart mentally and physically. Now I just feel like regretting everyday I ever said 'this is the best!' because 'this' is anything but the best.

Don't get me wrong. I love it here, even if it's torture. I only stay for the sake of those who still care. Those who help me. For those who stayed by my side when I was casted away and nearly did something I'd regret.

They told me to stay strong. That they'd forever be by my side. But, I'm afraid I can't anymore. I promised them that I would never go anywhere. That I'd stay as long as they're there. But, I don't think I can handle it anymore. They're sacrificing so much for me and I felt guilty taking advantage of their hospitality.

I never went anywhere unless it's with them. But today... was different.

They went on a mission when I told them I'd hold down the fort. But later did I realize that they had taken a mission that wasn't so easy after all. They had to be away a couple of days and they took a mission a little too late. Rent was due for the little bluenette girl that let me stayed with her and she had went along with her 'new' team. I thought of this as my chance to at least repay her a little. But I realized I had to go inside that god forsaken guild. But, I stayed strong and got the courage to go in and take a quick mission.

But then, it took a turn of the worst possible thing that 'loving' guild has ever done.

Wendy. Carla. Gajeel. Panterlily. Laxus. Lisanna. My spirits. Master. I'm sorry I broke my promise to you... to you all.


Lucy walked in the guild, in what felt like millions of years, in hopes that the guild members inside wouldn't notice her presence as usual. They always had for at least 7 months now after all. After dear Lisanna came back from Edolas.

When the youngest Strauss sibling returned, she and Lucy became good friends at the start. But after a few days, they hardly got time to talk to each other. That was when Lucy started getting ignored.

It first started off as a way to catch up with Lisanna but then, it turned into totally forgetting the celestial mage's entire existence. When Lucy would try to start a conversation with someone in the guild - or even so much as greet someone - Lucy would either get brushed off or a slap to the face as if she were a bug.

That's when, 2 weeks after the 7 months or being ignored, her despair came from slight sadness to endless depression.

Lucy walked in one day, about to go on a job by herself again. Until she bumped into Cana by accident.

(Flashback)

"Oh! I'm sorry Levy!" Lucy said as the blonde bowed slightly apologizing.

"Eww!" Cana cried in disgust. "I bumped into this piece of trash."

"Eh? Cana you don't really mea-!?"

"Why are you even here? We all know you're weak!"

"I admit I still need some training but I'm trying my best!"

"There's no point in trying!" Cana blurted, causing Lucy to gasp as she was taken aback.

"Yeah. We all know that you won't ever be strong." "You should just quit the guild with what little pride you had left!" "Trash!" "Worthless!" "Stupid!" "Ugly!" "Dumb Puppet!" Words of insults left every mage in the guild's mouths as Lucy dashed out of the guild. Hearing their laughter as the girl was humiliated.

(End of Flashback)

But Lucy was glad to know in her heart that a few people cared for her and saved her.

(Another Flashback)

After Lucy had ran, she had locked herself in her apartment. She looked in the mirror and wondered what was so bad about her that the guild started to talk to her in such a manner. The words they called her rang in her head and she started crying at the harsh words, remembering those who said them and those who laughed at her humiliation.

Lucy tried to dry her tears, but it was futile. She stared in her reflection in the mirror again and saw how much of a disaster she looked like.

"Now I understand what they mean..."

Lucy grabbed one of her metal poles for her fireplace and smashed it against the mirror, making the glass shatter and go on the floor as she fell down as well.

She saw everyone laughing at her. Everyone criticizing her. Insulting her. Mocking her. Lucy then remembered that even her own team, Team Natsu, was laughing at her. Natsu was laughing his head off the most. Which broke her heart.

Lucy reached for one of the biggest shards of the broken mirror and started cutting. She cut her arms, legs, stomach. Everywhere. Then, she aimed the - now bloody - shard on her forehead. Lucy could hear knocking from her front door and didn't bother answering it. She didn't want to answer it looking the way she did. That's when she heard voices.

"Lucy? Lucy it's me, Wendy!"

Lucy froze.

"Gajeel, Pantherlily, Laxus, Lisanna and Carla are here too and Master sends his regards! We were all worried about you! Are you crying? Let us in, Lucy!"

Lucy didn't respond and she could here someone now pounding on the door. "Open up, Bunny girl!"

"Gajeel..." Lucy then steadied her hands and kept the shard at her forehead. "NO! LEAVE ME ALONE! GO AWAY NOW!"

The celestial mage then heard a click from her front door and feet shuffling about. That's when she heard gasps, one after the other. Lucy turned to see Wendy, Gajeel, Lisanna, Laxus, Pantherlily and Carla having the most shocked faces of fear. Wendy and Lisanna ran to Lucy as they separated the blonde from the mirror shard.

"Lucy!? What are you doing to yourself!?" Lisanna asked.

"I'm healing you right away!" Wendy said as her hands started to glow.

"Guys..." Lucy said as tears continued to fall from her brown eyes.

The exceeds proceeded to walk to Lucy and hugged her as the 2 dragon slayers placed one hand on each of her shoulders.

"We're here for you Lucy. Don't go..." Lisanna said as she hugged the blood and tear stained Lucy.

Lucy forced a smile and hugged the Take-Over mage. "I promise."

The following day, Lucy was then kicked off of Team Natsu as Lisanna was going to replace the blonde. But Lisanna refused and Wendy and Carla said they were quitting the team to make one with Lisanna and Lucy. Which made the blonde feel a bit better.

(End of Flashback)

As Lucy made her way to the request board, Team Natsu had spotted her and approached her wanting to insult Lucy.

"Well look who it is? It's the weak little Lucy!" Natsu said as it ate away at Lucy's heart.

"What are you doing here? I swear you had left the guild." Gray said as he smirked.

"It appears you don't understand the fact that you are the most weakest mage in the guild and you shouldn't even take missions." Erza said as she crossed her arms.

"Ooh! I know! Why don't we have a match. Me against you without magic! If you win, you go on the mission. If I win... Huh. I don't know, drop dead maybe." Natsu suggested as everyone overheard his bet and all began to laugh except Lucy.

"But I don't want to-!?"

Lucy's voice was low and was cut off as everybody started shoving her to the training grounds near the guild hall.

"Are you ready?" Mira asked as she giggled.

"Let's do this!" Natsu shouted.

"But I don't wan-!?" Lucy was then cut off, not getting a chance to be heard and Mira raised her hand.

"Fight!" Mira said as she brought her hand down in a vertical swooping motion.

Before Lucy could even blink, Natsu high kicked her on the right side of her face and then without stopping for a breath. Started beating her up with his punches and more kicks.

The wounds that Wendy had healed, as much as she can, started to open again and blood started dripping down Lucy's arms and legs. Though, Natsu didn't stop. He just kept on beating her up to a bloody pulp. She spat out blood from her mouth as the dragon slayer started to hit her harder and then, kicked her in the stomach.

Lucy's eyes widened and this time, she looked like she was puking blood. As she did this, everybody started cheering for Natsu and started to laugh at Lucy. The girl was even more humiliated than she already was. But that wasn't what enough for the guild.

Natsu jumped back a good distance and then smirked. "This is really boring without magic. How about we end it off with a bang?"

Everybody started cheering for Natsu again, not paying any mind to the fact that Lucy was bleeding to no end and was struggling to stay standing. She was severely injured and no one seemed to even care. That was when Lucy gave up on the so-called guild that treated everyone like family. There was no family for her then, she was alone.

"I'm sorry Wendy, Gajeel, Lily, Laxus, Carla, Lisanna, Master..." Lucy said about to give away.

"FIRE DRAGON... ROAR!"

With that, Lucy was burned to a crisp. Surrounded in fire as everyone in the guild left her there to burn. Her cuts from the mirror shard burned and pained her to the max. Lucy tried to hold in her tears, but she couldn't. She was shunned and broken by the very guild she thought was her family. Her pink guild mark, now scorched from the fire, looked like an imitation of her heart. Destroyed and burned away by the person she thought was her best friend.

Now, Lucy had given up all hope.


I ran, not looking back on what I used to call home. I ran to the apartment that still had the shattered glass. Natsu's fire didn't affect the building, but it affected my room. Everything burned and I waited until the burned marks on everything settle in. That's when I used water to put out the fire.

Everything I owned... everything that held precious memories of the good part of my life... had been destroyed. I looked again in all the mirrors I had in my apartment and started breaking them one by one. Hating myself. Hating on everything that had led to the sadness that now dawned on me.

Tell me again. Tell me what I did to deserve this.

Don't I have the right to at least know that much? After all the pain I took head on, shouldn't I get an answer? What was the point in me even living? Who am I? I thought I was Lucy of Fairy Tail, but now... that is ancient history. Written in the torn up burnt pages of my letters and stories.

I had nothing to lose now. I had absolutely nothing. Just the fresh wet blood on my hands.

I've been betrayed.

I told myself once that this was a dream. But I soon found out that no one really didn't care. I started destroying more things in my home, having so much anger in me that I needed to let out. I mean, what would I be leaving behind that wasn't my body, right?

After I was done, I found leftover blank paper and began writing my farewells to those who are and who 'were' important to me. But I had nothing to write with. So I used my own blood as my ink.

After that, I wrote on an empty space on my wall in huge bold letters blood.

FAIRY TAIL!

YOU ARE ALL LIARS!

YOU ALL DID THIS TO ME!

I'M DEAD... BECAUSE OF YOU!

But then, I remembered Wendy, Gajeel, Lily, Lisanna, Carla, Laxus and Master.

Then, I wrote on a different space beside the other part of my wall, but with smaller letters.

I'm Sorry...

Wendy. Carla. Lisanna.

Gajeel. Lily. Laxus. Master.

I then took out a rope that was already in a knot big enough for my head. I heard this was the easiest way to go and I want it to be quick so that when they come back, they can't do anything about it.

I went to the part of my apartment with the most highest ceiling and then fixed the rope so that a part of it was reachable. After I finished the preparations, I stood still as my head was through the knot and had the other end of the rope tied to a very, very heavy rock. Well, more like a mini boulder. I looked around my destroyed apartment and then, dropped the boulder as the rope lifted me and tightened around my neck.


So that's the first chapter. As it said in the summary, this is a very serious story. I'm sorry if the guild seemed a bit stupid and was a douche. But, I plan on making the guild have payback. So, I'll see you in the next chapter.