"Butchered"

SH: Origins' TRAVIS GRADY POV [Based on Bad Ending]


I've been here before
I can see it with eyes closed

I've walked on this ground before. This was where I've stood watching Dad die, watching Mom suffer. I have been here. But I have never realized it until now. Silent Hill. What was trying to lead me here?

Shadows that look like blood
Dead as far as the mind goes

Momma…

I came there to see you. But why…why did I see you choke your own soul instead? You were there…inside that cage that must have been your personal hell for years. When I entered to see you, after trying all I can to survive the nightmare outside, I didn't see a smile. I saw you attack me like I wasn't your son. Your insanity had ruined you.

Fear that comes from my head
Lives in the mirror

As I watched you fall, Mother of my own flesh and blood, butchered with my own hands, I remembered what you were trying to say…You wanted to kill me. Those mirrors told you. The nightmare world behind them turned you insane. They told you that I was a demon. You wanted to kill me…why?

Why won't you let me out?
Does the evil excite you?

Daddy…

I knew you were sad. I knew Momma's demise was too hard for you too accept. I knew how much you loved her…but why did it all come to this? I once again stepped on the very ground where you told me to take a stupid token and play in the arcade. I didn't know what you wanted to happen.

Little did I know that when I come back to tell you I've won that little game…

You were already dying, hung on a noose, with pain and guilt inside. I just stood there, and thought you were only sleeping. I've stood there for eight hours. I didn't want to lose you, too.

Haven't you had enough?
Does the feeling control you?

And when I returned to see you, too, what did you do? You tried to kill me in your demonic form. I had no choice. I knew it wasn't really you. I had to stab you, hoping that every drop of blood that I release will remind you of my own pain and guilt.

Just when I think I'm okay

Shadows surround me

Suddenly, I felt the world around me change. I opened my eyes seeing that I was now standing on a room with walls stained with blood and rust. Blinded by memories of my Mom and Dad, I dropped to my knees and pounded my fists—scarred by my own parents—on the floor.

All of the monster you are
I can feel in my head

I felt the arms of some creature that came from nowhere grabbed me tight. I screamed as I struggled to let go. But I couldn't. Next thing I knew was that I was strapped to a metal table, also rusting and caked with blood. I looked around me, my neck aching. It was him. The monster in my nightmares.

An injection needle entered my skin. I let out an excruciating groan. A liquid which must have been made to kill me has entered my veins. I shook my limbs, trying to escape and snap the straps. The monster looked at me.

I saw myself…as the demon.

Let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out

My parents were right. I was a demon. I wanted to kill them, too. I don't know why, but I never knew until that moment. I was their personal hell.

That monster in my nightmares, the one I call "the Butcher"…was actually me.

No more…
I'm through…
You win…
I'm dead…

Silent Hill. You wanted me to come there. I'm here now.

Let me go, please...I've made my mistake. Now I know what you were trying to say. I'm now in my own hell. It was true all along. Is this what you felt, when I was only there standing, doing nothing…? Then I saw the Butcher walk to me.

You're sorry, sorry, no!
You're a lie
It's over, nothing here left alive
Let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out

"AAAARRGGGHHHH!"


Song: Hole in the Sky (Akira Yamaoka ft. Mary Elizabeth McGlynn)

A/N: First SH fic. Tell me if it sucks. The story is just so complex and I wrote this to challenge how well Silent Hill turned me insane like Travis's mom. He-he, kidding.