I hate him.
I want him dead.
That's how I've always felt towards that damn flea. From the moment we met, I knew there was something about him I couldn't stand. He just gave off this feeling that he wasn't someone you could trust, not even if your life depended on it. He sees everyone as a pawn in that twisted, fucked up game of his. The only thing that he seems interested in is the reactions people have after being thrown into a situation that he forced them into, even though he claims to love humans.
What a load of bullshit.
If the louse actually loved humanity, then shouldn't he try to prevent horrible things from happening to them instead of causing it? What kind of fucked up logic is that? Then again, it's obvious that common sense was something he had left behind a long time ago.
I still can't believe that it's possible for a person to turn out the way he did. From what Shinra told me about him before I met him, the flea lived a pretty dull and normal life. So what was it that changed him so dramatically?
Maybe I'm thinking too deeply into this.
The only thing that should really matter to me is killing that bastard with my own two hands. After all, he's been making my life a living hell for the past seven years. But when I take the time to really think about it, would killing him really bring me satisfaction?
Probably not.
If I do end up killing him, I'd probably feel guilty about it.
Maybe even a bit devastated.
Even if he deserves to die, he still human…right? And killing another human is something I refuse to do. Maybe that's why I would miss hitting him on purpose from time to time. And maybe, just maybe, I don't truly want him dead…
Heh…
Now I'm contradicting what I said earlier about wanting him dead.
I doubt I'm making any sense right about now. In fact, why am I even thinking about the flea anyways?
You know what? To hell with it.
Orihara Izaya is just someone I'll never truly understand...
O.O Okay~ I have no idea on where this one-shot came from and a lot of you might've gotten confused. Don't worry, I got confused too and I'm the one who wrote this! Anyways, I was just on my laptop listening to 'Whispers in the Dark' by Skillet (a very epic band I might add) and reading some Durarara! fanfics when this idea just struck me upside the head. Obviously it's Shizuo's point of view and I might've made him a bit OOC but I tried my best. Hopefully you all enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed typing it. Feel free to review and tell me what you think about it~
Taru-chii out~
