Kensi knew that Afghanistan was a long time ago but sometimes it all came back to her, it wasn't so often as it used to be but when it happened it was bad. It used to happen after a stressful day and a little sleep, and usually when she was alone. She hasn't said anything to her boyfriend/partner, mainly because he had enough on his plate, and she didn´t need to put her problems on him, but also because it hasn't happened in a while now. They had been living together for a few months when it happened the first time. The case had been long and stressful, involving a kid and his parents who were involved in a home invasion were his father had been badly injured, they had been working for days and sleep was not a priority so after 30 hours they were finally home, a solved case and ready for bed. Kensi could feel her adrenal fatigue kick in and she could barely drag herself up the stairs. Deeks was walking behind her and he got worried when she suddenly fell against the wall and started to fall back, luckily Deeks was right behind her so he caught her.

"Woah Kensi, what´s going on?" he said to her and looked at her, she was breathing hard and sweating.

"Just get me up in bed" she said weakly as she put her arms around his neck as he carried her up the stairs and into their bedroom, when he laid her down on the bed he helped her get out of her cloths, before he pulled the covers over her and kissed her hair.

He took his clothes off before climbing into bed and lay beside her and stroked her hair away from her face.

"Kensi what happened?" he asked softly, she turned her head and smiled at him

"My adrenal fatigue is not happy with the long hours and the stress from the job" she said and pulled him closer and gave him a small peck on his lips.

"I don't want anything to happen to you Kens, maybe we can talk to Hetty and tell her that you have to go home and sleep or tell the guys so you can get the sleep and rest you need or…" she interrupted with another kiss on his lips.

"Nothing is going to happen baby" she said

"But you need…" he started but was interrupted again when she put her finger on her lips.

"I need you… and sleep" she smirked and kissed him again

"Seriously baby, we need to do something about this" he said and she let out a deep breath

"I know" she said

"I´m really tired can we talk about this tomorrow?" she asked and smiled at him

"Of cause baby" he said before kissing her

"Goodnight princess"

"Goodnight Marty" she whispered before she fell asleep.

Hours later Marty woke from his sleep, his girlfriend was tossing and turning and making noises. She was whimpering and moaning, he looked at her and she was sweating and breathing hard. She was having a nightmare and he knew he needed to wake her up before she got too deep in the dream.

"Kensi baby, wake up" he shook her gently but she didn´t react so he started to stroke her face and talk a little louder.

"Please Kensi wake up" he begged her and kissed her face, suddenly she started to scream and sat up in their bed and started to hit him and tried to get as far away from him as possible, she fell of the bed and crawled back and sat against the wall. Deeks knew how much your mind could betray you, so he sat back and gave her some space.

When Kensi felt his lips on her she was back in that cave in Afghanistan and the man beside her was not Deeks it was one of the man who held her captive, who raped and tortured her.

She reacted instinctively and started to scream and tried to get as far away from him a possible, she was breathing hard and in panic mode, when she was held captive, she tried to be brave and take it, but there was only so much she could take and she was reaching her breaking point.

"Get away from me!" she yelled at him and pulled her knees against her chest.

He took a deep breath and pulled his fingers though his hair while he was thinking about what to do.

He sat down a few feet away from her, he didn´t wanted to scare her more then he obviously already had.

"Kensi, listen to me, your safe in our home" he said slowly and clearly and she looked at him and she had tears streaming down her face.

"Please listen to my voice princess, come back to me" he said slowly and now he also had tears streaming down his face, he has never seen her like this, so fragile and vulnerable so he knew he had to be careful. She calmed down a little so he came a little closer to her but still kept an eye on her so he could see if she suddenly got scared.

When she looked at his face again she saw her boyfriend, she couldn´t hear what he was saying but she saw him and suddenly she was back in their bedroom and she threw herself in his arms and cried.

"Shh it´s okay Kens, I got you" he whispered into her hair while she clung to him like her life depended on it.

"I love you Kensi, so much" he whispered into her hair and she looked up at him.

She looked at him and couldn´t believe that a man like him, a man who was so caring and full of love, wanted to be with her and help her though something like this, she was damaged but when she thought about it so was he, maybe they could help each other heal.