I've never given much thought I to how I'd die, but dying in the place of someone I love, seems like a good way to go.

Chapter 1: Bella

A Decision

The alarm beeped annoyingly at 6:00 it was time to get up for another day. Edward was laying as usual in his place by my side in the bed. I felt a sudden twinge of guilt knowing that however much I loved him I could never marry him as he wanted me to. It started 6 months ago when Edward left because of my urge to become a vampire and stay by his side forever. When he left I was torn it felt like my life had been torn in to a million pieces and left to rot it was then somewhere in this terrible darkness Jacob arrived like a light in in the dark like a root to pull me out the deep dark hole of despair. when I was around Jacob it felt like my life was almost whole again I then found out about his dark secret he was a werewolf from the magic passed down in his tribe for generations. I then met Sam and his pack Jacobs wolf brothers and Emily (Sam's Fiance) the Wolf-girl. After a recent episode of cliff diving Alice my best friend using her vampire gifts saw me and presumed I was dead arrived at my house and told me the tale that Edward had gone to the Voltori to die I ran all the was to Italy to save him to only find that the urgent pull I remembered feeling towards him had gone, that pull now rested with another person, Jacob. I now faced the decision that would change my life forever should I choose Jacob and exclude my self from the Cullen household the only place I feel truly welcome? Or should I choose Edward even though I know I can never be truly happy with him?

I told Alice of my dilemma she was very understanding and while looking grim agreed to not tell Edward when my future disappeared, she also agreed to not think about it as he might hear it. So I could not tell either boy my feelings without the other knowing . So I got up to another day of pretending my undying love for Edward. I drove to school in my truck, an ancient gift the I received when I arrived here in the rainy town on Forks. I sulked through my classes thinking about Jacob - and Jacob only. Thank god Edward cant read my mind. Finally it's lunch. I sit at the table, not eating, just sitting. Listening to Alice go on about this graduation party. I look at Edward, his face unreadable, wondering what he is thinking. Such beauty. I start to drift into thinking about Jacob but I tell myself to snap out of it. After school I say goodbye to Edward and drive off to the treaty line and into La Push,the 'wolf' territory as I pull up at Jacobs house a wolf as big as a bear looks at me through the trees. As I approach the wolf bows it ginormous head signaling me to get on as soon as have climbed on to his mighty back he rushes off at full speed into the wood. He takes me to a clearing not as beautiful as the one Edward takes me to but it's our clearing when I get off he rushes off into the wood to transform. The clearing was small in one corner was a hut Jacob had put together he kept a small fridge in there where we keep refreshments in case I get hungry of course these 'supernatural' beings can go for ages with out food. Jacob creeps up behind me and smothers me in a big bear hug "Hey Bells" he sighs "Jake I don't have much time." He pulls a face "Right got to get back to pretty boy.""No it's not that I'd love to stay I have to get back to make dinner for Charlie.""Oh right," He looked sheepish" Sorry.""Don't be it's not your fault I would presume it too, Edward doesn't know I'm here"" Well if you've not got long we'd best get on. What do you want to do? Bike? Hike? Whatever you want."he looked like an over exited puppy looking down at me in the rare Forks sunshine. "I've not seen Emily in a while..." Jacob rushed into the woods to change and with that were off rushing back into La push to see Emily and Sam and probably most of Jacobs brothers.

We arrive in a matter of minutes and I receive a warm welcome. Me and Jacob go into his house and sit on the sofa together. He puts his arm around me, pulling me into his warm body. I suddenly feel special, loved, wanted. I take my hands and wrap them around his waist and he kisses me. It feels like the rest of the world dissapears and it's just us.

The time passes so quickly and before I know it, it is time to go home to Charlie and to Edward. When my truck roars onto the curb outside my house I noticed that the light was on in my room I didn't have it on this morning so he must be in there. I walk slowly towards the door just waiting for the explosion. I walk into my room, he's on the bed, "Bella have you any idea how worried I've been!" His velvet voice taking a higher tone "You know how I feel about those 'dogs'" I wince at the word dogs. "How did you know?" " I was in the car with Alice when your future disappeared! You treat me like some sort of fool Bella! I know and trust that Alice will tell me when it happens again so don't go trying it again!" I suppress a smile I don't think Alice will be telling Edward anything any time soon. It is moments like these when I wish making decisions was easy.