Lucky you

Disclaimer: Character not mine and the song is Lucky You by Deftones.

Tom taught me many things – the beautiful and vile alike. I learned many horrible curses and secrets, things so torturous, so utterly revolting.

He never really left me, contrary to what everyone thought. I still hear him at night, whispering with unwelcome familiarity as I slept, spoken from darkness, echoing in my head.

They'll come soon

I keep waiting... and I wait...

Won't somebody...save me...

I can fell him too, those icy cold fingers, traveling across my shoulders, sending a tingling sensation down my spine.

They said he was just a memory, a shadow of the past. But they wouldn't listen; they don't hear what I hear, see or feel what I do.

He got inside my body, my mind. And even in the short time he was there, he began to morph me into a version of himself.

And if you're feeling lucky... come and take me home

There's a part of me that loves him still, and I hate my self for it. I torture myself over it. It's not as if I could do anything to control it, or at least that's how I try to justify it. He told he would come back for me, that we would be together again. He promised.

And if you feel loved

Tom showed me what real power was and he told me I should let nothing keep me from obtaining it. He is always with me, watching over me.

If you feel lucky, if you feel loved

If you feel lucky, if you feel loved

They never noticed that I was changing. Their innocent little follower was being corrupted, tarnished beyond repair.

I needed him, more than anything else. I was addicted and long over due was my daily dose.

You've crossed the walls - Excelled

Further along through their hell

He treated me as an equal. And without him, my Tom, my love, I fell numb.

All for my heart, I watch you kill

You always have, you always will

Now spread your wings and sail out to me...

I know he will come for me. Just like he promised. He calls out for me, ghostly whispers that guided me to him. My body trembles as I hear him, whether it be of anticipation or fear, I do not know.

So if you're feeling lucky... come and take me home.

Come and take me home.

What if he does not want me anymore? What if I wasn't good enough anymore? What if…

No, he promised, promised he would come back, promised to take me home.

Yeah if you feel love...

If you feel lucky, if you feel love

I was his, to do with as he pleased. I long to have him with me again, every second feels like an eternity without him. I was his, his possession, his doll. He pulled the strings and I acted, I was his marionette. And, I enjoyed every moment of it.

Crossed the walls - Excelled

Further along through their hell

For my heart

I watch you kill

You always have

You always will

I would never forget him, I couldn't. Every word he wrote was burned into my memory. Everything he ever said to me played in a constant loop in my mind.

You always have and always will

Ginevra…Ginevra, My Queen. I told you I would come for you. You are my mine, Ginevra. Just wait a little longer, and then, then we will be together at last. I will never leave you. Your mine, Ginevra. Mine forever.

You always have

You always will

Spread your wings and sail out to me...

He promised.

So…what do you think? I wrote this pretty quickly, the idea came to mind as I was listening to my iPod. I should be sleeping but I'm finding that impossible at the moment. And, I believe that reading fanfiction is the best thing to do right now, even though its past one. I took some of the lines from my other story, Tantalize.

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Xoxoxo- Waverly