Embry
Love it's like cocaine, so addictive and explicit. It takes a lot to gain recovery from heartbreak but when you do there are always slight reminders. The problem is for me it's not love that's addictive, it the rejection. Rejection is my personal angel dust. I think I am attracted to not being wanted. Yeah it sounds crazy yet it's who I am and what makes me Embry Knowles.
"Embry, Carter is here" my mother yelled over her rapid knocking on my door..
"Coming Mother" I yelled at the annoying brunette.
The knocking didn't stop of course. She is the persistent type, once she sets her mind to something to she doesn't give up. This is what makes her good doctor. I took one last look at myself in the mirror. My black hair was in a tidy bun with no loose hairs in site. My misty green eyes were brought out by my smoky eye from L'Oreal. Today I wore a leather dress and Christian Louboutins . Leather was Carters favorite on me for some reason, he found it sexy and I found it hookerish even though that's not a word I think. But tonight I was not in the mood for a fight. We have been having too many of those lately, which is unusual for mates since they are supposed to basically smother each other with love. The thought of being smothered by Carter of all people was skin crawling.
I grabbed my bag and walked out my chic room. My mother followed close behind
"What time should I be expecting you" she said firmly from behind me
"Mother I am not a child" I snapped marching down the stairs with a fluent grace.
"As long as your living under this roof you are child, now don't let me ask again" she waltz in front of me and narrowed her hazel eyes.
"Fine I'll be back by 12 but if I'm not don't wait up" with that I stomped out the house and slammed the glass door behind me.
In front of house I saw silver Lamborghini. I hate that damn car it is so fucking flashy. The fact that he knows I hate the car and that I suggested him meet me here in a cab but still drove this hunk of shit peeved me off. I strutted over and pulled the doors open and hopped in. I slammed the door shut with all the strength I can muster up, since I know how much he hates people slamming the car door.
" Hey sweetie" he leaned over trying to kissed me but I scooted away.
"Don't touch me just drive" I glared at him then turned away, doing what I said he sped off the block.
The silence that filled the car was welcomed graciously. That what our relationship was filled off lately also just silence. Though we were always at parties and the noise that they accumulated was deafening. All I heard was nothing and soon I know he will go back to his old ways just like he did before and I will just heighten my ways.
"Listen babe I got something to tell you" he started rubbing my bare leg
I was waiting for him to go on but his phone rang. I looked at the screen. Vanessa faced flashed across the screen. I grabbed the Iphone and answer.
"Honey" she cooed "where are you"
"Excuse me you little bi.." I was cut off because he snatches the phone from me.
"What the fuck are you doing?" he shouted
"I'm being you mate and picking up the fucking phone' I snapped
We had a stare down. Well more like glare down. A laughed escaped my lips and I knew tonight was the night I would go off
"So Vanessa you fucking Vanessa" I huffed. I definitely didn't see her being the time to do something like that. But she was a cheerleader.
"We are just friends" he said quietly using the same excuse he did last time
"More like friends with benefits, spare me the horse shit I'm not dumb we both know that" I yelled
"Listen it was just a few times I promise it did not mean anything" he kept quiet tone and hands firmly on the wheels.
Just liked that I snapped
"That what you said the last three times" now I was out of my seat and in his face.
"How could you do that to me" I yelled I could feel my eyes turning red
"Because this relationship is getting boring and I am honestly tired of you" my hands flashed across his face
My manicure was ruined
"Looks like my polish is ruined just like us" I laughed
"You should have known from the beginning that we wouldn't work out" this time he was in my face yelling.
The car came to a full stop.
"I know but I took you back think you changed" I snatched the phone from his hands and swung the car door open. I through the phone on the floor and repeatedly stomped on it till there was nothing but tiny pieces. All he did was close the door and roll up the window. When I was done I gathered all the pieces and through them through at the window.
"Have fun with the bitch hopefully if you are lucky you can avoid HIV but we both know that won't happen" I whispered through the hole I made with the Iphone pieces.
He sped off after that. I dropped to the ground not caring about the expensive dress that would surely be diminished. I pulled out my phone and went down the contacts to the one person who knew had the stuff to make me feel better.
"Leo" I groaned over the coming tears
"Hey sweet thang haven't heard from you in a minute bad break up again" he chuckled, this triggered a water fall.
"Just meet me at my house with the stuff" I tried to sound strong.
"Be there in Asap no rocky" he slurred
"I don't need any of your slang snip bits right now you are human so learn how talk like one" I throw my Iphone at the stranger's mail box and got up only to notice that I am on Mrs. Jenson's lawn. Oh thank god I am only around the corner from my house. I walked back home slowly. I know tonight something smashing was going to happen but I didn't know it was going to be this big. Carter and I were mates we were supposed to be together forever but some reason neither of us felt the same way. He has disrespected me so many times even driven me drugs. At least it wasn't alcohol, gin taste like shit.
On my door steps my dealer was pacing. He was tall with almond skin due to his biracial parents. Grey eyes and a strong build. I slept with him once or twice but that's when I was fully intoxicated.
"You look um broken" he laughed eyes roaming over my body lustfully
I walked around him and open the front door. I know mom and dad weren't due to the fact that the range rover wasn't its parking spot. I walked in to the massive entry way.
"Come in Leo"
He followed me up to my room. A large white space with my life store in it cloths, laptop, and my phone charger that in no longer need since I left on Mrs. Jenson's lawn. What made my room special were the mirrors that surrounded it. I had them planted everywhere so I could constantly know how I look but I right now I did not want to see the girl who lost her mate. I need to start a joint before the pain of my wolf started to tear me to shreds. Even though she has yet to shown herself.
"Roll up for me please" I said kicking of my shoes
He sat on my bed and did as he was told. After he was done he handed me the joint and I lit it and smoked it daintily. Whatever was in this was strong because I am starting to feel woozy. I caught glimpsed of myself in one of my many mirrors and felt streak of tears. Why doesn't anyone love me? I am so easy to love. I got beauty and class. I always keep my head in the books and got enough of my father money to fuel the Hamptons. And I got an ass. A beautiful one at that yet he has the nerve to leave me for a skinny bitch named Vanessa who has never heard of sneaker due to all the hooker stilettos she waltz around in. I grabbed at the nearest thing and through it at the mirror. The nearest thing was the tiny bud of joint in my hand sadly. When the mirror didn't break I waltz over and through it at the wall. And after that I started on all my mirrors. Making sure each of them was crushed. Picking up the last mirror left in the room I suddenly felt warm hands on my waist from behind.
"Slow down your going to hurt you self" his hand were making their way to my dress zipper and instead of telling him to stop I let him take it off. When I was in nothing but undergarments I tried taking his shirt off. Since I was high and barely saw anything I gave up and let him trail kisses up and down my neck. Before I knew it we were in bed and I let him pleasure me for the moment. I knew tomorrow was school and I wouldn't find any pleasure there.
I was awoken with a jolt by the warmth that was radiated onto my skin. I felt my hair being rubbed and a hand was loosely around my waist.
"What did I do " I croaked
" Gained three months of house arrest" I heard a chuckle that couldn't belong to the guy that I was with last night
"Mom he broke up with me" I said
'I heard" she said letting her wall of sarcasm fall and held her only daughter
"And we are mates" I said aimlessly
"I know" she said soothingly
"Aren't you appalled" I shot back
"No honey we are Knowles and men can't stay from us" she laughed
"I don't want him back though"
"Let's your wolf make that decision when she comes along" she warned
"Do I have to go to school today" I grinned
"Yes" she grinned and got up and grabbed the brown paper bag.
"Whatever he gave you must have been good because you slept through a cold shower and broke your décor" she walked out after that leaving me to the silence and as always it was welcomed with open arms
I rose from bed and went to my closet. The mirrors that were on the door were on the floor in gigantic pieces. I ran through my cloths and chose Maison scotch pullover, scissor cut legging and I match it all up with red Birkin bag and brown chunky heel mid boots. Today I was feeling a little reckless, this outfit was far from my preppy jetting outfits. I grabbed my secret stash of joint from my old Chanel and transported all my school supplies to my Birkin's bag and headed out. to the kitchen which held my breakfast, my Iphone, and car keys. I left the house in a haste avoiding my personal maid. In the front of was my Dodge. Looks like mom was being nice today.
In my car I began to smoke. I blasted Etta James. Even though I was feeling reckless there was no way I was going to forgot Etta. I pulled into my reserved parking spot quickly and got out my car. I walked over to my clique, well I basically exist among them with my two friends Elle and Lucy.
"Hey Elle" I said pulling out another joint and lighting it. The one on the drive over here obviously didn't work since I still feel a little ache for my mate.
"Careful Em your humanity is showing" she said quiz idly
"Let the under classmen revel in seeing their role model smoking a joint life's about taking risk" with that I hopped on top of her convertible and smoked while she babbled on about her parent leaving her to the dogs aka her brothers and yacht party they through and dragged her along. The bell rang and I practically dragged myself to first period.
I was late and didn't care for once. I went to sit next to Lucy in the back of class. She had her hair dyed again this time it was a black with gold streaks. It was a nice look on her. I planted myself in my seat and couldn't help but notice the boy Vanessa was talking to. Did the slut didn't ever stop sleeping around? The boy she was talk to was tussled brown hair. As if he felt me staring he turned around and shot me my toothy smile, which exposed fangs and blue eyes. I looked quickly to the board. But when I turned around to gaze at his handsomeness, I only saw Vanessa the vindictive bitch staring back at me. I went into my bag and searching my phone. This is the first time I ever blushed from a boys grin since the first time I met Carter four years ago. This is the first time I ever blushed from the look of a vampire period.
