Hello everybody!
Here is a really short one shot that I wrote a while ago and that was left in my computer, waiting for me to do something with it. I am telling you in advance, it is really sad... Guess I was not in the mood of writing something happy that day! It is in a letter format, this is why it is that short...
Hope you like it!
From The Blue Of Her Eyes
Disclaimer: I do not own twilight!
Dear Esme and Carlisle,
I am sorry. So sorry.
Sorry not to be able to continue.
Sorry not to be able to see you anymore.
Sorry that you lost a son, and by that occasion, a grand-daughter and a daughter-in-law.
I am sorry for the pain I am causing you both.
But I just can't.
I tried, oh so hard, but I just can't.
I can't see you anymore. You bring too much memories, too much pain.
To much pain for my broken heart to bear.
I think that god hates me, or that I did something really bad in interior lives to deserve all of this.
My life is pain, only pain. When I seem to be finally happy, there is always something to come destroy it.
When I was 4 years old my mom died in a car accident the day of Christmas.
When I was barely 18 years old, my dad was killed by a gun in front of our house.
Now, at 28, when I am finally truly happy since a long time, my soulmate, my confident, the love of my life; my husband, dies.
Leaving me pregnant and alone.
I know you tried to help me and I pushed you away, but I had to be alone. It was best at the time.
Giving birth with no one there to help me was the scariest experience of my life.
Having my little girl in my arms and knowing she would never meet her father was so depressing. But I have to be strong for her, for Elizabeth. Elizabeth Renesme Carlie Cullen.
I named her after the name Edward picked, Elizabeth, I just couldn't dare to change it.
Renesme stands for you, Esme and my mom, Renee; and then,Carlie, is for you, Carlisle and Charlie, my dad. It felt right to put Cullen as her last name. She looks just like one. She is her daddy's little girl, in a smallest and more feminine version. Bronze hair, green eyes... I wish you could meet her, she is wonderful.
Life is so hard without him.
The one, and only one that keeps me attached to reality is Elizabeth.
The only one left that truly loves me. I have to be strong for her, but sometimes it is difficult. I wish I could have someone to talk to, but I just can't see your face anymore.
It is too painful.
I am sorry, so sorry...
Sorry for everything.
Bella
