This is a pretty random fic I came out with after talking to my friend Katie all night. But I think I sort of like it. It's pretty AU and ooc but in a way is my idea of what Willow's thoughts would be like if she had fallen for Faith in season 3. It's pretty mediocre-ish and amateurish and lots of other 'ish hehe also the ending is a bit corny and I'm aware of the many grammar mistkaes, but I still hope some of you enjoy and keep in mind this is my first W/F fic and also was written at 4 am in the morning. ^^
Willow knew there were some things she hated about Faith. Well there were a LOT of things she hated about the dark slayer. She hated the fact that she was always flirting around with whoever walked past her. Always flashing that sexy smile of her , doing a sultry dance at clubs around either boys or girls, not caring for anyone specific, but just selfishly pleasing herself with the desire of others. Willow also hated the fact she was always 5 by 5. What did that even means anyway? It was just a way for her to appear 'cool' in front of others, having a catch phrase no one else understood but ,somehow, were supossed to? When she slept with Xander, that's another fact willow hated about Faith. Who did she think she was, stealing people's virginity that way, taking whatever she pleased without caring about the consequences? Betraying Buffy by killing a human being and then blaming it on her best friend, was another motive for Willow's hatred. She couldn't stand the way she was now working with the enemy after everything Buffy and the rest of them tried to do to help her. But of course, Faith didn't want their help, she was too damn proud to accept any pity or tiny bit of caring coming from the scooby gang. Maybe she thought she was too good for that, or not good enough. Willow didn't know.
But while looking at all these facts, Willow realized that the things she hated the most about Faith were more than just that:
a) She flirted with anyone that walked past her, but she never took the time to flirt with Willow, flash her one of those sexy smiles that would make her weak on the knees and melt inside. The fact she wasn't one of the girls who got to enjoy Faith's sultry dance at the Bronze and participate from it. Feeling her close, getting to touch her skin, as their bodies moved with the rhythm of music, was something Willow always dreamt about.
b.) She didn't know what Faith's famous catch phrase 5 by 5 meant. She wanted to know desperately, she wanted to know why or how she started using it. Does she use it when she's happy? Or when she's trying to pretend she's ok when in reality she isn't? But most of all, she hated the fact she didn't know Faith good enough to understand the meaning behind all these little details about her.
c.) Finding out about Faith having sex with Xander, now that was something that really hurt Willow. It wasn't just the fact she slept with her best friend, and used-to-be crush for most of her childhood and teenage years, but she took something from Xander, something she wished Faith had taken from her instead.
d.) She was now workig for the opposite side, helping evil to get what they wanted and was now, out of their lives. This was probably the fact Willow hated about her the most. Because now she missed her, the beautiful brunette with big brown eyes that would make her feel all those happy butterflies dancing inside. She missed her snarky comments and rebel attitude about life. Willow knew there wasn't a way to ger her Faith back, she was now lost in the darkness and she was too damn proud to accept their help. Willow hated her for that, because she wanted to help her come out of that lonely world, and keep her safe forever in her arms.
