I can take the ran on the roof of this empty house,
That don't bother me.
I can take a few tears, now and then, and just let 'em out.
-x-
"Why'd you have to leave, niisan? Why'd you let them take you away?" he mumbled to himself, watching at the window as they pulled his love away from him, the storm causing the outlines of the men to become blurred.
-x-
I'm not afraid to cry, every once in a while
Even though goin' on with you gone,
Still upsets me.
There are days, every now and again, I pretend I'm okay,
But that's not what gets me...
-x-
The blonde pushed his sister away, walking off without looking back at her. "I'm okay, stop bothering me!" he growled, tears threatening his burning eyes as he ran up the stairs. He allowed them to run now his cheeks as he fell down onto his bed without a word.
-x-
What hurts the most,
Was being so close,
And havin' so much to say,
And watchin' you walk away.
-x-
It was February the 14th. That was the day he had to watch quietly as those men - he didn't know who they were - dragged his blue haired man away from him. There were things he was going to say to him that day... Things that he had wanted to say for so long.
-x-
And never knowin',
What could have been,
And not seein' that lovin' you,
Is what I was tryin' to do.
-x-
Valentine's Day. It was Valentine's Day he was going to give himself to his niisan. He wanted him, and now he would never know what was going to happen. They took him away too soon; too quickly...
-x-
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go,
But I'm doin' it.
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends, and I'm alone...
-x-
He still had to go to school, everyday, and pretend he had no idea what had happened. His friends knew he and their "sensei" were close, so they asked him. He had to smile and shrug, play dumb. It was torture. He wished they'd just be quiet.
-x-
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dress, livin' with this regret,
But I know, if I could do it over...
I would sell, give away, all the words that I saved in my heart
That I've left unspoken.
-x-
It was his fault, and he knew it. If he had just spoken up... If he had just told the people nothing happened, it'd be fine. But he just hid, and let them go... Maybe if he'd spoken to his niisan sooner, maybe if he had told him how he felt sooner, maybe it'd be okay. Maybe something would have happened to make it al okay.
-x-
What hurts the most,
Was bein' so close,
And havin' so much to say,
And watchin' you walk away.
-x-
He was so close to saying it. He was going to open himself up to his niisan. Show him his feelings; tell him the three words he's wanted to hear for so long. But, then... Those men...
-x-
And never knowin',
What could have been,
And not seein' that lovin' you...
Is what I was tryin' to do!
Ooh!
-x-
Now he could never know what he would have said. Never now what he would do. He wanted to know so badly, but he couldn't bring himself to find out how to. It was too painful to think about it too much. He was the only person that he truly...
-x-
What hurts the most...
Was being so close!
And havin' so much to say,
And watching you walk away.
-x-
But he had to do something. It was even worse to sit around and sulk, then do something. He had to figure it out. He had to find those men, and let him out. He had to at least tell him...
-x-
And never knowin',
What could have been!
And not seeing that loving you,
Is what I was trying to do.
-x-
He left a note for his sister. He'd be back. He didn't know when, but he'd bring their niisan with him.
He had to tell him those three words he was so close to saying on Valentine's Day, all those weeks ago. He had to tell him he loved him, and that was what he was going to do. No matter what happened. Len loved him. Kaito.
-x-
Not seein' that loving you...
Is what I was trying to do.
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A/N.: Happy early Valentine's Day. This is going to be a series of five songfics, written throughout today, tomorrow, and if nessecary, the 15th. You guys need your fill of Lenka, and you'll get it this Valentine's Day. (:
Reviews would be loved. On to the next song!
(These are oneshot songfics; the only thing they may be related to is my fanfiction Banana Split AI. They aren't related to one another. But they are all one pairing; LenxKaito.)
