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What is it about you that make my heart jump to my throat whenever you hold my hand? How do you always manage to steal my breath away whenever you direct that impish smile of yours towards me? I ask myself these questions every time you hold my hand and smile at me.

Itami

By

Kanoko

I thought I would continue to ask myself these questions for a long, long time. Now that I think about it, it was very cruel of you to make me realize the answers to these questions that way. I even come to wonder if I were the only one who didn't understand what I was feeling myself due to my lack of experience with emotions but seeing how you gave me such a realization… I can tell that I wasn't the only one after all. I'm sure that many other people had seen these emotions inside me but didn't see fit to tell me what they are. After all, you are in love with him. That's a fact that I cannot change.

You know what? I have come to envy Yuuno. I envy him so much that I sometimes wonder if I have come to hate him. But I can never do that. Not when you love him so much. If I were to hate him then it would make you sad. You probably don't know that every single goddamn time that I see you with him, I want to shout "Get away from her! She's mine!" It feels so stupid even as I am thinking this that I would laugh at myself for being so stupid. After all, you are not mine and… You never will be.

Sometimes I wonder if you knew about my feels for you. The way you look at me when you think I'm not looking or the little things you do when you thought I was unaware... All of those things that you do are only to tease me or is it that you feel the same way towards me as I do towards you? Well, I don't think all that matters anymore anyway. It's already too late because you are engaged to him and everyone is talking about how the two of you are the perfect couple. I wonder where that leaves me. The best friend to the famed Takamachi Nanoha? To myself, I think it's "The secret admirer of Takamachi Nanoha."

In any case, when you get this you would be already married off to him and I will be on another mission that would probably take me away for a few years. I wish you and Yuuno have a happy life together and forever be happy.

Signed:

Enforcer Fate T. Harlaown

P.S. For something that you might or might not get. I sure have written a lot.


Just to clear things up because I don't plan to put anything else on this that would make it story like… so

Point 1: This IS a letter.

Point 2: You can try to guess if this is given to Nanoha or not. Or if it was given to Nanoha before her wedding or after her wedding.

Point 3: For all I know, this could have even been burned up after written by Fate.

Have fun making speculations on your own. Then again, I don't even know what spurred this up. Thanks for reading.