Title: FINAL GOODBYE I
Rating: T (for teens)
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto (Sadly T_T) and I do not gain anything (no monies too TT_TT) Naruto and its characters belong to Kishimoto-sama (Who needs to hurry up and get more chappies of Naruto released in Australia!!!)
Summary: Usually suicide notes aren't so harsh nor are they so long. Please forgive me for being a waste of space I guess by the time you have all read this I will be gone for good. I'm really sorry to everyone, this is my final goodbye. What happens when Naruto finally just gives up? (Rated T for swearing and angsty themes, suicide fic)
A/N: Me is Neko-chan I was in a depressing mood and this is what resulted dunno if it's good or not but I guess I will find out!! XD
Chapter 1
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I'm sorry, I know it's a weird way of starting this but heck I don't care, I'm sorry Sakura-chan, Sasuke and everyone else...I know you all pretended to be my friends, who would ever want to be friends with a selfish beast, please don't say I'm not selfish because I am I am the most selfish person I know an I hate myself for it. I hate myself more than Orochimaru, for gods sake I hate myself more than Pein. I lied to you all every day of my life I pretended to be someone I wasn't and look what it's done to me. This letter is going to show you all the REAL Naruto, the Naruto I've hidden from you all for 19 fucking years.
To tell you the truth I hate you all, have ever since I met you all, an you wanna know why because none of you ever trusted me, Kakashi-sensei I always knew you kept a close watch on me, Sasuke I know you always hated me, Tsunade I know you did too and I know it wasn't because you wanted to it was because you feared me even Jiraiya my godfather, for fucks sake the only man I ever trusted and even he feared and watched me, and you all ask yourselves why I'm so fucked up LOOK IN THE MIRROR GUYS YOU AND EVERY ONE IN KONOHAGAKURA ARE THE REASON. You always blame it on me or Kyuubi but why not ask the people who would beat me as a child or the kids who would glare at me and never play with me and why not ask the people who would torture me on my birthday the day I hated most. It was the only reason anyone remembered my birthday.
But I guess I should say I'm sorry for being selfish. Even if I hate you all and you all hate me, you deserve a sorry from me. First off Sasuke I'm sorry for ever trying to bring you back. I know you're here now but it was selfish of me to do that, you had a dream to kill your brother and restore your clan and that's not selfish, Kakashi you keep fighting for the people who died in battle your lost friends and family, Sakura you fight to be a strong kunoichi and to protect the people and the village you love, and everyone else you all fight for unselfish reasons. But me? No, I fight for myself only, I fight for my own reasons to prove that I'm not an idiot and that I can be Hokage to prove that I can be powerful but really it was to boost my self confidence. What I should be saying sorry for is that I ever existed.
For me life is worth living or even worth fighting for, why am I here, what am I doing other than destroying everything I have, I'll tell you what, NOTHING! I actually blinded myself with my own illusion seriously thinking some of you cared for me but I guess this morning waking up to my house trashed yet again, fresh insults spray painted on my door and no money or food and none of you even noticed I guess that is a pretty good way to break an illusion. I really can't take much more of this, it's at the point where I can hardly sleep so I'm giving up I don't care what any of you say I GIVE UP!
I just want to die right here right now but I'm writing you this entire letter. I know after re reading it its kinda harsh but there you go guys that's reality, reality is a bitch but I've had to live with it all this time so let me show this harsh reality to you guys.
Sakura please don't give up medical training your really good but you should also be friends with Ino again you need each other, Kakashi take the place as the Hokage you would make a much better Hokage than me, Sasuke there is one thing I really want to say to you and I really wish I could do this face to face but I can't, I love you, you are the first person to ever not hate me for being the fox or even to be told to but still you hated me I was your rival an that's what rivals do they hate each other and I couldn't even do that right, I'm also sorry to everyone else for lying, I was never really hyperactive and always smiling no that was all a lie to keep you all a distance a barrier a mask I hid behind so this, the real Naruto, wouldn't come out, but I just exploded and I can't take any more.
Usually suicide notes aren't so harsh nor are they so long. Please forgive me for being a waste of space I guess by the time you have all read this I will be gone for good. I'm really sorry to everyone, this is my final goodbye.
Uzumaki Naruto – October 10
Haruno Sakura stared at the familiar messy writing with tears gathering in her eyes, the stone cold body of the normally bright and happy boy stared at her from the floor. The brightly wrapped present that was once in her hand smashed on the ground. Uchiha Sasuke followed by the rest of the members of the Konoha 11 including Sai all froze in horror. Today was Naruto's 19th birthday they were going to take him out and shout him some ramen together while giving him the presents that they had all been saving up for.
"N...N...Naruto...NARUTO NOO!" Sakura fell to her knees trying to heal him but failing to no end until Sasuke wrapped his hands over her own kneeling beside her.
"Sakura stop we should grab Tsunade-sama its going to be o…"
"SASUKE YOU BASTARD!" she slapped him across the face surprising everyone. "He was your best friend, almost like your brother and you act so calm in front of his dead body, how can you be so cold, you disgust me" She turned away not even able to look her crush in the eye. Sasuke turned.
"Sakura we need Tsunade-sama so calm down, this is hard for me too and you know that but I have to be rational, Shikamaru run tell Hokage-sama Ino-san can you please take Sakura outside for some air"
"Of course" They whispered in unison. Sasuke kneeled next to his best friend's dead body, dropping his own present for Naruto.
"Why did you do this baka" he whispered.
**With Shikamaru and Tsunade**
"SHIZUNE, WHERE IS MY SAKE!" golden eyes peered over the mountain of papers, silently watching the black haired woman fuddle around looking for her missing sake bottle.
"Ah, Tsunade-sama, I found it!" Shizune looked up her eyes shining with success.
"TSUNADE-SAMA!" Shikamaru yelled while bashing on the door.
"Shikamaru, what is it" She asked in confusion as Shizune opened the door for him.
"Tsu…Tsunade…there…has been an…accident…at Naruto's" he huffed short of breath from his run.
"Wha…what do you mean Shikamaru?" 'By the looks of him this has to be serious what has that brat done now?!' She thought.
Shikamaru panted hiding his face form his leader. "Naru…Naruto has died…"
END CH 1
A/N: Ok guys this is my first published fanfic hope you guys liked it!! XD I've never published my stories before but my friend Bridgeey said I should, I really hope you guys liked it. If you did pwease review, if I did something wrong tell me and maybe with your help I will get better, so no flames please or I will cry TT_TT.
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