Out of Sight, Out of Mind
BY:OZZIE13
I do not own anything Twilight related.
They say 'out of sight, out of mind' but when I close my red, salty stained eyes, I still see your big, light brown chocolate eyes staring at me with such emptiness that it scares me.
What are you thinking?
What are you feeling?
But the most important question is; why are you here?
When I close my eyes I shouldn't see you. When I close my eyes I'm in my own world, a small world where nothing can hurt me, nothing can destroy me... but yet you're still here, hurting me...
You shouldn't be here. You should be with her.
You are with her.
But yet you're here, with me.
But you don't warm me with your strong arms and you don't love me with your big heart, like you do with her.
Everything you do hurts me and you have no clue, you don't even realize the love I carry for you, it's so heavy, so filled with warmth that it weighs me down.
I can't even bring myself to hate you for what you do to me, in fact, I love you. Everything about you drives me crazy, so crazy that I burst into tears, I want you, I need you. But I know, even though I don't listen to that small bitter cold voice in the back of my head, that you do not feel the same, that you don't desire me, that you don't need me.
Your bright, breathless laugh brings a warm, sweet smile to my thin, dry lips and in that moment I don't care about my dying black soul, because your voice is heaven to my ears, while the burning flames of hell eats at my insides.
I know it's wrong of me to wait around like a lost puppy, desperately wishing on a shooting star, hoping that maybe one day you'd realize how much I love you, that I could love you more, way more than she could. It's wrong, so terribly wrong but I can't help it, I can't stop.
And now sitting on this cold cliff, everything goes gray, the sound of the heavy rain goes painfully mute and I realize that the people who say, 'out of sight, out of mind' have never met you.
I did this in french class for a friend, I'm not going to go into much detail about her problem, but she was the inspiration for this one-shot, after I was done I read it over and right away Me or Her came to mind. So this is kinda like a short summary for that fic! If you haven't read that fic yet, you should! I had an amazing time writing it!
A big thank you to my beta, you're fucking awesome bb!
and as always,
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