"You Weren't Supposed to Abandon Me"
Seifer's POV
By: Aileena

They say I'm pathetic, I guess I am. I hurt people who care at least people who I thought
cared. Like Rinoa. But she went to Leonhart; the world turned its back on me.

I look happy, I laugh at people, I kill people but it's to relieve me of the pain, do they
know that I hurt so much it no longer hurts? The pain is kind of numbing, like being
drunk.

Do I feel guilty? No, I don't, if I did, I would start to care again. Caring is for weaklings,
Loving is for weaklings. If you don't care or love, you can't get hurt which I should have
learned sooner, before her, before Rinoa.

Squall should have stayed the uncaring loner he was from the start. Now he's weak, when
you surround yourself in a hard shell, you might just make it through this torture.

I want a world of no pain, no sorrow, nothing... nothing is promising. Where is this
world? It's waiting for us...for me. A world of darkness, I don't have to feel this mind
numbing pain anymore.

People can't hide their pain behind their eyes, their eyes are open doors you can walk
into. But mine are closed; they closed the day Rinoa left me, the day she took Squall's
hand into hers.

I pick up a knife; the blade looks so welcoming. Look what you did to me, Rinoa. Your
name is a curse, a kiss of death. Death is nothing to be scared of; it's better than this
world, this world of pain and destruction. Mankind will destroy itself sooner or later, I
hope its sooner.

It looks like my "Romantic Dream" was always a fantasy and now it's my final fantasy.

"Good bye" I say aloud, "Angel..."

You weren't supposed to abandon me.

~ Fin ~

Author's Note: I was in a bad mood when I wrote it...it sucks but it's only my 2nd fanfic
ever so yea... Seifer just seems kinda sad, and sooner or later he was gonna be depressed
anywayz. I wrote this in 30 minutes and that is like record time for me ok?