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Chapter I

Little Windows

Blood covered the floor like part of a horror movie, Naruto's eyes glazed over as he watched the red spread. He didn't know how long he sat there staring only that the edges of his vision was blurring, he still couldn't look away, it was his art. Beautiful blood red on marble white, his head lulled forward and his arm came into view, red criss cross cuts run all the way up to his elbow.

A small laugh bubbled from his lips and everything went dark. Kakashi, Sasuke and Sakura stood outside the blonde's apartment, waiting for the door to be answered, Kakashi was about to give up when he heard a faint laugh followed by a thunk. He wasted no time kicking the door down, taking a quick note of the crappy apartment he rushed over to Naruto, the other two frozen in the doorway, blood, there was so much blood.

~~(break)~~

Naruto's head was full of buzzing, like an angry hive of bees was shoved into his brain, he frowned trying to recall where he was. His eyes opened slowly as he remembered what happened, white walls, white curtain, white bed, white floor. Am I dead? He thought the smell of antiseptics and disinfectants filled his nose guess not.

The white curtain hiding his bed from the rest of the world as suddenly pulled back by a disappointed Tsunade, she looked age, His teacher right behind her, face blank. She checked his bandages

"what were you thinking? You almost died!" she said angry,

blue eyes looked away from the company

"Wouldn't it be nice to just stop every once in awhile? Not be hated or have expectations, no dreams or feelings?" he said faintly staring at the wall.

She tightened the bandage she was fixing

"you can't just stop! That means death, no continuing" she said glaring at him,

his eyes shoot up to hers, hollow and filled with nothingness

"Sometimes I think its worth it, not having to continue means no one will look at me with those eyes, their words wont hurt as much, nothing will hurt anymore" he blinked slowly and stared ahead again.

Tears nearly fell from honey colored eyes

"where's Naruto?" she asked in an almost whisper.

~~(break)~~

To say Sasuke was shocked would be an understatement, The Hokage ordered Naruto to stay with him, his orders? Watch over the blond, make sure he didn't do it again. Now said blond was sitting in front of him with the most dead eyes he'd ever seen, where was the bundle of sunshine? This Naruto was so... broken, his impossible blue eyes were dull, they reflected nothing. There was no smile on his lips, the scars on his cheeks stood out more now, his spiky blond hair seemed to droop.

He sighed and stood "your room is this way" he began to climb the wooden stairs, the blond behind him, he opened the door next to his own. The large spacious room was decorated simply, paintings of bamboo, cherry blossoms and lavender hung on the walls, a rug with the Uchiha fan woven in around the navy blue, the bed had a simple black and red comforter set.

Naruto moved forward and sat on the bed staring at his bandaged arms

"it didn't hurt" he said his voice empty

"I thought if it hurt, then maybe I'd be okay" he looked at Sasuke now

"it didn't hurt" Sasuke frowned making note to share this with Tsunade later

"It was beautiful, the red on white, like a painting"

this doesn't make any sense He thought

"and the pattern was nice" Naruto mumbled before laying down

"like little windows" he pulled the blankets up to his chin

"little windows."

Sasuke shut the door when he was sure the dobe was asleep, not much of what he said made sense, little windows?

~~(break)~~

Tsunade sighed deeply and rubbing her temples as she read what the Uchiha sent for the sixth time, what was the brat talking about? She got up from her desk and looked out her tower window, thinking over what was said, she didn't get it the criss cross wounds on the blond's arm didn't really look like windows to her. This troubled her deeply.

~~(break)~~

Sasuke sat up immediately, he looked around trying to place the disturbance but found nothing out of place, laying back down he felt warmth from his right side, turning he saw Naruto lay tucked at his side. As if there was nothing wrong with sneaking into someone else's bed in the middle of the night, Naruto's blue eyes blinked up at him, fear shining beneath the surface.

Sasuke laid a hand on top of blond locks, he'd probably regret this later but he relaxed and evened out his breathing, Naruto buried his face in Sasuke's nightshirt, unsure of whether to see this as comfort or being ignored, he eventually fell asleep to the even breathing of his teammate.

~~(break)~~

Sasuke woke up feeling oddly cold and stiff, remembering that the blond snuck into his bed he looked over at the now empty side. No Naruto to be seen, but he could vaguely hear the shower from the room next to his, he sighed and sat up, a shower sounded nice.

~~(break)~~

Naruto stirred the rice and flipped the fish before setting the plates on the table, the shower upstairs had just turned off, it would only be a few minutes before his teammate came down. Making sure the rice was done he scooped even amounts onto the plates, he turned to the fish and opened the knife draw, he paused. His eyes saw nothing but the sharp blades laid out neatly, reflecting the light, his hands kept clenching and unclenching as he stared at them.

He didn't know how much time had passed

"Naruto!" Sasuke shouted,

walking in to see Naruto staring almost blankly into a draw. It took maybe a second to realize which draw it was and what his blond teammate was seeing, Naruto's head snapped up in an instant and whipped around to meet his eyes, wide with guilt

"I wasn't, the fish, knife" he said kind of quickly trying to explain as he pointed from the draw to the fish and then the table,

where the food was to be set.

Naruto sighed and looked down tugging at the newly wrapped bandages

I messed up, I shouldn't be near this draw he thought sadly moving to sit down in the chair,

he brought his knees up and wrapped his arms around them. Sasuke cut the fish, surprised that the other could even cook, they eat in silence, Sasuke watching Naruto, Naruto watching his plate.

_A/N: hey, I'm not sure about this story, If you like it let me now and I'll continue it. It'll make more sense later I promise please read and review :)