Kauro POV.

Me and Hikauro were close. For brothers that is. We were always together with no one else in the world. No one, and we liked it that way. We wanted to keep it that way. But then there was that day. The day that handsome golden-haired boy came up to us. He was no real threat to our world, so we saw no problem with joining his weird little club. Until that 'weird little club' changed us and how everyone looked upon us.

Ever since me and my brother joined that 'club', we were known as homosexuals. Everyone thought that we were in love with each other and we had lost our virginity to each other a long time ago. Yes, we did sleep in the same bed. And yes, we normally slept in only our boxers. And yes, we did sleep quite close to each other, closer than other brothers, but we still had our virginity. And yet no one else thought so.

Should I be ashamed to say that we haven't even kissed? Yes, there were those petty kisses that we gave on the check to each other in the host club and sometimes even at home, but never a real kiss. Not one that had our lips on the other's lips that is.

Would you believe it? I smile to myself as I watch Hikauro attempt to flirt with Haruhi.

Haruhi. To me, an invader. To him, love. The first person to enter our world. The first person that I felt soo confused about. I loved her too… but I also hated her. I loved her because… well who couldn't? She was perfect in a non-perfect way. The most perfect way. Smart but dense. Cute but boyish. Friendly but blunt. Slender but modest. Good but bad. She took away my other half. My mirror image. My true self.

Would you believe it? I frown to myself as Haruhi left the classroom with Hikauro's hand on her back. Fan girls squealed as they watched. Leaving me alone in the corner of the other side of the room. I just looked out the window of another sunny day.

I hated Haruhi for taking my precious Hikauro away. Jealousy? Maybe. Probably. Yes. But it was jealousy in a brotherly love way… or something else?

Would you believe it? I take out my notebook and doodle in it, trying to clear my head of confusion.

After all this time could… could I be thirsting something more from my brother? My twin? Could it be that those overly affectionate feelings for him were not brotherly love? That I had fallen in love with him? Could it be possible? Yes, it could be… but is it real? Maybe. But what about my attraction to Haruhi? Bisexuality?

Would you believe it? I frown at what I had unconsciously drawn. It was a picture of-

"Kauro!"

My head snaps in the direction of the voice that called me. I recognize it as my other half. My other half that's right behind me trying to see what I had drawn. I quickly close the notebook so Hikauro wouldn't get worried over what I had drawn. I smile up at him.

"What is it Hikauro?" I smile.

"I thought you said that you were coming to club? It's been an hour. Club is nearly over!"

"Ahh…gomen nasai." I stuff my notebook and pencil into my bag.

"Are you all right Kauro?" Hikauro asks me.

"What do you mean? Of course I'm all right!" I lie to him. We face face-to-face with each other. Our height exactly the same.

"You're lying." He states coldly. Angrily.

"Nani? I'm not lying."

"Yes you are. I can always tell when you're lying."

"I'm not lying."

"Kauro, did I do something to upset you?" The scene of Haruhi and Hikauro flash through my mind. I grit my teeth.

"You've done nothing wrong Hikauro."

"I'm sorry for whatever I did Kauro! The last thing I ever want to do is hurt you!" Hikauro nearly screams to me.

"You don't even know what's wrong!" I cry out not thinking of my words. Hikauro now has a triumphant grin on his face. I think of what I said and cry.

Would you believe it?

"Kauro!" Hikauro has the most shocked expression on his face when I opened my eyes and saw past the moisture. My tears were real. Not like the ones that I faked in the host club. Only Hikauro knew they were fake in the host club. But I knew he recognized these tears as real tears. Something he hasn't seen in nearly a decade.

"Hikauro!" I cry out in pain and tears as I reached toward his warm body. He holds me in his arms, not saying anything and let's me cry. Just cry and cry and cry. He made no movement or sound of annoyance or boredom, even if I did cry for hours. He just holds me and looks at me with worry, but not wanting to broach the subject and open the wounds in my heart even more. I grasp him tighter holding him to me so he couldn't push me away. The darkness was covering us.

"Hikauro! Please…please….don't …please don't…" I cry into his chest gripping him more.

"What Kauro? What is it that you don't want? Tell me! So I can help!" Hikauro squeezes me and smooth's my hair before putting his hand to my back again.

"I don't wa-want you to!"

"Help?"

"No! I…please do-don't want… please! I want you-!" I stutter.

"What do you not want me to do?" Hikauro is crying to.

"DON'T LEAVE ME!!!!!" I scream into his chest sobbing. I pull his white uniform shirt closer and continue to wail. "Don't leave me by myself! Pl-please!! I want to go back!! To-to when it was the two of us!! No-no one else!! No one to take you away from me!!! I don't want to be alone!! God! Don't leave me!!!!!!" I scream loudly, my voice high pitched from my crying.

Hikauro is shocked. He stiffens and then almost falls over.

"Don't leave me…"I whimper this time. Hikauro holds me firmly and then whispers something into my ear, "I swear, I will never leave you. Damn everyone else in this whole fucked-up world. We'll go back to when we hadn't met Tamaki, ignoring everyone else, if that's what you want. We'll quit the host club and always be together. No one else."

I look up at him through my tears, "No Haruhi?"

Hikauro bit his lip and thought for a minute before saying, "No Haruhi." He looked at me smiling with truthful eyes.

Would you believe it?

Hikauro was willing to give everything up for me. Everything! I smile and more tears slip away from my eyes.

"So you don't have any need to cry!" Hikauro wiped away my tears. And then did something that we rarely ever do. He bent down and kissed me on the forehead. A very long kiss. I smile.

"It's okay…" I say when he finally stops the kiss.

"Yes… it's okay Kauro…" Hikauro hugs me again.

"No… you aren't going to give all that up for me."

"What? I'm not giving anything up. The only thing I need is you."

"No! We will stay in the host club and you will continue on with your attempts to impress Haruhi!" I say angrily to him.

"No! You are more important!"

"You are gonna make your life a living Hell if you give all that up."

"Then why did you break down like that?!?!?!"

"Because I needed to know if you loved me enough to hurt yourself!"

"Of course I love you Kauro! I would kill myself if that would make you happy!"

"I feel the exact same way Hikauro." I smile at him as I pull him closer.

"What are you doing Kauro?"

"I need to know something. I need to know the reason why I didn't want you to leave."

"I'm not going to leave you-" but Hikauro's voice stops as he looks into my eyes. His eyes.

Would you believe it?

I press my lips softly and tenderly to his. Our lips caress each other. I never wanted this feeling to last. His lips made my lips sooo warm. I wanted to deepen the fist kiss, but resisted and pulled back. Hikauro smiles and so did I. I know he doesn't return the feelings, that his heart belongs to Haruhi, but at the moment I don't care.

We walked back home together, his hand around my waist as I cling to him and let out a few more sobs.

"I may leave you…" Hikauro says hesitantly, "But I'll always come back to you when you need me." I nod my head and whisper, "I know."

I remember the picture I drew. It was of Hikauro. Only Hikauro although I was sitting in the background, by myself.

I still didn't know what my feelings toward Hikauro were. Love or brotherly love?

I didn't care.

That was the night we slept in different beds from across the room from each other.

"I love you Hikauro." I say right before I fall to sleep.

"I love you too Kauro."

END.

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