A/N: So, thank you for reading. I'm not really sure what to say here. This is basically going to be Twilight, but not Twilight. It will probably follow that same main events of Twilight, but as you read, you'll discover that there's a lot of changes made. I'm going to be adding a handful of new characters. Hopefully, they'll be engaging and fun to work with, but you never know.

I'm going to keep the rating at T for now, but that may change later. My goal is to keep the swearing to a minimum, but depending on the situation, the swearing might go up. I don't think this will be an explicit story, but you never know what could happen, so for now, don't count on it being explicit.

Without further ado, here's the story.

Chapter 1 – First Sight (Bella)

My mother is saddened by the thought of letting us go, but she doesn't say anything. As we drive towards the airport, silence was out companion. She knows that it is best for all of us. She would finally be able to focus on something she wants.

My sister, Federica, sits behind me, looking displeased. She isn't happy about the move. I understand her displeasure, so I can't really say anything to her about it.

Moving meant giving up this gorgeous warm weather for a cold and wet climate. I also have to give up friends, which is actually only one person, and we were honestly never that close to begin with.

Federica on the other hand, has lost most than me. She is having a good year in sports, but now she has to give it up. I highly doubt that Forks High School would get anywhere with their sports, even with Federica. Plus, she has a lot of friends and is easily the most popular girl in our school. She is giving up her life basically.

'I'll be fine,' I hear my dear sweet twin say… no… I hear her think. That is the big secret between Rica and I. We can hear each other's thoughts. 'I'm more worried about your lack of friends.'

I roll my eyes. 'You might end up the one alone at this new school and I'll be the popular one,' I tease her.

'Hopefully,' I hear her reply after a while. 'I don't want to make friends in Forks.'

My sister, not want friends? There is no way. 'Why don't you want friends in Forks?'

'Same reason I stopped going to visit dad there. Everything about that town feels wrong to me.' Oh yes, I'd almost forgotten about that.

When Rica and I were fourteen, she had an episode. It was shortly after we'd first met the Blacks and some of their tribe. Rica hadn't been the nicest around them, but nothing bad had happened, at first. Jacob Black had gotten sick of her attitude and grabbed onto her arm. The next thing we knew, blood curdling screams filled the air and we found Rica passed out on the ground.

She wasn't the same after that. Rica didn't talk for a year and when she finally did start talking again, she didn't tell anyone what caused it. She pretended nothing happened and surrounded herself with friends.

My thoughts hit a wall when I realize the car has come to a stop. We are at the airport. My sister is already out of the car and grabbing her things. Quickly, I jump out of the car to do the same.

My mom laughs at me. It isn't a joyful laugh. It is a sad laugh. It's the type of laugh that breaks my heart, and the question to follow doesn't help. "Are you sure you guys want to do this?"

"We want to go," Rica and I answer at the same time.

My mom laughs in response and this time, it is genuine. "Tell Charlie I said hi."

"We will," Rica assures her.

"I'll see you soon," she promises. "You can come home whenever you want. I'll come right back as soon as you need me." She hates Forks, but I don't doubt that she'll come for us without a second thought.

She gives us each a bone breaking hug and then sends us on our way.

It's a four-hour flight from Phoenix to Seattle and another hour in a small plane up to Port Angeles. To top it all off, an hour drive to Forks. The flying is the easy part. The drive is going to be the challenge.

Don't get me wrong, Charlie is a really nice guy and is being extremely nice about the entire thing. He is probably just excited to have us live with him with some degree of permanence. He had already sorted out our transfers.

But it is going to be awkward, that I am certain of. Sure he is my father, but we don't know each other that well. We'd vacation together every summer for two weeks but that is it. There is no overly loving bon between us.

When we arrive in Port Angeles, it's raining. It is a perfect example of the dreary weather that I a expecting. I hava already said goodbye to sunshine and hello to rain.

Charlie is waiting for us with the cruiser. It isn't much of a surprise. Hell, I would have gambled on it. Charlie, the Police Chief to all the people of Forks. That's the reason we are going to need a car. Rica and I hate being driven around like criminals.

Charlie gives us both hugs as we stumbled off the plane.

"It's so good to see you guys," he says, smiling as he helps us with our luggage. "You two have changed much. How's Renée?"

"Mom's find and it's good to see you too Dad." We aren't allowed to call him Charlie to his face.

"I found a good car for you two, and it was cheap too," Charlie says as soon as we are strapped in. I get the backseat while Rica gets to sit up front.

'I bet it runs great,' Rica says mentally and I barely contain a laugh.

"What kind of car?" I ask suspiciously.

"It's a truck, a Chevy," he answers hesitantly as he watches our reactions.

"Where'd you get it?" Rica asks.

"Do you remember Billy Black down at La Push?" La Push is the tiny Indian Reservation near Forks. It's also where the episode happened. Jacob was Billy Black's son.

"No," Rica answers. She is lying and we both know it, but Charlie doesn't need to know that. I can't believe he would ask that though. Doesn't he remember what had happened there?

"We used to fish together during the summer," Charlie says. We continue to pretend not to know who he is. Charlie looks slightly disappointed that we don't remember, but he doesn't push it. "He's in a wheelchair now," Charlie says when we don't respond. "He can't drive anymore, and he offered to sell me his truck cheap."

"What year is it?" I find myself asking.

"Billy's done a lot of work on it, so it's practically only a couple of years old."

'Question dodging,' I tell Rica and she stifles a giggle.

"When did he buy it?" Rica asks. I am afraid to know, but Rica is too curious.

"I believe he bought it in 84'," Charlie answers.

'That's not that bad,' I manage to comment.

'Just wait,' she replies. "Did he buy it new?" Rica asks Charlie.

"Well, no," he answers nervously. "I think it was new in the early sixties of late fifties at the earliest."

"Dad, what will happen if something on it breaks? I don't know anything about vehicles and we can't afford a mechanic to fix it." My concerns sound reasonable.

"Don't worry, Bella," Rica says. "If anything happens, I'll be able to fix it." She then turns her attention to Charlie and asks, "Exactly how much was it?" She is trying to dodge any questions I could have about her ability to fix vehicles.

"Well, I kind of already bought it for you. Consider it a homecoming gift." Wow, that's a big gift.

"You didn't need to do that," I tell him. We have enough to buy a car, so he didn't need to help.

"I just want you two to be happy," Charlie says as he avoided our gazes. He isn't good at expressing emotions.

"Thanks Dad," I say. The gift makes me slightly uncomfortable, but I will still accept it.

"It's a wonderful gift, Dad," Rica tells him.

Charlie shifts uncomfortably at our thanks. "Well, you're welcome." He is embarrassed.

Rica goes on to chat with Charlie about various things and I just stare out the window. Even though I hate this place, I have to admit it is beautiful. Giant trees covered with moss. The branches create a cover that barely allows light through. It's like a world within a world.

Eventually, we arrive at Charlie's house. It is a small two bedroom house that he'd bought in the early years of marriage with my mother. Those were the only days though.

Sitting on the side of the street is our new- well, new to me- truck. It's an incredibly faded red color, with big, rounded features and a bulbous cab. To my surprise, I love it! If it ran, I could definitely see myself driving it. Plus, it is one of those solid iron affairs, so it never gets damaged. It's the type you see at an accident, pain unscratched, surrounded by broken pieces of the car it'd hit.

"Dad," I say with a bit of hesitation, "I love it." My voice is almost a whisper, but he hears my message.

"I'm glad you like it," he says. I embarrassed him again.

It takes only one trip to get everything into my new room. I get the bedroom that faces over the front lawn. Rica is supposed to share the room with me, but she opts to take the basement. Charlie tries to stop her, but she insists, so he eventually gives in. Rica spends the better part of the night 'decorating' as she puts it.

I carefully snuck a peak and what I saw was a big shock. Rica had taken all the boxes out of the corners and had made a wall out of them. There's only a small opening to get into the room, but that's at the bottom of the stairs.

'Rica, what are you doing?' I ask her.

There is a long pause, like she wasn't expecting me to talk to her. 'I'm just making a place for myself.'

'Why do you need wall?' I close the door and start walking away. It was best I don't poke around anymore.

'They're for privacy, duh. I don't want people looking in on my activities.'

'I really don't think Charlie will ever come near the basement.'

'You're probably right, but I'm just being sure.'

'Weirdo,' I tease before entering the kitchen. 'So, you excited for school tomorrow?'

'Hell no! It'll be something to do, but that doesn't make it any less boring.'

'I'm sure it's boring for Miss I Skipped A Grade.'

'You're just jealous that I'll get out of here before you.'

'Guilty as charged,' I reply as Charlie walks into the kitchen where I'd been standing idly. His entrance effectively snaps me out of the conversation and back into reality. 'Hold on.'

"Hey," I say and Charlie looks at me curiously. "What's for supper?"

"Oh, umm, I'll fry up some hamburgers. That ok?" He looks at me hopefully.

"That's perfect."

'Tell Dad that I'll eat once I'm done cleaning,' Rica says. 'So don't wait up.'

"Rica is going to finish cleaning and she'll eat later, so we shouldn't wait up for her." It wis awkward trying to relay the message.

Charlie looks sad, but doesn't object. "Sure. You can run along and I'll call for you when they're ready."

I nod and head for the stairs.

'How disappointed was he?' Rica asks as I climbed the stairs.

'Crushed,' I answer. The image of Charlie's face appears in my mind and I focus on it.

'Wow, I better come down and eat then.'

'Ya think? Anyways, what are we going to do about the truck situation?'

'You can have the truck since I know that you like it. I'm going to buy myself a nice car after school tomorrow.'

'Don't burn through your money too fast,' I tease her as I sit down in bed.

'I will still have plenty of money left. I have more money than you think. Oh, remind me to deposit money into my bank account, so I'm not carrying all that money around in cash.'

'Quit bragging.' I roll my eyes at her. 'So, what type of car are you getting?'

'I'm buying one from a guy I know in Seattle. He's driving down with one of my friends to meet up after I get out of school.'

'You didn't answer my question,' I tell her. She is good at question dodging.

'It's red with white stripes. That's all I really know.'

'How are you going to buy it if you don't even know what it is?' I ask suspiciously.

'I know what it is,' she says defensively. 'I'm just not telling you what it is, because I want to surprise you.'

'Alright,' I say in defeat. Angering Rica wouldn't help at all.

We sit in silence for a while. Rica goes on cleaning and I sit in silent contemplation.

I dread school tomorrow. I am scared of not making any friends. I never had any real friends when I was in Phoenix. The closest person to me was Rica, but she is my sister, so I really couldn't count her as a friend. I actually did have one friend, Alexis, but we really only hung out together because we didn't want to be seen alone.

The thing I am most concerned about was the fact that I am pale. Normally, people from Phoenix are tan, which caused me to get picked on a lot. I was often made fun of for being so pale. I actually had Rica to thank that being made fun of wasn't worse. Rica had practically put me under her protection.

I'm sure that when people heard that they were having a student from Phoenix, they automatically expected a tan, blonde volleyball player, or they'd maybe expect a beautiful cheerleader. They would probably want someone that I was not, someone like my sister.

"The burgers are ready," Rica says suddenly. I look up and she is standing in the doorway.

"Oh, ok," I mumble as I get up. I follow Rica in silence down the stairs and into the kitchen.

She is the perfect me. We look the same, except for haircut, but she is better in every way. Rica has the brains, grace, and is funny. My grades are average. I have the grace of an alligator on roller-skates. Every time I make a joke, people just stare in confusion, except for Rica of course.

'Quit overthinking things,' Rica tells me as we sit down.

Charlie turns around with a plate of burgers and gives Rica a look of confusion. "Nice of you to join us," Charlie comments as he sets down the plate of food.

"I finished up early," Rica says smiling.

I roll my eyes. 'Liar,' I call her.

'I know, but he doesn't need to know that,' she retorts.

The rest of the meal consists of small talk. Charlie asks Rica a question and she answers. Then, she asks a question, Charlie answers, and then the process repeats.

Rica and Charlie have always been close, unlike Charlie and I. Charlie is never able to express emotions clearly and I have taken after him. Rica is the opposite. She is sunshine to darkness. She brings out the best in people. That's why she gets along with Charlie. She gives him the ability to show emotion and takes the awkwardness away.

After eating, I head back to my room and Rica goes back to her cleaning. Charlie probably goes back to watching TV.

Outside is full of fog and it practically smothers me. The lack of sky makes me feel like I'm in a cage.

Breakfast isn't much. Charlie wishes us good luck. I thank him, knowing his wishers are lost. Good luck tends to avoid me.

Charlie leaves before use and we just sit there in silence. The kitchen has dark paneled walls and bright yellow cabinets. Nothing has changed since my mother left. Their wedding photos and photos of the four of us still sit above the fireplace.

"He never got over mom," Rica says, her voice barely above a whisper.

"It's sad," I reply.

Rica nods in reply and stands. "Let's go."

I follow her out of the house. She takes the passenger seat, so I guess that I'll be driving.

Finding the school is a surprisingly easy task. It isn't like the schools in Phoenix. It doesn't have security guards or metal detectors, which is quite a relief.

I park in front of the firs building, which is labelled 'FRONT OFFICE'. I figure this is a good place to start.

Leaving my toasty warm truck is hard, but the office is pleasantly warm. A red-head sits at the desk. It looks like she'd trying to act busy, but is failing.

Rica walks right up to the desk and coughs, gaining the woman's attention.

"How may I help you?" she asks in a slightly annoyed tone.

"I'm Federica Swan and this is my sister, Isabella Swan." Rica smiles at her and she seems instantly nicer.

"Oh, of course," she says. The woman digs through a pile of papers and produces class schedules. "This is yours," she says as she hands Rica a paper. "This is Isabella's." I take the paper and then she produces yet another paper. "Have your teachers sign this and return it at the end of the day."

"Thank you," we say in unison.

Embarrassed, I hurry out of the room. 'I hate it when we do that,' I tell Rica.

'I know, but I find it funny. I think it scares people.' Rica catches up with me and hands me a piece of paper. 'You forgot a map of the school. You would have been roaming around forever. We would have had to call dad to do a search for you.'

My face is beat red with embarrassment. 'I hate you.'

'No, my little sister loves me,' she says as we approach the door to the school.

'We're the same age.'

'No, I was born first.'

'How would you know?' I ask as we enter the building.

'Would you like to see the video of mom giving birth?'

'Gross! What the hell? Charlie recorded that?'

'No,' she says and I almost stop dead in my tracks. I glance at her and she's barely containing a laugh.

'Jerk,' I call her as we approach a room.

'I'm the jerk that helped you get to your first class without incident.'

I sigh and glance up at her. She has an annoying smirk on, but she is right. 'Thanks.' Rica is annoying sometimes, but she is right almost every time. Rica is very… she is always looking out for me.

Once inside the classroom, I hang my coat on the wall and look around for something to do. I notice my teacher, so I go and hand him my slip. He gives me a funny look, but sends me to a desk without incident.

Once at my desk, I study the reading list the teacher gave me. It is pretty basic: Bronte, Shakespeare, Chaucer, and Faulkner. We'd already done all these in Arizona.

'Seems pretty easy, right?' I ask Rica with a smirk. There is no response on the other end and I start to grow anxious. 'Rica, are you there?' I sit in my chair in complete silence and wait for her response. Rica doesn't respond before the class period ends and I decide not to push it. She'd probably busy.

When the bell rings, I see a boy approaching me. He has hair black as an oil slick and skin problems.

"You're Isabella Swan, aren't you?" he asks. I take a moment to assess him. He looks like the overly helpful, chess club type.

"I go by Bella," I correct him. As I speak, everyone within three desks of me turns to look at me.

"Where's your next class?" he asks.

'Government, with Jefferson, in building six,' a voice supplies helpfully.

'Oh, now you respond,' I tell her sourly. 'Thanks.'

"Government, with Jefferson, in building six," I inform him. I keep my eyes forward to avoid all of the curious gazes.

"I'm heading toward building four. I could show you the way." Definitely overly-helpful. "I'm Eric," he adds.

I smile at him and say, "Thanks."

'Aww, my little Bella is already making friends,' Rica teases me.

I ignore her and rise to get my coat. As we leave, we slip on rain coats, because the rain is just picking up.

"So, this is a lot different than Phoenix, huh?" he asks.

"Very," I say kind of dryly.

"It doesn't rain much there, does it?"

'We have a smart one here,' Rica comments.

I laugh a little and then respond with, "Three or four times a year."

"Wow, what that must be like," he wondered.

"Sunny," I supplied helpfully.

"You don't look very tan," he comments. Great, he manages to bring up the subject I don't want to touch on.

"My mother is part albino." It's a good come back. I managed to think of it last night.

He studies my face apprehensively, and I sigh. It looks like clouds and a sense of humor don't mix. A few months of this and I'd forget how to use sarcasm.

'Don't worry, I'll make sure that you keep your ability to use sarcasm,' Rica reassured me.

We walk back around the cafeteria, to the south buildings by the gym. Eric even walks me right to the door, though it is clearly marked.

"Well, good luck," he says as I touch the handle. "Maybe we'll have some other classes together." He sounds hopeful.

I manage to smile vaguely at him and go inside.

The rest of the morning passes really fast. It's mainly filled with chatting between Rica and I.

My Trigonometry teacher, Mr. Varner, who I would have hated anyways just because of the subject he teaches, was the only one who made me stand in front of the class and introduce myself. I stammered, blushed, and tripped over my own two feet.

Rica said something witty and I told her something unpleasant.

After two classes, I start to recognize several of the faces in each class. There's always someone braver than the others who would introduce themselves and ask me questions about how I like Forks. I try to be diplomatic, but mostly I end up lying, a lot.

One girl sat next to me in both Trig and Spanish, and she is walking with me to the cafeteria for lunch. She's tiny, several inches shorter than my five feet four inches, but her wildly curly hair made up for the difference in our heights. I couldn't remember her name, so I smile and nod as she prattles about teachers and classes. I don't even bother trying to keep up.

We sit at the end of a large table. She introduces me to all her friends, but I forget all of their names as soon as they start to talk. They all seem to think that her bravery in talking to me is outstanding.

'Where are you?' I ask Rica impatiently, trying to look like I'm paying attention to the conversation at hand.

'Nowhere,' is the reply I get.

'Why don't you come and eat lunch with me?' I practically whine.

'I wouldn't want to get in between you and your friends,' she says sarcastically.

'I don't even know their names, so I hardly think they count as friends.'

'What class do you have next?'

She's not even trying to be subtle about subject change. 'Biology II.'

'Well, have fun with that. I'm going to gym.'

'Wait,' I try to say, but she cuts the connection in the middle of the conversation.

I sigh and try to pay attention to what the people next to me are saying, but I am failing miserably. That's why I notice them.

They are sitting in the opposite side of the cafeteria. There are five of them. They aren't talking, and they aren't eating although they have food in front of them.

There are three boys. One of them is big, like a professional weight lifter, with dark, curly hair. Another is tall, leaner, but still has a lot of muscles, plus, honey-blonde hair. The last is lanky, less bulky, with messy, bronze hair. He is distinctly younger looking than the other two, who actually look like they could be in college, or even teachers.

There girls are opposites. The tall one is statuesque. She has a beautiful figure, like a swimsuit model. Her beauty is the type that hits every girl in the room and lowers their self-esteem. Her hair is golden, like sunshine, and flows in gentle waves all the way down her back. The short girl reminds me of a pixie. She's thin to an extreme, with small features, and her hair is a deep black, cropped short and pointing in every direction.

They only thing they really have in common is their chalky pale skin, which is actually paler than mine. They also all have very dark eyes, and under those eyes are bruise like shadows. It looks like they haven't slept in a long time, or are just exhausted.

"Who are they?" I ask the girl from my Spanish class.

She looks up, but I have a feeling that she already knows who I'm talking about just by the tone of my voice. Just as she looks, the boy, the young looking one, looks up at her. His eyes are on her for only a second, but then they flicker to me. He immediately turns his eyes down and I flush in embarrassment.

"That's Edward and Emmett Cullen, and Rosalie and Jasper Hale. The one that left earlier was Alice Cullen. They all live together with Dr. Cullen." She says all this in one breath and I finally come around to remembering her name. She's Jessica.

"They are," I start, looking for the best way to say it, "very nice looking?" It comes out as more of a question than I'd hoped.

"Yes!" she agrees with a giggle. "They're all like together though. Emmett is with Rosalie, and Jasper is with Alice. And they live together." She voice is dripping with the shock and condemnation of a small town.

"Which ones are the Cullens?" I ask. "They don't look related."

"Oh, they're not. Dr. Cullen is really young, in his twenties or early thirties. They're all adopted. The Hales are brother and sister, twins actually. They're the blonde ones, and they're foster children."

'If they're not related, why was she so offended that they're all together?' Rica growls in my head and I jump in shock. She must have been listening in earlier. Judgmental people really piss Rica off.

'Oh, now you say something,' I reply sourly.

"Which one is the boy with the reddish brown hair?" I found myself asking.

"That's Edward. He's gorgeous, of course, but don't waste your time. He doesn't even bother to date. Apparently, none of the girls here are up to his standards." I wonder when he turned her down.

I glance quickly at Edward and his face is turned away, but I swear his cheek is lifted, like he is smiling. I quickly look away and turn my attention back to Jessica and her friends. After a few minutes, the Cullens and the Hales get up and leave the cafeteria.

Shortly after, I start towards Biology II with Angela, who said she has Biology II with me. We walk in silence. She is really shy, too. We enter the classroom together and Angela goes to sit with someone else. In fact, I look around the room and there is only one seat open. In fact, that seat happens to be right next to Edward Cullen.

As I head towards the front of the room, I glance back at him and I can't help but to stare. His eyes are black, like coal.

Mr. Banner quickly signs my slip and hands me a book without bother to have me introduce myself to the class, which I am grateful for. He sends me to the only open seat, right next to Edward. As I sit, I can't help but to notice the death glares he seems to be sending me. As the minutes pass, I notice that he's leaning next to me. Do I smell bad?

'You smell like skunk,' Rica says and I scowl.

'You're nice as ever,' I comment and flip my hair over the left side of my face, creating a curtain between us.

'How are you supposed to eat him up with your eyes if you can't see him?' she asks. I quickly glance through my wall of hair and notice that he hasn't relaxed. 'Wow, are you making that face again and scaring him?'

'How do I know that you didn't do something and he's avoiding me because he thinks that I'm you?' I reply snappily.

'I got in a lot of trouble already. I walked right up to him and said, "Fuck you," to his face. Then, I repeatedly told the teacher to go screw himself.' I snort in laughter and immediately turn red. A few people turn and look at me, but quickly turn away. 'Now everyone thinks you're nuts.'

I ignore her comment and decide that it's best to listen to the teacher. Occasionally, I glance at Edward and throughout the entire class period, he never once relaxes. The moment the bell rings, he's out of his seat and out the door.

I am trying my best to keep myself from crying when I hear someone say, "Aren't you Isabella Swan?" I look up and see a cute, baby-face boy, with pale blond hair smiling at me.

"Bella," I correct him with a smile.

"I'm Mike," he introduces himself.

"Hi, Mike."

'Smooth,' Rica says and I ignore her.

"Do you need help finding your next class?" he offers helpfully.

"I'm heading to the gym, actually, and I think that I can find it." I am trying to politely reject him.

"That's my next class, too," he informs me in a thrilled tone.

As we walk to class, I discover that he is a chatter box. He supplies most of the conversation, which I'm grateful for. Surprisingly, he's the nicest person I've met today.

As we enter the gym, he asks, "So, did you stab Edward Cullen with a pencil or something? I've never seen him act like that."

Thank god I'm not the only one that noticed. "Was that the boy I sat next to in Biology?" I ask faking ignorance.

"Yes," he says. "He looked like he was in pain or something."

"I don't think I made him mad," I say more sourly than I would have liked. "I never even talked to him."

"I guess he's just weird," Mike says. He lingers by me a bit before deciding it's best to head into the men's locker room. I head quickly into the women's locker room and look for Couch Clapp, who supplies me with a uniform.

Gym passes fairly quickly without incident and I say a silent thank you as soon as I'm heading to the office.

'I'm surprised you didn't hurt someone,' Rica comments as we head towards the office.

'Me too,' I say as we enter the room. I almost turn around right away.

Edward Cullen stands at the front desk. He doesn't appear to notice our entrance, so we stand towards the back of the room.

'He seems to be having trouble,' Rica comments dryly.

He's trying to switch Biology… for any other time. Holy shit, this is about me!

'What did I do to him?' I say internally with a scowl.

'I don't know…' Rica says and she has a disturbed look on her face.

Rica sighs and Edwards head snaps towards us. He quickly turns away and mutters something to the receptionist and hurries out the door. Rica and I approach the desk and hand her our slips.

"How did your first day go?" she asks.

"Fine," we answer at the same time and I mentally face palm. Why did we have to do it again?

We are sent on our way and I practically run back to the truck. I turn the key and wait for Rica to get in. Then, I take off out of the parking lot as fast as I can.