Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of the characters in it. Is this story really so brilliant that you'd mistake me for Stephenie Meyer? No? I didn't think so.

Chapter 1

BPOV

Jake and I were spread out across the living room floor doing homework. It was the first time in what felt like forever that we were doing something normal. Usually Jake was too busy chasing vampires to do things like homework and I was too busy hanging out with werewolves. I turned the page of the book I was reading for English. As I did this I managed to slit my finger on the page. It started to bleed.

''Oh great,'' I muttered.

''What is it?'' asked Jake.

''Just a paper cut, I'll go get a bandage, there has to be a first aid kit around here somewhere.'' I got up and walked into the kitchen.

I rummaged around for a while until I finally found a first aid kit. I opened it up and started looking for a bandage but instead my hand closed around what felt like an envelope. I pulled it out and looked at it. My name was written on it. Suddenly I realised that I recognised the handwriting.

''Alice,'' I whispered. I was surprised at how much it hurt to say her name. I'd never really thought about how much I missed her and now that I did I felt tears spring to my eyes.

Slowly I opened the envelope and unfolded the letter inside.

Dear Bella,

If you are reading this letter it means you've managed to injure yourself again. I'm not surprised; in fact I was counting on it. It also means that I've been able to keep my thoughts hidden from Edward. I'll be very surprised if I manage that but I have to try. You see Bella I think you deserve the truth so here it is...

First of all can I say how sorry I am that I never got the chance to say goodbye. Edward thought it would be the best for you. I'm guessing he was wrong. My idiot brother can be wrong about a lot of things. He's managed to convince himself that you're better off without him. He thinks that eventually you'll move on and get over him. I'm assuming he's wrong about that too.

Bella, I've got to tell you because you deserve the truth. That day in the forest when Edward told you he didn't love you, he lied. He left to protect you from what he is. He loves you so much. Without you he is nothing. He is no longer Edward; he's just an empty body, devoid of emotion. So please if we haven't hurt you too much, if you can ever forgive us, if you think you can still love Edward after all the pain he's put you through, come find me. I'll be in Denali. I've written the address on the back. I miss you Bella, every day. You were my best friend. Life's not the same without you and I don't think Edward will ever be the same again.

Love, Alice

I couldn't stop the tears; they came pouring down my cheeks. After a couple of minutes Jake came in to see what was taking me so long.

''Bella?'' Then he saw me. ''Bella, what's wrong?'' He put his arms around me and held me tight. But his arms weren't the ones that I wanted around me and that made me sob even louder.

''He lied,'' was all I managed to choke out.

''What? Who lied?'' Then he saw the letter in my hand. Gently, he took it from me and read it. I felt him stiffen.

''You're not seriously thinking of going, are you?'' he asked.

''I have to,'' I said quietly.

''You don't have to do anything.''

I could feel him getting angrier and I wanted to say something to make him happy. I didn't want to be the cause of his pain but I couldn't do anything about it. I cared about Jacob but at that moment in time I knew that I had to take care of myself. There was nothing that I could say to make Jake feel better because all I wanted was to be with Edward and there was no way of putting that that wouldn't make Jacob feel anguished.

''I'm sorry,'' was all I could say.

''Don't be,'' he said bitterly. ''I always knew you'd choose them if you ever had to make a choice. I guess I just hoped...'' He turned away from me and headed towards the door.

I caught his arm and turned him back around to face me. ''It doesn't have to be like this. Please.'' I was almost begging now.

''Yeah, it does.'' He jerked his arm free and walked straight out the door without looking back.

I stared at the door for at least five minutes later before I finally managed to pull myself together. There was more important things to worry about, like money and Charlie. I quickly scribbled a note to Charlie explaining that I would be gone for a few days. I didn't have time to think of an excuse so I just said I'd explain when I got back.

Then I thought about the money I had left in my account after paying for the motorbike repairs. I had enough left to get to Alaska but there was no way I was going to college. I sighed but accepted this fact, after all who needed college when they could have the love of their life back?

I called the airlines and booked a flight to Alaska that I would just about make if I left straight away. After that I threw some clothes, underwear, my toothbrush and Alice's letter into a rucksack. I raided my room and found some money that I could use if I needed to get a taxi to the house in Denali. Finally I was ready to go and I ran out the door.

It was pouring rain outside but I didn't care. For the first time in seven months I felt truly happy. I wasn't quite whole again, not yet, not when such a huge piece of me was still missing but I would be soon. I was so close to being back in Edward's arms. It didn't hurt anymore to remember him. I would be with him again soon.

I reached the airport just in time for my flight. I felt calmer once I was on the plane. I stared out the window and picked out clouds that were shaped like hearts. While I was doing this I tried to remain unhopeful. When I got to Denali Edward wasn't just going to forget why he left. He might want me to leave and never come back. I knew he just wanted to protect me but still that would hurt. At the same time I couldn't help but be happy because he loved me and that would never change. This time I wasn't going to let him go.

I refused to be ripped into pieces again, if he really, truly loved me he would stay with me, forever. The announcement came on informing me that we were about to land and I tried not to feel nervous.

Suddenly the plane began to shake. I gripped the seat tightly. It all happened very quickly then. One moment there was just some slight turbulence and the next we were falling in a death spiral straight towards the ground...

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