One day"
Some days he thinks "today is the day I will tell her" but when he sees her... he is a fucking coward and she deserves so much than him. Although she acts like he is the best man in the world, he doesn't believe it.
Some days she will caught him staring at her and she will smile at his days she will go to him to kiss him in the cheek before he goes to a run. Some days she will hug him when he came back safe to the Kingdom.
Some days he stays up until late in the night thinking about her. He thinks about how he almost lost her so many times in the fucking Alexandria. He remembers the pain when Rick told him she has left and no one knew where she was. He remembers the anguish when fucking Negan told them his people has killed her. He remembers the relieve when he saw her, when she saved them in the second attack of Negan which destroyed Alexandria. He remembers how proud he was of her being the leader of the kingdom. And he remembers the relieve he felt when Rick decided the best was to go to the kingdom with her, although Sasha after Abraham's death decided to go far away from them.
Somedays he stays in the bed thinking of her all night. Sometimes he wants to go to her room and asked her why she chose Tobin in Alexandria. He wants to know why she dated him, why she kissed him, why she fucked him and why she left him that letter. Sometimes he wants to ask her about that fucking farewell letter. Sometimes he wants to go to her room and hold her all night so she doesn't feel that way never again. Sometimes he does it.
Sometimes he goes to her room and he watches her sleep. Sometimes she would cry in her nightmares and he would wake her up telling her he has heard her. But he sees in her eyes that she knows him better. She knows he goes to her room just to see her and believe she is really there.
Somedays he sleeps with her in the same bed. Somedays she will wake up first and bring to him a cup of coffee. Somedays he is brave enough to look at her eyes and kiss her cheek.
Some days he thinks "go to her, tell her you love her before it's too late". Some days Rick goes to him to tell him the same, that one day she will be dead or he will be dead. Some days Tara tells him that Denise would have wanted them to live their love. Some days Carol looks at him with that look which says " I love you".
But he thinks he doesn't deserve her, he thinks she doesn't love him because why would she love him? Sometimes he is afraid that if he makes a move, she will die.
One day, he will tell her.
But one day she leaves in a run, and she is hurt. So badly. They don't know if she will recover. He cries at her bedside, he makes animal noises that scare everyone. He begs her, he begs Sophia to not take her from him, he begs this fucking world to let him have her. He promises her he will love her everyday.
One day, she wakes up. She cannot walk properly because of her injuries but it doesn't matter because he is here to help her. It doesn't matter because she has heard his confession of love. It doesn't matter because she feels the same way.
The next day, she kisses him because she knows he is afraid. The next day, she tells him he is her man of honour.
One day, he will tell her. One day, he will ask her to marry him. One day he will tell her he has told Rick about his intention and the ring he kept in his pocket.
As always, she decides for him. And one day, she tells him she would like to chaange her surname for Dixon.
