Title: Moving On

Author: Blossomgirl94

Summary: Another drabble for the fourth day of Duncney Week 2013. Courtney wants to forget.

Prompt: Thursday- Memories

Disclaimer: I don't own Total Drama


"Moving On"

I wish I could forget. I wish I had a sudden case of amnesia that would take me back to before the island. I wish that my memories wouldn't return afterwards and I could start over and when I would see his face in a magazine or on the TV, I would be able to make a snarky comment about how much he looks like a tool and continue on with my day. I would study for law school, I would restart my band, and I would do much more productive things while crying much less.

I knew eventually the pain would go away. Heartbreak has a weird way of healing, but the process wasn't going fast enough and I was forced to see the new happy couple everywhere I went. Paparazzi would ask me questions. Interviews never went without asking at least one as well.

"How does it feel to see him in the media?"

"Shitty."

Of course I never put it like that, but I desperately wanted to. Maybe then they'd stop asking. However, they wanted a strong girl who wouldn't let something as silly as a teenage break-up get in the way.

"Honestly, I couldn't care less. I'm to focused on my life to care about what someone else is doing."

Always lies. But they believed it. Of course, I wasn't exactly helping myself either, watching old reruns from on the island, on the film lot, on the plane. I look at how happy I was with him and feel my chest cave. Not because of sadness, but because I realize that I don't regret any of these moments with him. I loved these things when I was with him. It was the time of my life at one point. I just wish it didn't suck so much now.

I take back wanting to forget. I don't want to forget something that once made me feel like the most amazing person on earth. I just wish I could get over it a little bit faster.