He wandered down to the waters edge, his icy cold eyes watching
the reflection in the perfectly still, ripples surface.
Aimlessly his elegant face frowned only slightly as emerald eyes
stared back at him with the same cold look he gave to everyone
else that watched him. Green, like some sort of slime, he thought
it very befitting of himself, he likened himself to slime now
a days.
the man sat down at the waters edge, letting cold stone uphold
his body as if he was tiered, but tiredness was impossible, and
yet he felt tiered in a completely different way. his body wasn't
able to be tiered... His mind was endlessly ticking his bright
eyes always observing like some sort of data gathering machine.
And yet, he was tiered, he was sick and Tiered. Too big impossibilities
and yet he felt them seep into his body and saw with his own flat
green eyes, inside the waters reflection, these feelings creep
into his expression and into his hollow chest crept the icy feeling
he had been used to for so long. That comforting cold seemed so
void, so chilly, so much worse now that he knew warmth.
'"the water... It never lies you know, it's like a heart really, it tells everything."
Didn't that stunning man say something like that? Didn't he smile warmly and put his arm around my shoulders as he watched my reflection in the water and told me:
"Water can't hide that it's warm or cold, when it's warm it steams and when it's cold it freezes... Water never lies... Just like a mirror."
What had he been talking about?'
The man pulled long blond hair away from his face and put his
head down near the water, watching it closely, watching his reflection,
watching his eyes as if he expected to get answers from it, as
if he thought the water would tell him what he so desperately
needed to know. He got so close to the still surface so perfectly
telling him everything and yet nothing that he wanted to hear.
So close that his icy breath made the imperfection known as a
ripple wave through the small pound and his reflection was stirred
into something unrecognizable.
"...Just as pure and true as any heart..."
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It was dark out, hot in the summers stifling heat and it only
added to the amount of sweat on the pair's backs, one half naked
the other still fully dressed, but as the actions were going,
he wouldn't be for long.
Vexen thrashed about under the weight of his attacker.
It was a hot summer night, or it should of been...The song
of small insects and larger frogs singing was what Demyx missed
the most. He did not find this still air that could of been day
or night as comforting as the rest of the nobodies, who seemed
unbothered by the effects this white castle had on them. Uncaring
that the air was so soundless it felt heavy and crushing on ones
chest, unaware of the lack of any sort of smell or sight or sound,
the way ones senses were starved into crying out silently for
something more for something, et alone more, just something.
None of the other members seemed affected the way he was, none
of them seemed to be bothered, they could live without, could
sleep without.
Demyx couldn't. He laid awake for hours, wondering where was the
summer? It felt nether like summer nor winter, the feeling of
nothingness was so strong in this place, as if Xemnas was reinforcing
the idea into their brains by taking out anything that might be
something. Where were the people? They all slept at once. Where
were the sounds, the sights the feelings. The Smells and tastes...
They were all void in this gray abyss.
Lying awake Demyx would let his eyes open because either way they
saw nothing but the stark white outlines of his room against the
contrasting black sky of his world. His bright eyes shone with
a thirst for something more then what he had, his fingers, resting
lightly on his stomach and on the floor under his head, twitched
and his senses were straining... Straining for something, anything.
So when he heard a muffled voice from somewhere above his head
his aqua eyes instantly looked up to see where it was coming from,
his body lifting and his ears picking up the sound with ease.
A Voice, someone else was up? This seemed like a strange occurrence
to him, for even when Xemnas or one of the four were up, they
never really made any noise, too engrossed in what they were doing
to speak or even more for long periods of time.
So Demyx got up out of his white covered bed and wandered over
to the portal leading outside his room, wandering the hallways
to find out what was making that strange voice and cluttering
sound, it's not like he could of slept anyway and he really needed
something to do, before this place drove him insane, his bright
aqua eyes hopeful in his search for some sort of company, for
some sort of companionship for sound for smell for life.
Was Regeneration possible as a nobody? did it happen quickly?
Why did this happen to him? this wasn't supost to happen, darkness
at this height should of did regeneration to him, he was one of
the darkness, he belonged to it, a part of it why did it do this!?
Thoughts raced through his scientific mind as sharp greens eyes
frantically looked in vein for a healing item... A Bandage anything
to stop the blood pumping out of his body at a rate so fast it
was hard for him to keep up. Elegant face was turning a white
color, even less pigmentation then Zexion even. The rest of his
body was shaking violently as the very darkness he had been so
determined to prove was working with them started to envelope
his vision and cloud his racing mind with a dense black fog that
made it hard to move his limbs. Dawn slammed and filing cabinets
crashed down with the force he used in searching his lab for what
he desperately needed, what his existence counted on.
"...The darkness..." He whispered softly, thin lips
tight in what could of been mistaken for pain if one didn't know
better, his body went through one last tremble and his shoulders
and legs gave out, taking a filing cabinet down with him the blond
nobody fell down, his blond hair soaking in crimson liquid that
pooled around him.
he never thought he would see so much blood in his life. The red liquid glimmered in the darkness and sanctuary of shadows. dancing light on the red pools as if mocking the darkness. fighting it for the life that had been lost that night, leaked out of the fragile nobody body and onto the stone cold floor, seeping into the white and blending in with the shadow.
Scarlet also stained the tanned flesh of a certain nocturnal
musician that night.
hard at work the shirt less man glimmered in the light, his face
total concentration and concern as he watched the bloodless man
in front of him, the blood pool was old and it had stopped bleeding
sometime before, healed and tightened up tightly the wound no
longer leaked life onto the floor for light and dark to fight
over.
His full lips lightly parted, aqua eyes wandering over what was
just a finished piece of work. concern, worry and a bit of curiosity
on those sparkling eyes full of life and a hidden light that only
now, when someone was in dire need, was at it's best and brightest.
Finished now Demyx only laid the blond man back on the blood stained
sheets and washed off the remaining red. Cleaning off the still
breathing mans neck and face, gently touching the ghostly figure
with a soft wash cloth.
a Million questions raced through his now alert mind, and he wondered
if these questions would ever be answered or if the ever elegant
but stone cold nobody would simply walk away from him like he
had so many other times before this, not even taking the time
to laugh at his inquiries, only to wave him away with a fragile
looking long fingered hand. Demyx moved a few pieces of long blond
hair away from the pale face, it was regaining color now and he
could see movement in the others eyes meaning that the nobody
would soon regain himself and Demyx would be left alone again.
The lower ranking blond nobody ran gentle fingers over the fragile
face, tucking silvery blond hair behind the others ears and checking
the few bandages he had put on Vexen's slimly built yet lean chest
and torso. He pulled the white cloth away and a relived smile
moved over his pretty lips and his shoulders heaved a sigh, the
wounds were all closed up, some even healed so that there were
only a glaring red scar. good thing he kept good healing items
around him at all times, his worrying had paid off and he had
got to use them.
Lanky fingers removed some of the unnecessary bandages and ran
soft fingertips over the scars with a concerned look, biting his
bottom lip. He wondered what could Vexen have been doing. He had
heard roomers of course, roomers of the high ranking blond nobodies
unstable state... ,Unstable, Demyx had laughed at that, as if
any of them were stable, and yet they persisted that maybe they
were true.
Everyone knew the reclusive chilly scientist could only be deemed
unstable on a different note then maybe you would put Xemnas on.
Aqua eyes wandered over a sleeping face and he smiled softly and
pulled a blanket over the nobodies body, he always looked so cold.
"Sweet dreams ice man." He said softly and made sure
once more that Vexen was ok, leaving him to sleep silently until
the wake up call.
Demyx wandered over to the door, treading softly and turning out
the light once he reached the door, sad eyes watched Vexens chest
rise and fall before he shut the door, leaving Vexen in the complete
and total darkness
"Wake up!" A rough shake of sore shoulders sent an
electric spark down Vexens bruised flesh, a bit sore and steal
healing...Healing. Vexens eyes shop open wide, green emeralds
that sparkled in the light room.
he was alive!? How...He remembered...
Vexen brought his hand up to his eyes, afraid that the degeneration
would of somehow eaten the entire thing instead of stopping with
what he had done to himself on accident. His emerald eyes went
wide in shock and disbelief.
His hand...Not only was it all there the dark determiation that
had led to his blood loss black out was completely gone... His
fingers and thumb, witch had been completely eaten off, were back.
He moved them around, amazed. He hugged the appendage to his chest,
joy over flooding his hollow icy cavern.
Emerald eyes looked up to the voice that had waken him up, his
eyes showing a warm type of thank you not so typical of the chilly
man.
"you saved me?" He asked softly, to think...Someone
cared about him that much... To take care of him. to...To bandage
him and to heal his wounds, this was not some slack job done to
heal him. no this was effort and hard work not to mention a fortunes
worth of healing items.
His flat eyes sparkled and he smiled up at the taller man.
"No, not me, you were foolish enough to let your experiments
get out of hand Vexen." A Cold voice said in a scorn. All
warm feeling eluded number four in that moment, Vexen looked
up to Xemnas with an ashamed expression. looking away quickly,
still holding his healed hand like a child would a teddy bear
as he was scolded.
"You could of taken out three other members with you if you
had gone any further, I told you not to pursue that theory because
it was bogus." Xemnases voice was harsh, unforgiving and
cruel. So cold.
"But...I was so sure...-"
"But nothing Vexen, you directly contradicted a reasonable
demand from me, you think this is still about since and discovery
Vexen? No this game no longer requires your knowledge and brains,
it is a game of power now Vexen, and you obviously have not picked
up on that yet." Vexen shook his head.
"I'm still use full Xemnas, let me prove to you, I'm use
full I swear." Everyone knew what happened to Organization
members who were useless.
"You are not use full when you nearly kill yourself after
I told you it was going to happen!" Vexen shrunk at the
anger in Xemnases voice, cowering but also angry at the leader
nobody for treating him like a child. Frustration crept into his
dead cold eyes.
"Now..." Xemnases tone was considerably chillier and
calmer now that he had Vexen cowering, the silver haired nobody
put his fingers together and looked away from Vexen, turning his
back on him.
"..you are suspended from the laboratory and until you can
prove to me your use fullness I will not grant you any more power
only missions, here." Xemnas threw Vexen a blank white envelope
and the blond scientist caught it with ease, looking it over and
then nodding solemnly at the silver haired nobody. Xemnas smiled
cruelly and then stepped into a dark portal, taking him away from
Vexens sterile white room.
Demyx watched the clouds go by lazily on the highland of the
savanna, his tail swatted at the flies that landed on his light
colored legs, strong lithe leopard body heaved a sigh as sharp
eyes watched the grazing gazelle down below.
The shade of the tree was comforting and it made him nearly invisible
with his spotted pattern under the tree, catching a few Zs as
he watched the blue skies.
The birds sang, the bug buzzed and all sorts of comforting sounds
were around him, smells and colors to please his sense and he
could only lay there and take it all in.
Why had he chosen to stay inside the castle that night? He was
the only one who heard the accident happen, if he hadn't been
there... Vexen wouldn't be alive, he would of faced back into
darkness, Demyx flinched as he imagined a world without the chilly
blond man.
for months now he had been going after Vexen relentlessly, a few
had told him that Vexen found it irritating within the past few
weeks, and so he had backed off, only going to check up on the
other every once and awhile. He regretted laying off, wanting
to be near the chilly man was something he couldn't describe,
like when you had a craving for chocolate or something, you just
needed it. Not it but everything that came with it, the good feeling,
the lovely emotions and the sweet taste, it was all around pleasing.
Until you got fat from eating it.
It was kind of like that with Vexen, Demyx found him so interesting
and the way the man moved with grace and absolute control amazed
Demyx to no end. His infinite knowledge of the world and of their
being and his brilliance, they both stunned and dazzled Demyxes
small mind who was only concerned about the next thing he had
to do for the organization and if he could survive it.
But most of all, when Vexen smiled. so rarely did it happen, those
sulking eyes would brighten up, that pretty face constantly in
a frown would find a new light that was so contagious that Demyx
always had to smile along with him.
When excited the blond got this joyful air to him. He didn't walk,
he floated or danced around the room, gracing the ground with
delicate foot steps and humming softly to himself, a smile on
his face.
But so Rarely was Vexen happy, so rarely did anyone see the happy
smile and that beautiful grace he possessed, the joy he spread
was limited because it was hardly even there. And yet Demyx knew
he was capable of being happy, knew he was capable of making him
happy. those dazzling looks were just the icing on the cake.
Demyx sighed heavily again, his striped face looking idly over
to the sun high in the sky as a large bird flew ahead. Suddenly
he found that his throat and lips were patched and gave a heave
to gracefully lift his form from the ground, wandering down the
pathway to the watering hole, lanky form stretching over the rises
and dips in the land.
getting to the waters edge Demyx bent down and lazily lapped up
the clean water, cool and refreshing. Having his fill the leopard
turned around to head back to the trees.
Sensitive ears flickered backwards as he heard something, turning
around with a fierce growl, claws and teeth ready Demyx was surprised
and the larger animal easily over powered his fragile form built
for more speed then power.
He lay flat on his back, his chest heaving, both paw on either
side of the larger animal.
"Ah ha ha ha ha! got you Demy!" He heard and opened
his green eyes to glare viciously at the lion pinning him to the
ground.
"Axle!" He growled, turning over and getting up at the
larger cat let him up, falling over with laughter the reddish
lion rolled over on his back, laughing so hard it looked hard
to breath. "I wish I could hold a camera! You should of seen
the look on your face!"
Long legs pulled up as if her were in a skirt, tightly together and one one side. Vexen sat neatly on the stairway to oblivion. His big green eyes full of self doubt and what looked like a silent rage but he wasn't quite sure who to aim the deadly weapon at, Xemnas was right, he was reckless ad childish with pursuing that Theory.
"...Hey..."
To his surprise the voice was soothing and soft, a present
enough thing so Vexen guessed it had to be Demyx since the only
other person around the castle with a nice voice was Roxas and
he certainly wouldn't be speaking with him.
The blond nobody looked up to the other, Demyxes soft smile on
his face was strangely reassuring. The blond waltzed over to where
he was sitting in that fluent body of his and stood, shoving his
hands in his pockets. Vexen simply stared at the water nobody,
what purpose did he have here?
"...Can I sit with you?" he asked and Vexen gave him
a puzzled look, why the hell would anyone want to sit with him?
Although he could recall that Demyx was a present enough company
when he was assisting him in the lab. He was reminded of one of
the many times he came down and played background music so soothing
to the soul Vexen had actually stopped working, sat down next
to Demyx and fell asleep.
He had been working on a project for weeks without sleep and even
though his body was giving him signs he needed to regenerate his
brain was full in motion and he just couldn't stop on his own.
Demyx seemed to know that and played a soft lullaby to Vexen,
letting the blond fall asleep with his head on Demyxes shoulder.
It was so present and Vexen had done this so many time he had
started to long for the smooth leather shoulder to sleep on and
the soothing music to lull him into regeneration. Sometimes, now
he found it hard to sleep without it.
"...Don't you have some one else to bother at the moment?"
Vexen asked the other blond with an irritated glare in his direction.
As affectionate as he had gotten towards Demyx during the past
few weeks, when in a bad mood no one was safe around him.
The blond sighed, walked past Vexen.
Number four buried his face in his hands, he didn't want Demyx
to leave really, he was sour though and...Demyx come back.
Arms were suddenly around his thin frail shoulders and a warm
body behind him was reassuring and comforting. Vexen didn't take
his hands off of his face if only to hide the relief that flooded
through him, it was nice to have someone else around, someone
who would hold you when you were horribly lost and confused.
Demyxes soft warm hands ran up the others shoulders and his thumbs
rubbed at the tension there in an attempt to banish it from his
body.
"...You feeling better? Last night when I found you...What
did you think you were doing Vexen..." The last part was
said in a sigh, a slight scold in Demyxes voice as Vexen let out
air, relaxing against the warm hands.
"I-I...Thought if i could just harness the dark matter to
heal instead of destroy it might be more powerful, could you
imagine a dark power, ten times as powerful as the lights, that
heals, we would be invincible..."
"...You nearly killed yourself." Demyx said in a tone
so full of worry, of concern and of anger at Vexen and himself,
that Vexen nearly turned around but found that as soon as he went
to look at Demyxes face the blond pulled his arms around the other
nobody and buried his face in the others shoulders, obviously
not wanting Vexen to see the pain he was causing.
"...I-I found you, you would of been dead if I hadn't came
up to see what was going on...Dead." Demyx breathed the word
as if it was some horrible fate that he could only whisper not
say too loudly. Vexen felt a tremendous amount of cold sickness
as guilt flood through his body and he really didn't know what
to do.
He had no idea his life meant anything to the other, even though
they had spent so much time together Demyx had never showed any
remorse when Vexen had treated him badly so Vexen didn't think
he was worth that much to Demyx.
But the blond trembled behind him, softly shaking with the idea
that he might to had to live without Vexen. He was just as frazzled
about the whole thing as Vexen was, maybe even more hurt.
"Demyx..." He whispered in slight shock and softly turned
around, Demyx let him this time, his hands falling slack against
the other nobodies shoulders and sliding off.
Vexen turned around, pulling those hands back up into his own
and he sighed, squeezing the black gloves.
Vexen sighed, softly putting Demyxes hands back around his shoulder
he pulled the tear stained face Demyx had up out of the shadows
with his nimble hands.
To Demyxes surprise Vexens soft tongue reached out and he licked
away the tears he had been crying all day. The higher ranking
nobody didn't Finnish with just that, after cleaning Demyxes face
of the salty tears Vexen softly planted a trail of light kisses
over his tanned flesh and down his elegant neck.
Demyx was so surprised about all this that it was all he could
do to keep from trembling, he was definitely calmer and focused
by the time Vexen was done reassuring him. The higher ranking
nobody put smaller, fragile looking hands on Demyxes face with
a soft smile, that Demyx had to work so hard to get, pained on
his thin lips.
"Thank you so much...You saved me." He whispered and
then leaned down and kiss those lips that sang him to sleep one
too many nights ago. Vexen enjoyed the soft feeling of warm flesh
against his lips once more, the memories of love coming to the
foremost in his mind as Demyx finely changed from his state of
shock into a animated one.
The short haired blond sitting up more to kiss the blond back
and run a hand through Vexens long blond hair and over his neck.
The sweet touches, the taste of sea salt that was Demyxes lips
all brought the warm memory of love washing over him, and by the
time the kiss was ended Vexen wanted to start a new one.
How good it felt to be the loved, to feel kindness in not only
the voice of another but to see it through his eyes and taste
it on his lips. Someone cared, and Vexen was so glad it was someone
he cared for as well.
They stood in the quiet for a few moments, Vexens pail fingertips
resting on Demyxes soft face drifted over to the lips he had just
kissed, his own in a warm tingly state.
Demyx smiled, kissing his fingertips with the same warm passion,
his arms had found their way around Vexens waist, and they fit
so closely together so perfectly and Vexen just felt for the first
time since he had lost his heart, that he belonged somewhere.
The long haired nobody reached up again and without another word
he started that kiss he wanted, not to Demyxes complaint either,
the aqua eyes blond Nocturne has, closing in the warm effect.
"How did you know?" Demyx asked after the slow warm
kiss was brought to a slow warm end. Vexen ran his hand through
the others spiked hair and then down his chest taking in a deep
breath, all too much too fast, but he would have it no other way.
"It's kinda hard not to guess, you crying and all when I
nearly offed myself." Vexen said with a cruel smirk that
made Demyx blush.
"I-I'm sorry I just..." Vexen put a finger on the others
lips with a sussh to keep him quiet, warm eyes normal cold watching
Demyxes sparkle.
"...Don't be, you cared about me more then I cared about
me..." Somehow that was all he wanted to know right now.
"...I-I know...I know we can't feel but, somehow I just have
this ache, like a tooth ache, every time we got close..."
Demyx tried to explain himself and Vexen put his finger on the
others lips again, sighing.
"It's ok Demyx..." Some things didn't need to be explained,
only now was he figuring this out? Vexen shrugged, smiling as
Demyx kissed his neck softly, he ran soft caresses down the nape
of the younger nobodies neck.
Demyx never wanted to be in another moment, would time just slow
down a bit so he could have just a few more seconds in the embrace
of this cold fleetingly warm moment. He kissed Vexens neck, holding
him close and the blond man simply snuggled with him, returning
the soft kisses.
bathing in the light of kingdom hearts Vexen could see Demyxes
eyes sparkle even more then before,they had a new light that made
the chilly nobody smile and want those beautiful full lips even
more then he fist had. The hope Demyx had was incurable ad contagious,
and Vexen had caught the bug. The blond shifted in the musicians
arms and turned to face him once again, watching Demyx look up
to him like he always had, with those beautiful light colored
eyes that were their own color not to be given a name. Those eyes
changed so much, like the sea, and yet they were always the same
depths.
"Demyx..." He whispered softly, almost a moan out of
the other nobodies name, a gasp better off not said and Demyx
kissed Vexens lips again, softly, reassuring steady and warm against
the chill of Vexens own lips.
"...I love you Vexen..." The watery nobody whispered
softly in Vexen's ear. Talented and quick hands pulled through
the blonds hair and over his back, pulling the mad nobody closer.
Vexen said nothing, and although that worried Demyx he didn't
let it show, only sighing deeply and holding a shivering Vexen
close to him. Demyx could tell that it was going to be a long
night, but somehow it didn't really matter all that much to him
anymore.
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((Ok, I have aother chapter, but it's only coming out if I decide to make this a real fic insted of a oneshot, Siax/Axle later on, please review.))
