Falling
when I pulled you out of Hell
I never planned to rebel
never planned to disobey, never planned to fall
but I can't help but come every time you call
you taught me everything I know about free will
now I'll fight for you no matter who I have to kill
now as these doubts and fears consume me
we've become something like a family
I can no longer give in to Heaven's demands
tormented by all of this blood on my hands
too many things that I just don't understand
like cell phones, interrogations, and the pizza man
but for your sake I will do everything that I can
never thought we would have such a profound bond
now all my former motivations and certainties are gone
never thought I'd become so attached to humanity
now I can no longer be detached from humanity
because the more time I spend with you and Sam
I feel less like an angel and more like a man
everything has become so confusing
is this what it means to be human?
never thought I'd grow to care so much
now nothing is the way it was before
never thought I'd grow to fear Heaven
I can't trust my family anymore
constantly at war with my sisters and brothers
don't know what's right and wrong anymore
hopelessly praying to an absent Father
God remains silent, I don't know what to do
can no longer deny that I'm falling for you
and I've been told that I have too much heart
now I've seen that humans are more than works of art
the Earth is a battlefield but what is my part
in this war? what am I fighting for?
so tired of just taking Heaven's orders
maybe I wasn't meant to be a soldier
now I wonder how far this dangerous path will go
now that I have enemies both above and below
now we'll take the Devil down
and make these assbutts frown
God refused to answer, so I took his place
can you ever forgive me for this disgrace?
someone had to step up and take control
I'll do whatever I must to achieve my goal
I was made to be an immortal soldier
so bow down and prepare for a massacre
can you ever forgive me for this folly?
and my ill-fated deal with Crowley?
I'll swallow all these monsters down
and then in this lake I will drown
and now that our friendship has been dissolved
I'd do anything for our conflict to be resolved
I got a whole new identity when I lost my memory
never imagined that I would ever fall so far
but you still kept my coat in the trunk of your car
for you I would die a thousand times
pull the Devil from your brother's mind
sometimes I wish I could just be free
spend all my time watching the bees
I don't deserve your pity and I've never felt so ashamed
but I'll prove to you that sorry is more than just a game
couldn't answer all those times you prayed to me
all those lonely nights while trapped in Purgatory
crying out your name as the portal closes
but it's okay, this is the path I've chosen
Dean, I'm so sorry that this is how it has to end
but I must stay here to seek redemption
you try, but you can't save everyone my friend
