i was jus sittin there t'inking about my semester finals when i came up wit dis. it's only gonna be a one shot so don ask for another chapter or anyt'ing kay.

oh and dis is shouenen-ai thoughts. it's a one-sided Goku/Vegeta fic. well enjoy people.

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I'm not so sure when it happened. Hell I'm not even sure how it happened, I guess it just did. I even surprised myself when I finally admitted to myself that I was gay and in love with my biggest rival. Vegeta. Being around him I just got these feeling that I never got when I was around ChiChi. But... What did Vegeta see me as? An enemy? A power rival? Or just as a stupid idiot. Kami I hope not. It's not like I act like an idiot on purpose but when you've acted that way for so long it's kinda hard to quit. Especially when everyone expects it from you. Cause they can't see you any other way.

But well... Don't get me wrong I do love ChiChi, just not in the same way that I used to. Or... Did I even love her to begin with? I can't be sure anymore, not ever since I first meet Vegeta. Although at that time we were nothing but enemies, since he came to Earth and started killing people.

But when I saw him... God he looked so beautiful. It had actually hurt to fight him, while maybe a little at the time. But I hadn't understood the things I was feeling so I didn't let it bother me. Although if I had to fight him now, like I had then where one of us or both would end up dead... I think I'd be the one to die either way. And yeah I know he acts like a cold-hearted bastard. But put yourself in his shoes for awhile. I mean he'd been under Freeza's control since he was what seven, eight. Somewhere around there, and all he learned was pain. He'd probably been through physical, emotional, and not to mention mental pain. So yeah I don't blame him for acting like that when I meet him. Although I wouldn't agree about the methods he used. But yeah I can understand.

And I mean I'd tell him I cared for him but I can't. I mean there's Goten, Gohan, and ChiChi. I'm pretty sure they wouldn't except it... Aw hell who am I kidding? I can't tell him cause I'm afraid. Yeah that's right the most powerful Super Saiyan in the universe is afraid to say I love you to the love of my life. There's no possible way I could tell him. Because I'm afraid of the possible rejection. I don't think I could live through that.

Vegeta... I wonder if he even knows how much I care for him. I may never be able to tell him that I love him, but... I guess I can just be there for him. As a sort of friend. Yeah that's it... Only a friend.