What I Don't Notice
They think I don't notice. Even with the looks full of desire and the hugs that last a little too long, they still think I don't notice. How her face lights up and she positively glows when he walks in the room. How he goes out of his way to make sure she's alright after a battle. How they always turn to each other first when something goes wrong. They think I don't hear her mummer his name while she sleeps or see the secret smile that plays across his face when her name is mentioned. He's my best friend and she's my fiancée and they think I don't notice they've fallen in love.
But really, I pretend I don't notice. I hate this. It is so easy for me to see their in love and it hurts. God it hurts. The man that is supposed to be my best friend has fallen for the girl I have been dreaming of my whole life and finally have and she loves him right back. Oh God, does it hurt. But that's not even the worst of it. No, what hurts even more than that is the fact that they are holding back for me. I know she's not cheating on me and that he won't make a move on her because they don't want me to get hurt. I am the only thing standing between them and a love they so desperately yearn for. They won't ever push me aside because they care too goddamn much about me. But I am too selfish to move for them. And that really hurts. That hurts so damn much I can't begin to explain it. So I pretend I don't notice.
I am trying to get better at writing these so any constructive criticism would be most appreciated.
