The Torture Never Stops.

Everyone thinks that I'm ultimate bad guy. The criminal. No feelings, doesn't give a damn about anything or anyone. Self-obsessed little asshole who could only better himself by dropping of the face of the earth never to be seen again.

And yeah, I am that. No doubt about most of it. Last point's a little hazy but what do I care? People see me as they wanna see me, in whatever way they find most comforting to themselves. If they say different, I know for a fact that they're lying.

What I am is what I chose to be. And what I chose to be is only so that I can keep myself alive. I am an ass, but I'm not that self-obsessed. I think. You know I never am really sure on that point. But that's not important. What is important is what people DON'T know about me.

They don't know that I'd rather be at school than kicking round town someplace. Yeah I know, me wanting to me at school, but it is true. At least at school, I'm safe.

Because, what people really don't seem to realise, is that the torture, the torture never stops.

All my life, it's been there. I can't run from it, I can't hide from it. It's just there. Always has been, and always will be. I think the only way it'll stop is if I drop off the face of the earth. Sad fact of my life.

My dad is my torture. You think some big-wig woulda worked that one out by now. But no, since John Bender Senior is good at putting a face on for the outside world, no-one stops the torture. The torture never stops, and it never will.

Everyone thinks I'm the unltimate bad guy. No-one thinks that the bad guy deserves a break. No-one knows that the torture never stops.

Hell, I'm looking forward to detention today, it'll be a rest-bite at least.