I wonder if mother will forgive me.

….

All my life I just hurt people. No, hurt's not it. I destroyed people's life.

Mine. Mother's. Meredy's. Jellal's. Erza's… and countess others.

Who ever said you see your life flash before your eyes when you die was lying. You don't see your life. You see those you care about. Like right now I can see Gray.

Gray, you will mourn for me… right?

Yeah, you will. So will all of fairy tail. Even though they barely know me. Even though I am a cursed witch with no heart. Fairy tail will console you too. Juvia will console you.

Meredy told me about the blue-haired water-woman, Juvia, I think, her name was. I still remember how you snatched her away in your arms when I … when I was about to kill her. Meredy told me how deep Juvia's feelings for you were. I know she will help you move on. I know you will live a happy life with her… if you both make it through this, anyway. And … something tells me you will.

Jellal.

I somehow know you will find some way blame yourself for my death, like you blame yourself for everything I made you do. I swear you blame yourself for every little thing around. I hope Erza is around to comfort you. It won't kill your guilt but it would help. You will try to push yourself even harder, won't you? You Stupid Idiot. I really hope one day you snap out of it and live the life you deserve. I wish I could tell Erza to beat some sense into you.

Meredy.

Meredy, I know you will be crying. I know you will find living pointless. I know I was all you had left. But I bet you don't that you were my reason to live. I destroyed your town. I killed everyone in your life. Yet you … you loved me. You gave me the place of your mother. Do you know how happy that made me? I felt like you were my daughter too. I thought I may have not given you birth but I thought myself to be your mother.

I'm sorry, Meredy. I'm sorry I made you do horrible things. I'm sorry I didn't let you live the life you deserved. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

I can't feel anything anymore…

That's bad…

Means I don't have much time left…

I traded all the time I had and all the time I could have for only a minute…

A useless, stupid, stupid minute…

I wish… I could have saved a single life at least…

I was mega depressed yesterday and this came out. I respected Ultear so much. And now … she's gone. T^T

Rest in peace, Ultear. ;_; your sacrifice will be remembered forever.