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I wonder if mother will forgive me.
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All my life I just hurt people. No, hurt's not it. I destroyed people's life.
Mine. Mother's. Meredy's. Jellal's. Erza's… and countess others.
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Who ever said you see your life flash before your eyes when you die was lying. You don't see your life. You see those you care about. Like right now I can see Gray.
Gray, you will mourn for me… right?
Yeah, you will. So will all of fairy tail. Even though they barely know me. Even though I am a cursed witch with no heart. Fairy tail will console you too. Juvia will console you.
Meredy told me about the blue-haired water-woman, Juvia, I think, her name was. I still remember how you snatched her away in your arms when I … when I was about to kill her. Meredy told me how deep Juvia's feelings for you were. I know she will help you move on. I know you will live a happy life with her… if you both make it through this, anyway. And … something tells me you will.
Jellal.
I somehow know you will find some way blame yourself for my death, like you blame yourself for everything I made you do. I swear you blame yourself for every little thing around. I hope Erza is around to comfort you. It won't kill your guilt but it would help. You will try to push yourself even harder, won't you? You Stupid Idiot. I really hope one day you snap out of it and live the life you deserve. I wish I could tell Erza to beat some sense into you.
Meredy.
Meredy, I know you will be crying. I know you will find living pointless. I know I was all you had left. But I bet you don't that you were my reason to live. I destroyed your town. I killed everyone in your life. Yet you … you loved me. You gave me the place of your mother. Do you know how happy that made me? I felt like you were my daughter too. I thought I may have not given you birth but I thought myself to be your mother.
I'm sorry, Meredy. I'm sorry I made you do horrible things. I'm sorry I didn't let you live the life you deserved. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
I can't feel anything anymore…
That's bad…
Means I don't have much time left…
I traded all the time I had and all the time I could have for only a minute…
A useless, stupid, stupid minute…
I wish… I could have saved a single life at least…
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I was mega depressed yesterday and this came out. I respected Ultear so much. And now … she's gone. T^T
Rest in peace, Ultear. ;_; your sacrifice will be remembered forever.
