Title:
Final Apology. Final Goodbye.
Summary: Lana loses everyone close
to her.
Rating: G
Dedication: Kyle & Chris
Spoilers:
Covenant
Time: After Covenant
Lana felt as
though her whole body was going to shut down as sat there, listening
to her best friends eulogies being given.
She couldn't even hear
what the pastor was saying about her beloved companions. She listened
to the real eulogy in her head, as the memories raced through her
mind.
This shouldn't be happening. They were too young; she was
supposed to die young, not them. But she hadn't died, because Clark
had always been there to save her? a tear trickled down her cheek as
she thought of how no one had been there to save him.
This
shouldn't be happening. Chloe and her should be up in their room,
laughing, and talking about boys, school, and life. Chloe should be
all excited about her latest mystery to uncover. She should be at her
computer, using the amazing gifts of writing she possessed, and yet
it was happening, Chloe's life had ended.
Lana would have given
anything in the world to just see Lex and Clark joking around
together again. She wanted to feel Clark's embrace around her, and
make her feel safe. She wanted to hear Lex quote one of his favorite
authors, sharing his wisdom.
Lana wished she could join Clark,
Lex, and Chloe. It was too painful. She had walked away from them all
for Paris... why?
It was most painful for her to lose Clark. She
had never gotten to say goodbye? and now she'd have to do it over his
coffin.
Lana felt guilt wash over her as she remembered being
angry with Clark for not showing up... for not saying goodbye. The
day she arrived in Paris, she received the call.
Lex had been
poisoned, Chloe died in an explosion, and Clark was found murdered in
the caves.
He couldn't show up, or say good bye... he was
dead.
Clark had taught her to love and trust the world again, he
taught her to be her true self; he taught her a lot.
Lana was
painfully aware that her 3 best friends had died agonizingly. Yet she
was alive, because she walked away... life's not fair.
Lana didn't
think she could do it... but she had to say goodbye, so she walked up
to the front of the church, where the 3 caskets rested. Chloe's was
closed, but Lana was thankful; she didn't want to look at any of her
friend's cold faces. She wouldn't.
She would remember them with
the fullness of life.
Clark was half grinning, half smirking as
his eyes glisten with the laugh that escaped him. He was wearing a
blue flannel shirt, as he wrapped his arms around her.
Lex greeted
her with wisdom and affection as she walked into the room.
Chloe
flashed a smile as she pried her eyes away from her computer, to talk
about life, and bond in only a way sisters can... that was what she
was like- a sister.
Yes, that was how she would remember them,
she wouldn't look in their caskets, it would be too painful, and
would likely kill her, in spirit, if not physically.
How could
things happen so fast? 3 huge chunks had been painfully ripped from
her heart. She had so many regrets and was excruciatingly aware of
each and every one.
Lana was aware that everyone else had left
the church already, heading out to the cemetery, and she got up, and
followed them.
Once there, Lana knelt before all three graves, and
cried the blackest tears. She placed a rose on each of their graves.
It especially hurt her to place it on Clark's. Memories of a white
rose on the ground outside the airport flashed threw her head.
Another rose, red this time, occupied the trash, after Clark had
given it to her along with an apology.
The clouds above seemed
murderous, as the sound of the red rose hitting the ground, resounded
in her hears.
On the most agonizing and painful day or her life,
Lana stood up, getting off her knees.
This was it, this was her
goodbye to the people she loved most. She whispered "I love
you." As she let tears fall from her cheeks, to Clark's
grave.
Those tears would serve as her request for forgiveness; her
apology.
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