Disclaimer: I do not in any way shape or form own Kingdom Hearts! Except for a copy of the game…LOL

A/N: Howdy all! It's been awhile since I last wrote anything (stupid school),

but for this story, I have decided to do something a little bit different. I don't

know why, but I'm suddenly in the mood to write Yaoi, so here's my first

attempt at writing it! Please review and tell me how I'm doing so far,

thanks!

WARNING This chapter contains attempted suicide/cutting, and some bad

words WARNING

Ch. 1

Today was another perfect day, as Riku, Kairi, and I watched the

sunset on another perfect day.

"It's so pretty" Kairi sighed.

"You say that everyday" Riku said impatiently. "I know…but it's true; don't you agree with me Sora?" A silent

pause, and then something was thrown at my head.

"Ouch!"

"Sora, wake the hell up!" She laughed to herself, and I could feel my

head begin to swell.

"Sorry…I was just thinking of a dream I had last night"

"A dream? What kind?"

"It's hard to explain…"

"Awwwww, come on tell us!" I looked back out over the ocean at the

sunset, and a flashback of my dream came flooding back.

"I was falling…into what seemed like a black empty void, I felt so

cold, and lonely…when I opened my eyes, all I could see was darkness; it

felt as though it were swallowing me whole" I shivered despite the warm

summer temperature, and hugged myself to keep from getting cold.

"Sounds like a nightmare if you ask me…" Riku finally said, not

looking at either of us.

"It was more intense then a nightmare…it felt as if it were actually

happening"

"Maybe you're getting a cold; nightmares seem to happen when

people are sick. Either that or you're a chicken wuss" That's Riku for you,

always acting smart and mature…he's changed a lot this year, but every time

I try and ask him why, he just tells me to stop acting like a kid…

"It sounds creepy either way" Kairi brought her hands up to her face

and sarcastically acted like she was scared.

"Don't worry Kairi, Sora's just trying to scare you" Kairi jumped off

the tree trunk, and ran to Riku.

"Come on Kairi, I'll walk you home" Kairi then turned and started to

walk toward the beach house that leads to the boats.

"I'm not trying to scare her! Riku!" I too jumped down from the tree,

but neither of them stopped or looked back at me. I sighed to myself as a

breeze blew, scattering the sand around my feet lightly.

"Why doesn't anyone believe me…" I sat down cross-legged, and

began to take out a knife from my pocket Tears were starting to sting my

eyes, but I forced them back as much as I could.

"Why does he always treat me like a little kid? Why can't he see that

I…" The words stuck in my throat as I began to roll my sleeve back, and

pressed the blade against the upper part of my arm. I pressed harder until a

thin line of blood formed, and stopped once I felt better.

Thunder struck somewhere in the distance, and made me instantly

look up towards the sky. Dark clouds were lingering above me, threatening

to rain at any moment. Not wanting to chance anything, I picked myself up,

and cleaned up as best as I could, then headed back for my house.

"Sora, where have you been! A storm's coming any minute, I was

worried sick!"

"I was just watching the sunset with Riku and Kairi" I avoided her

gaze, and took my shoes off.

"They both got home a half an hour ago"

"I forgot my watch here"

"Next time don't; you're my only…"

"I know mom" I said before she could finish her sentence, and crossed

my arms over my chest.

"Try to leaver earlier or at least call me if you're going to be late, all

right?"

"I will, don't worry"

"That's all I ask is that you try. Why don't you go take a hot bath; you

look cold" She went to put her hand on my forehead, but I darted past her

and ran upstairs. Within a few minutes, I was soaking in a nice hot bath

thinking about something that had been on mind for almost a year.

"Riku, I have to tell you something…you see…the thing is…I

love…" Even though I had practiced saying it over and over, I still could

not finish the last part of it.

"This is hopeless…how am I going to get up the courage to say it?

He's going to laugh when I try and tell him…" I sighed and closed my eyes, letting the hot water soak over the newly formed wounds, making them sting painfully; but I knew in my heart, that I deserved this pain.

Both of my arms held traces of a dark secret that no one else knew

about, not even my own mother. Riku and Kairi don't suspect a thing either,

but I knew that sooner or later, I'd have to tell them; even if I am scared to

death about how they might take it…

I shook off the painful thought, and tried to think of something a little

less morbid. My mind instantly went back to what I was thinking of before,

which only caused my depression to worsen slightly.

"How can I get up the courage to tell him…I'm too much of a

coward…" Thunder cracked in the background, much closer this time,

bringing down a heavy pounding rain. I immediately forgot about my

troubles, and jumped out of the tub; getting dressed as fast as I could so I

could ran see how our tiny shore was doing.

The sky was pitch black, just like it was in my dream; the only time I

could see the shore was when lightning struck. When it did strike, I could

see the waves violently crashing against the shore, making the boats crash

wildly into one another.

"Wait a minute…Riku and Kairi took their boats with them…" A

horrible feeling in my stomach caused me to almost double over as I realized

that they were still out there. Without thinking, I threw on my shoes, and

jumped out of my bedroom window, heading for the tiny shore where we

had been earlier.

The wind whipped against my face forcefully, making my trek slow

and unsteady. It took me forever to get to our little shore, but when I did I

found no one there…

"Riku? Kairi?" I yelled at the top of my lungs, but my voice was

drowned out by the ever increasing wind.

"Sora, what are you doing here?" Riku jumped down form the tree,

and landed perfectly in front of me.

"Riku! I was so worried! I saw your boat tied up and I had to come;

where's Kairi?"

"She's safe, don't worry" He walked up to me with a cocky strut, and

took me into his arms gently, making my pulse quicken instantly.

"Riku…I have to tell you something…" He put a finger up, motioning

for me to keep quiet and kissed my lips softly, making my heart beat faster

even still.

"That can wait until later…" As he said this, the storm began to pick

up speed, causing the waves to crash violently against our tiny little shore.I

backed up out of his arms, trying to get as far away from the edge as

possible, but Riku just stood there…

"Sora, don't be afraid" He said calmly, as the waves began to gain

height. The wind was picking up, and the rain was coming down hard and

fast, making it life threateningly dangerous to stay out here too much longer.

"Riku, we have to go back; we'll get killed if we stay out here too

much longer!" It was to late…a huge wave came barreling down on Riku,

and pulled him out with the current…

"No! Riku!" I jumped to the edge, and looked for him, but couldn't

see anything due to the darkness of the night.I stood speechless, barely able

to blink; when the storm began to worsen. When my brain began to function

again, I ran as fast as I could for the beach house.

I shut the door as quickly as I could, and slid down to the floor trying

to catch my breath. After about five minutes, I walked to the other door, and

opened it cautiously; making sure it was safe to go out. Once I made sure the

coast was clear, I bolted out the door; and didn't stop until I got back to the

main island. My first instinct was to run home, but I had to make sure Kairi

was all right, so I ran to her house as fast as my legs could carry me.

I climbed the vine outside her bedroom window, and dropped unto the

balcony quietly. I knocked as silently as I could on the door, and waited for

a reply from inside. After a moment, a light turned on, and Kairi appeared at

the door still yawning.

"Sora, have you any idea what time it is?"

"Something horrible has happened to Riku! We have to go!" I made

an attempt to grab her arm, but she managed to back away.

"What are talking about? You didn't have another bad dream did

you?"

"No! You've got to believe me! Riku's in trouble!"

"Why don't you come in and tell me first" She sat on the bed, and

motioned for me to sit next to her. After sitting down, I explained everything

to her, and waited to see if she believed me or not.

"Wow…"

"I know, that's why we have to—"

"This is perfect!"

"Wh-what are you talking about?"

"Don't you see? Now that Riku's out of the picture, we can finally

focus on us!" I jumped off the bed, and took a step back.

"Kairi, how could you even think that; he's our friend!" Kairi stood

up gracefully, putting both of her hands delicately on my shoulders.

"To be perfectly honest, I never really liked him that much…I've

always been too preoccupied with you Sora" She looked up at me, and

batted her eyelashes. I grabbed her hands, and tried to push her away, but

when she fell on the bed, she took me down with her.

"Don't try and hide your feelings for me Sora; I know you like me

too" She rolled on top of me, and kissed my neck passionately.

"Kairi stop, this isn't right!"

"Not used to being on the bottom? Don't worry, you will" I stopped

her before she could kiss me again, and sat up.

"Our best friend is out there in a raging storm, and all you can think

about is making out! What's wrong with you?" I got up off the bed, and

practically ran back to the balcony.

The next morning, I awoke before anyone else, and searched

everywhere for Riku. By noon, I found no trace of him and had almost given

up hope when I remembered a secret cave tucked away behind a large oak

tree.

I entered the cave slowly, checking for any wild or dangerous

animals. At the heart of the cave, stood a huge wooden door with no

doorknob, which I had never noticed before.

As I went to touch the door, a noise to my right made me spin back

around. Aeris stood holding a basket of mushrooms on one arm, and some

flowers in the other hand.

"Good morning Sora"

"Good morning Aeris; I didn't see you there" She dusted her dress

off, and set down the flowers and the basket, and walked over to me.

"What are you doing here so early?"

"Looking for Riku; have you seen him anywhere today?" She thought

for a moment or two, and frowned after a while.

"Can't say that I have, sorry"

"It's ok, thanks anyways…" I sighed, and stared back down at the

ground.

"Well, I hope you find him" She smiled at me, which made me

instantly smile back.

"Thanks Aeris" She then turned to leave, but stopped as she saw the

door behind me.

"Where'd that door come from?"

"Good question…I'd like to know too" I backed up, and stared at it

with her.

"I wonder where it leads to?"

"I think it's just a decoration, there's no doorknob" I pointed to where

one was supposed to be, and wasn't surprised when I saw her jump in shock.

"Maybe it just fell off or something"

"There isn't even a place for one, I looked"

"That's odd…" She walked up to it, and leaned her head against it

gently.

"Be careful!" I went to grab her arm, but she silenced me quickly.

"I hear something"

I walked up and leaned my ear against the door as well, listening hard

for any signs of movement.

"Sorry Aeris, I can't hear anything" I shrugged and took my ear off

the door, walking away as I did so.

"I'll see ya around sometime" I waved back at her, and exited the cave

without looking back.