Chapter One
Everything. Kagome had given up everything for Inuyasha. To be with him. Her family, her home and her friends. Even the Jewel. All for the chance to stay here with him in the Feudal Area—with him.
He hadn't used the Jewel to become a full demon but she knew the thought was still there. Maybe, just maybe, she would be enough to satisfy that desire in him. It didn't matter though. She had given the Jewel to him. She would have—and had—done anything and everything for him, with him.
The pain in her chest was her heart breaking. Why did everything always come back to Kikyou?
Kagome knew the moment Inuyasha sensed her. He stiffened, his arms sliding from around Kikyou. To her, that small scene seemed in slow motion. His arms sliding from around her waist, slow, as if he wanted to hold her but at the same time wanted to go to Kagome. There was no way he could have missed her . He would have sensed her emotions, smelled the tears gathering in her eyes.
Inuyasha jerked out of Kikyous arms. The look on his face, regret, pain, remorse and confusion. He'd been in her arms willingly.
Kagome remembered Inuyasha holding her just the night before and it had felt so right. So perfect. She had been so sure, believed, that he had made his choice.
He hadn't. How could this be described otherwise?
"Kagome." Inuyasha took a step towards her, torn between the two. He hadn't expected Kagome to follow him and he wished to God she hadn't. A part of him wanted to keep both of them and never have to let the other go. The pain in Kagomes eyes, the remorse—he knew it was his fault.
He had to make a choice. Why couldn't he?
"No, Inuyasha…" Kagome lifted a hand, stopping him where he stood. "I can't." She whispered because she knew she couldn't. Not anymore. Three years. He'd had three years to make a choice. The decision that would either break her heart or keep it whole. And he couldn't bring himself to make it and that answer, she had needed now. She couldn't do this anymore. Her heart couldn't take it.
One too many times.
This was going to tear her apart even more, she knew that. Making this decision herself…Oh God.
"Kagome, don't. Please. It's not what it looks like." What else could he say? From the look on her face, Inuyasha knew. Knew it was too late. He'd lied because it was exactly what it looked like but what else could he say? He needed her…but he needed Kikyou, too.
"It's not?" Kagome drew a shuddering breath. "Inuyasha." She wanted to yell at him, throw something, anything, to make him feel what she was feeling right now. Anything other than standing there looking like a heart-broken fool. Which she was. "Don't you dare. Don't you dare…" Her voice shook, tears threatening, as she shook her head. She couldn't do this anymore. Her and Inuyasha—she couldn't.
What then? She couldn't go back home. The well had closed with the completing of the Jewel and she hadn't used it to go back.
"You can't make up your mind, can you?" He had promised her but that was one of many promises over the year. What he felt for her obviously wasn't enough to make him chose.
