Disclaimer: I do not own Law and Order SVU or the characters associated with the show nor am I apart of the band and I do not own the song.
A/N: This is the first installment in the second volume of Book of songfic's: Law and order SVU. For those who didn't read any of the last one here's a short explanation. It's basically a series of one shot song fics that's put into one story so that I won't have to post a new story for just one chapter they can all be placed under one and save a lot of space. All of them are one shot, I may consider writing a story with one if it gets great reviews but for the time being there all one shot. Thanks for reading I hope you guys enjoy it.
Meg and Dia-Monster
The rain beat down on the roof of Olivia's apartment building. The sound echoed almost as loud as the thunder rumbling in the distance. Lighting flashed illuminating the pitch black apartment in bright blue. Olivia sat in the corner of her bed room hugging her knees tightly to her chest and her head rested on her knees with her gun laying on the floor right beside her. Her face was soaked with tears and her eyes were red from crying. She coughed through the sobs, her arms, wrist, waist, legs were bruised and she had a black eye along with a small gash above her left eyes brow and a busted lip.
She couldn't believe what had happened earlier that night. In all the years she'd been working in the SVU she never thought that something like that could happen to her. She sobbed harder as the night kept replying in her head like a movie but she didn't have control of the remote. Every detail was imprinted in her head and no matter how hard she tried she couldn't get rid of it nor could she get rid of the feeling, the one where you feel completely helpless, broken, invaded, lost, scared, and confused. There's not even a word for that feeling because it's indescribable. No one can understand how it feels unless they've felt it.
His little whispers.
Love Me. Love Me.
That's all I ask for.
Love Me. Love Me.
He battered his tiny fists to feel something.
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something.
"Why can't I make it stop?" She yelled angrily. "Please just make it stop!" She begged in between sobs.
Her phone rang but she didn't bother to answer it. She couldn't function; it was like her body was on complete shut down and only her mind worked and even then she was too lost in her own thoughts to even try to comprehend everything that was going on around her. She was raped, she caught rapist on a daily bases. She interrogated them, chased them down, and tackled them if she needed to but none of that helped her. It helped everyone else but when she needed it she was too scared to move.
How could I have let this happen? I should have done something, anything to stop him, I could have stopped him some how. Olivia thought to her self as she pulled her self into a tighter ball than she already was. Someone's voice came on the answering machine. She knew that voice by heart. It was Elliot, her partner and her best friend. She couldn't let him see her like this, he would know and unlike their victims it really was her fault.
Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the window...
He offered to drive her home that night; her car was being worked on so she had to walk to work. He knew and he offered to drive her home but she insisted on walking. If she had only taken the ride none of this would have happened. She would be safe and probably sleeping. She was too lost to hear anything he was saying but she knew it was him just by the sound of his voice.
Elliot's POV
Elliot walked in through the front of his small house. He was soaked from head to toe just walking from the car into the house. He was worried about Olivia and had been since she left work. He asked her over and over if he could drive her home but she refused every time and told him not to worry. That was something that he couldn't help, she was all he had at the moment. His kids hated him and blamed him for him and Kathy separating which was more or less true. Kathy didn't want anything to do with him but Olivia stayed by him and was there when ever he needed to talk or vent.
He sighed and grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge then walked into the living room. He took a sip of his water before picking up his house phone and dialing an all too familiar number. He swore he could dial her number in his sleep and he probably could. The phone rang and rang which only made him worry more. She always answered on the second ring even if she was sleeping.
"Hey this is Olivia; I'm not at home right now. Leave your name and number and I'll get back to you when ever I can."
The loud beep echoed through the phone Elliot kept his self calm coming up with some excuse in his mind about why she wouldn't answer.
"Hey Liv, it's me, pick up the phone. You should be home by now it's been almost an hour…Liv…" Elliot began to panic. "Alright if you get this call me on my cell, I'm on my way over to check on you."
Elliot hung up the phone and rushed out to his car. He knew something wasn't right and he wasn't about to wait and give it a chance to get any worse
That night he caged her.
Bruised and broke her.
He struggled closer.
Then he stole her.
Violet wrists and then her ankles.
Silent Pain.
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams.
Elliot drove over the speed limit trying to get to her apartment as fast as he could. She lived at least forty five minutes from him not including all the stop lights and stop signs on the way. His mind was in a panic, every worse case scenario was running through his head faster than he was driving. He wouldn't be able to bare it if anything happened to her. He was her partner, he was suppose to protect her on and off the job and the thought that he might of let her walk into harms way made tears form in his eyes. But he fought them back knowing he had to keep calm.
He pulled up in front of her apartment building and parked his car. He got out and rushed inside getting more soaked then he already was. He rushed over to the elevator and pushed the up button over and over again trying to make it go faster. The doors finally opened and he pressed the button to go up to her floor. The doors closed and the elevator began to lift. He sighed as he waited for the doors to open up again. He tapped his foot impatiently until the doors opened then he rushed down to her apartment and knocked on the door.
"Liv, it's Elliot…." He knocked louder. "Liv…open the door." He reached up and got the extra key and unlocked the door and walked into her apartment.
Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the windows.
I will.
Hear their voices.
I'm a glass child.
I am Hannah's regrets.
He walked in and looked around searching for any sign that she had been there. He turned on the living room light and shut the door behind him.
"Liv…" He said a bit loud.
He heard noise's coming from the bedroom, he wasn't sure to take it as a good thing or a bad thing but he slowly walked over to her bedroom door. He slowly opened the door and peered in. He heard her sobs and began to panic. He opened the door the rest of the way and walked into her room. Before he could go anymore than a few feet Olivia panicked and grabbed her gun. She pointed it at him without noticing who it was. She hadn't heard him knock or yell for her.
"Get the hell away from me!" She yelled through her sobs.
"Whoa Liv, it's me…" Elliot said holding up both his hands. "It's just me…" Tears slowly began to fall down his cheeks when he seen how bad of a condition his partner was in.
"El…" She said almost in disbelief.
Elliot slowly made his way over to her and knelt down beside her. He put his hand on the side of her gun over her hands.
"Liv, it's ok. I'm not going to let anyone hurt you, you can put the gun down."
Olivia slowly put the gun down beside her and looked over at him. She quickly glanced down; she couldn't stand the look in his eyes. The concern, fear, and pain in his eyes was to much for her to handle. Elliot put his hand on her shoulder but she jerked away from him. Elliot had already had a pretty good idea of what happened to her and it was almost unbearable for him. He'd never seen her this vulnerable or scared in the eight years that he'd knew her.
"It's ok Liv, I'm not going to let anyone hurt you." Elliot said softly.
He put his arm around her and pulled her closer to him. At first she tried to resist but then she wrapped her arms around his neck and completely broke down. Elliot hugged her with both arms and rubbed her back with his hand. He kissed the top of her head and rocked her back and forth.
"He raped me El… I tried to stop him…but I couldn't…"
Monster.
How should I feel?
Turn the sheets down.
Murder ears with pillow lace.
There's bath tubs.
Full of glow flies.
Bathe in kerosene.
Their words tattooed in his veins.
Elliot closed his eyes and shook his head. He stopped him self from yelling and scream out of anger. He knew that was the last thing she needed. Olivia gripped his shirt as she sobbed into his chest. Her body trembled beneath his arms; tears rolled down his cheeks. He tried to hide it from Olivia but she knew he was crying she could feel his tears drip down his arm.
"Okay Liv, We need to get you checked out okay."
"No El, I don't want to go out there. I know what everyone's going to think. I can't I just…" Olivia looked up at him trying to make him understand. She saw the tears on his cheeks and the anger and sadness in his eyes. "Please don't make me go?"
"Liv, I know you're scared but I'm going to find this son of a bitch and I'm going to make sure he pays for what he did to you but we need to make sure your ok. I'm going to take care of you I promise. I'm not going to let anyone else hurt you."
Olivia slowly nodded and buried her face back into his chest. Elliot put his arm under her legs and picked her up. He carried her over to her bed and sat her down. He turned on the lamp on the night stand so he could see the extent of the damage. She had on some sweats that she threw on when she got home and her hair was still yet.
"Liv, did you take a shower?"
She slowly shook her head. "No…I wanted to more than anything but I knew once I did we'd lose any chance of finding who did it."
"Why didn't you call me?" Elliot asked brushing her hair away from the cut above her eye brow.
"I didn't know what to do El…I was scared and I never thought in a million years that I would be the victim."
Elliot kissed her forehead and looked at her with understanding. "Don't worry, I'm going to take care of you. I promise."
Olivia nodded slowly nodded and leaned into him. She wrapped her arms around him and laid her head on his chest. She listened to his heart beat and in some way it comforted her almost as much as him being there did.
"Thanks El, for everything."
