Their's was a love affair that had captivated many for years, the love affair between an artists and his muse after it had been revealed to the public
Their's was a love affair that had captivated many for years, the love affair between an artists and his muse after it had been revealed to the public. Sirius was an artist that wasn't really making a name for himself but all this changed the night he accidentally met Remus Lupin a shy, young school boy just figuring out his true sexual identity. Since that meeting the popularity of Sirius work had taken off. His works captivated people as his painting always featured one body part that could be painted by itself and be the totally focus of the painting or it might appear in the landscape of a painting. Over many years people have speculated who the body part belonged to. Many famous and beautiful women where linked to Sirius but only a select few knew that they belonged to one person. That was the love of Sirius Black's life and they had been together for most of their adult lives. They kept their relationship a secret because both were intensely private and they didn't want to overshadow Sirius's works. The friends of the enigmatic couple always mused how an accidental meeting with a beautiful stranger changed both their lives and this is their story. It is one of passion, compassion, pain and love and happened as follows
The club was packed to the brim. Remus had just entered the place. It was dark and moody. He was sixteen and trying to figure out his sexual identity so he had hacked up a plan to go to a gay club in Soho and find out for sure. His friends and family had no clue that he was there. He liked the atmosphere it suited his mission. As he descended the stairs into the basement his eyes were assaulted with images of men dancing very close to the music that seemed to boom from out of nowhere and of lots of men in tight trousers swaggering around confidently. In that moment Remus knew he couldn't do this. He was a shy boy who spent way too much time by himself. His favourite companion was a book. He didn't have to worry about conversation for he had a bad stutter and it tended to get very bad when he was uncomfortable. He practically became incoherent. He knew that would happen here for definite.
He scanned the room again confirmed his suspicions-he wasn't able fir this. He backtracked very quickly and bumped in to a man who walked in behind him.
Remus turned to the man behind him; he stuttered "Sssoooorry" and blushed crimson
The other man laughed "That's ok" he looked very closely at Remus "I am Sirius by the way" he said calmly
Remus got flustered "I-i-i-i-i'm Rrrremus" he took Sirius hand and shook it awkwardly
Sirius laughed again "You leaving?" he asked
Remus nodded, he tongue felt as if it was glued to the top of his mouth. He had just realised that the stranger was beautiful. He was taller than Remus by a few inches. He was dark, lean and had the most amazing smile that made his legs go weak.
Sirius nodded his head in agreement "I hate this place too. It is too full. I never come to these places only it's my friend's birthday and his girlfriend arranged his party here. I think she is just trying to get me a boyfriend and she knew this was the only way I would go to this type of place"
"Um…" Remus hadn't a clue how to respond to that and then he saw a way to make his escape "I-i-i- had b-b-b-etter let you g-g-go then" he said quietly and quickly hoping the beautiful stranger wouldn't pick up on his stutter.
Sirius frowned and said apologetically "Sorry I didn't mean to startle you with an overload of information. I wasn't trying to scare you off. You wouldn't, by any chance, want to get a drink or something… Or maybe go somewhere quieter?
Remus was stunned he hadn't expected this and was delighted. He agreed with a nod of the head and the two of them headed out of the club and went to the closest diner.
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Sirius couldn't believe his luck. He noticed the quiet man enter ahead of him and was instantly attracted to him. He was attracted to his brown curly hair and his deep amber eyes that had captivated him in seconds. He was a little smaller than himself but he had broad shoulders. Sirius felt his breath quicken by just looking at him. He found his stutter adorable. He was nervous and didn't know how to tackle this. He had never done anything like this before.
They sat in the booth and Remus reached for the menu Sirius noticed that he had beautiful hands; his fingers were long and graceful. The artist in Sirius was just itching to draw them.
"So tell me about yourself Remus? That a weird name?" he question trying to draw the quiet man out of himself
"ammmm" Remus mind went blank and in that instance he really wanted to run "my mother is into stars and stuff and named me after one" he said quietly. He forced himself to look up and make eye contact. He was raised better than to stare at a table
"I am named after a star as well" Sirius said delighted they had something in common.
"That's cool" Remus agreed he could handle a situation like this better and he didn't stutter as much once he made himself relax "What do you do?" he asked
Sirius was pleased "I am an artist". Sirius noticed that Remus reacted and he smiled. In that instance he knew that he had met someone very special. It made goose pimples break out all over his body.
"That's really cool so what type of stuff do you do?" Remus asked interestedly. He was always fascinated by art. He loved to go to the library at his school and look at art books.
"I am a painter. I paint abstract landscapes" he reply delighted that Remus seemed so interested in his passion.
Remus looked baffled "W-w-w-hat's abstract landscapes? Remus asked, unsure of himself.
"Well most of my painting are of landscapes but I like to put a twists by putting object that wouldn't be found in a landscape" Sirius explained.
"What sort of objects"
Well people or whatever I first lay my eyes upon. I don't paint a perfect landscape my painting are full of flaws I would love to show you one if you like?"
"I-i-i-i would like that a lot". Remus smiled shyly. He really liked Sirius.
"That's great!" Sirius replied enthusiastically "How about now?"
Remus checked his watch and saw that it was quarter past one and he had better head home or his mother would get suspicious "I would love to but I have to head orrrr" he faltered he realised that Sirius thought he was older. Remus had totally forgotten in his nervous state how old he was. He felt instantly guilty. He had to tell Sirius the truth.
Sirius was disappointed but he would just have to meet up with him another day "That's fine. How about Wednesday? I will meet you here at 7.30 if that's ok?" he asked
Remus chickened out "I would love that" he smiled and stood up with Sirius "Thank you" he held out his hand so Sirius could shake it. Sirius ignored his hand and leaned and placed a gentle kiss on Remus lips. Remus blushed at the move, not expecting it. He left quietly after that.
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Remus spent that night replaying what had just happened that night especially that kiss and how aroused he had become by such a simple gesture. He also thought of how attracted he was to Sirius and how Sirius seemed to feel the same. He knew that the attraction would stop when he heard his real age. Remus had the overwhelming urge to cry.
Across the city in a small flat Sirius lay on his couch with a smile playing on his lips staring at the ceiling thinking about Remus. Lily had been furious at his no show but he had quietened her down when he told her he had met someone. He replayed the night and he felt the itch to draw Remus, so he got up and went in to the easel and began to paint. He didn't get much sleep that night.
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On Wednesday Remus waited outside the diner waiting for Sirius to show up. He was dreading this meeting. He had to tell Sirius straight away. He didn't want to lie to him. He wasn't able to lie and lying made him very uncomfortable.
Sirius turned up promptly at 7.30. He walked up to Remus delighted that he was here already. He was standing outside the diner looking uncomfortable and kept playing with the cuff of his sleeve.
He walked up and smiled. "Hi how are you?" he really wanted to give him a kiss but he wasn't getting the vibes from Remus that he would be comfortable with that.
Remus smiled shyly at Sirius and he scratched his neck "Am… Sirius there is something I have to tell you?"
"What?" Sirius asked, looking nervous
"Am… I am really sorry but I am only sixteen. I never meant to lie to you. I am really sorry. I wasn't trying to lie to you but I felt you should know."
Sirius was shocked. Remus didn't look sixteen he looked older. He felt so disappointed. He thought he had met someone but it looked like that wasn't going to happen. He hadn't a clue what to say. "You are what? Six years younger than me? You look so much older."
Remus laughed. "I know everyone tells me that. I am really sorry. I would understand if you don't want to see me again." he finished sadly
Sirius really wanted to keep seeing Remus. He knew that they couldn't become anything more than friends. He felt his heart become heavy with disappointment.
"We could still be friends. We can't become anything more but I would like to ask a favour of you… I would love to draw you.
Remus looked up suddenly and turned scarlet with embarrassment "I would love to stay friends and y-y-y-you want to draw me w-w-w-why?
Sirius looked at Remus "I think you are fascinating to look at and I just itch to draw and paint you."
Remus laughed from embarrassment "Ok…" he said hesitantly
Sirius was ecstatic that Remus had agreed. "Come on… I'll show you where I live and what I paint."
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They continued to meet regularly and in those meeting they became close friends, often disagreeing with each other, and then spending hours laughing with each other.
As Remus became more relaxed he became more outspoken and Sirius found himself becoming more attracted to him. The more time he spent with him the harder he found it to stay being just friends. He was becoming obsessed with Remus from his intellect to his beautiful amber eyes. Everything about him was an endless mystery and Sirius knew he could spend hours on end figuring him out. He had started to paint Sirius and he knew that it was going to be his best work. He found it harder to resist Remus and knew that Remus felt the same. He could see it in his eyes when they were together.
One day Sirius had Remus sat on couch with his arm extended across the couch. It was a comfortable position but Remus knew that he could be here for hours so he had bought a book to read with the other hand. Sirius never really talked while he was painting and Remus didn't mind he had always felt comfortable with silences. He had been sitting still for two hours and was getting an ache in his shoulder from holding the position for so long. He looked up and saw that Sirius was totally concentrating on his painting and when he was in that zone he forgot everything else and even forgot the discomfort of his subject.
"Hey Sirius, is there any chance I could move or go to the toilet?" He knew he had startled Sirius for he had nearly fallen off the chair.
"Yeah off course you can." He replied mildly "I totally forgot where I was there. Sorry!"
Remus stood up and stretched his arm. His muscle cramped up. He cried out in pain and Sirius was suddenly there messaging the place that the muscle was cramping up. This eased the pain and the muscle relaxed. He turned around and smiled "Thank you. I didn't think that would happen."
Remus noticed how close Sirius was standing and he felt the breath leave his body. He noticed that Sirius had some paint on his face. He reached out his hand to wipe it away. Remus eyes locked with Sirius's and he found it hard to breathe and noticed Sirius was having the same trouble.
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Sirius felt the contact and his heart accelerated and he leaned forward and kissed him gently. He knew he shouldn't do it but he couldn't resist. He felt Remus kiss him back passionately and it felt like heaven. They kissed deeply for a long time. When they came up for air Sirius said "We shouldn't have done that." and Remus kissed him again.
Sirius broke the kiss and forced himself to walk away from Remus. "Look I really shouldn't have done that but I couldn't help myself. It won't happen again, I promise" Sirius felt like crying because he knew that he had fallen in love with Remus and knew that they couldn't be together.
"We can't see each other anymore. We can't do this anymore I care too deeply for you. I want to be with you but we can't so I think it best that we see no more of each other"
Remus whispered brokenly "but I-i-i-i l-l-l-l-ove you!!" Remus exclaimed
Sirius looked at Remus "It doesn't make any difference I think you should go" he forced out it was the hardest thing he had ever to say in his life.
Remus stood up and he pack up his stuff. He turned to Sirius he had tears falling down his face. He leaned forward and kissed Sirius gently.
When Remus left the flat Sirius slid to the floor and finally let himself cry.
This is the second chapter hope you enjoy!!
Thank you to all the people who read it and enjoyed it. Thank you so much...it meant a lot to me
