"You wanted to see me, Haruhi?" Tamaki asked softly as he took a seat beside her. They were at the gazebo in the maze they had gotten lost in when playing commoners games that one day, so long ago. It remained a special place for them as it was a day that Haruhi gained insight into Tamaki's childhood, the day the first wall between them crumbled. She always thought he was just overly childish without any real understanding as to why until then and they've only grown closer since. "I did Senpai, thank you for coming." A peaceful silence overtook them as they sat there together, admiring the scenery. It was a rare occasion when they could sit and just be; usually Tamaki was off on some tangent or lost in a day dream while Haruhi was slowly edging her way out of the twins grasp. Their lives were anything but subtle as chaos was part of the daily equation when it concerned the host club. Of course, their most recent chaos included a certain brunette falling off a bridge and a certain blonde haired boy leaping after her.

The current events taught Haruhi so much about herself, about her feelings not just for Tamaki but for all the members of the host club and slowly she was setting things straight. It was true that she held romantic feelings for the boy before her, but they were just that, a boy and a girl. Merely children carried away by their emotions, they weren't in a position to take a relationship on seriously. Not with so much unknown and so many possibilities ahead of them, she knew what she wanted and where she wanted to be. How she was getting there and who would be by her side when she did were still unknown, and she owed that much of the truth to Tamaki. "I wanted to thank you, for coming after me that day. I know you sacrificed a lot and I wanted to properly tell you how I felt." If Tamaki was stunned by her words he masked it well, and Haruhi took his silence as a sign to continue on.

"I've learned more in attending Ouran than I ever imagined, and I don't just mean academically. I learned a lot about myself and my values, my goals. I always knew I wanted to pursuer a career in law and be like my mother. Thanks to you and everyone else I have a clear picture of everything I want to achieve though I'm not sure how I'm going to get there; it's a step in the right direction." Taking a deep breath Haruhi looked away breaking eye contact with Tamaki who was still listening to her quietly. "I love you Tamaki," she breathed just barely loud enough for him to hear her. His face flushed red at her confession and he was about to respond when she continued, cutting him off from giving a response. She didn't want to know his reply to her confession, because she had no intention of starting anything with him. She just wanted to be able to be honest and keep the relationship they already have.

"But you and I love very differently. Your love is selfless and it's extended to everyone all the time, it's admirable really. Mine's a little more selfish and that's why I know things between us would never work out. Even if it was great at the beginning the way we love isn't compatible. I just wanted to be able to be honest with you about my feelings without changing our relationship. I hope you can understand that, I value our friendship too much to risk making things tense or awkward over a failed relationship."

Tamaki chuckled at her comment and nodded letting her know that he understood. This is the way Haruhi would confess to him. Logically and to the point as always and as he smiled at her, he prayed that she would never change. "I love you too Haruhi and I respect your decision. I can manage being your friend for a lifetime. Can you do me a favor though, when you do find someone you want to be with can you tell me so I can let go?" Eyes wide Haruhi starred at Tamaki, blinking. It wasn't an impossible request but unexpected. Offering him a small smile she gave a curt nod, pleased with their conversation.

"It is going to be hard though," Tamaki started stretching his arms over his head. "Even if it wasn't me I always thought if you were going to be with anyone it would be with someone from the host club."

Thinking to herself Haruhi propped her elbow on the table, resting her chin in her palm. "You know, I kind of thought so too. But it doesn't seem like that's going to happen. I am glad though, that you're my first love." Unable to contain himself Tamaki swept Haruhi up in his arms, crushing her with a force that squeezed all the air from her lungs. "My baby girl is growing up, oh daddy is so proud of you!" he squealed as he shook Haruhi around like a doll. Finally breaking free of his grasp she gasped for air, holding a hand over her heart. Some things never change.

"I am curious as to what drove you to rule out all the members of the host club as love interests, aside from the fact that you want to keep your friendship intact with each individual. You know, as much as I hate it at times, I'm not the only one who's fallen for you. You're going to break many hearts."

Snorting Haruhi waved his comment off. "It's not like there was much of a budding romance between me and anyone in particular." Tamaki gave her a knowing look and sighed softly, she was always aloof when it came to issues regarding herself, she really has no idea what kind if impact her decision is going to have on the others.

"But, I would have to say it's for similar reasons as to why I don't want anything with you Senpai," she continued, thoughtfully. "Hikaru would be a selfish lover, and Honey loves no one more than he does himself. His own brother comes in second to cake to make my point, which isn't really all that appealing when considering a relationship. Mori is unconditionally devoted to honey. Again, the idea of being second to the person you're dating isn't really ideal, so he's out of the question. I guess really the only considerable one out of all of you in Kaoru. But he would never pursue anything with me in respect to Hikaru which ultimately rules all of you out." Pleased with her own conclusion Haruhi beamed over at Tamaki, giggling childishly.

"You forgot someone," Tamaki stated simply, looking at her from the corner of his eye. "You forgot Kyoya." This statement seemed to throw Haruhi off and she starred at Tamaki completely shocked into silence. "Don't tell me you've never considered Kyoya!" he screamed at her, he couldn't get the day Kyoya declared himself as his rival out of his head and yet Haruhi considered him least, if at all. All those days he spent worrying about Kyoya swooning Haruhi with his 'cool' and intellectual personality seemed to be for nothing. "I never considered Kyoya. For one he's the most likely of all of you to be set up in an arranged marriage which he would most likely agree to, seeing as any proposal of marriage would be of beneficial interest to him and his status, and even then if he wasn't ever set up in an arranged marriage he wouldn't marry for anything less than some sort of merit. Love isn't something he'd hold into consideration over what he could gain from a person. I never considered him because I've never envisioned Kyoya to marry for love, it's not a profitable move on his part and he never does anything unless it brings some form of profit." Tamaki gaped at Haruhi, she wasn't wrong everything she said described Kyoya perfectly. It was still shocking to hear her voice her opinion of him so bluntly though.

"I do have to admit though, if Kyoya ever chose to marry for love he'd be the best lover when compared to the rest of you."

"How is that even possible, did you not just hear all the things you said about Kyoya?" Tamaki fussed waving his arms about in his normal frantic state. He didn't like Haruhi pondering on what type of lover Kyoya would be, call it jealousy or maybe even fear that she would consider Kyoya, either way he didn't like it.

"Yea I know what I said but that's exactly why Kyoya would be the best lover out of all of you. Of all the things he already does for beneficial gain could you imagine what he'd do when the only thing he has to give and to gain in return is love? I'd say it'd be a force that the world has never seen before and if he ever takes it upon himself to experience that freedom whoever he chooses will be the luckiest woman in the universe."

She was so serious and honest even though she was talking about love and Kyoya in the same sentence Tamaki found himself blushing from her words. She was the definition of innocent and he was happy to be her first. Caressing her cheek he drew her to him placing a faint kiss on her forehead, "Thank you for allowing me to be your first. It's a real honor, Haruhi."

Unknown to them a figure emerged from the shadows hidden behind one of the hedges, pushing his glasses up he paused for a moment, taking in the sight of the two through the foliage. "What an interesting opinion," he mused to himself before turning to take his leave. He had stumbled upon the two by happenstance but stay out of curiosity. He definitely wasn't disappointed by the outcome, it was a little unfair that he didn't get the same consideration as the rest of the club, but he had to accept that the numbers aren't always in his favor.

1111111111111111111111111111111111111111

Rolling over in bed Haruhi lazily threw her arms over the edge searching for her phone, she cursed her alarm as her hand brushed over her nightstand, but her phone was no where to be found. Groaning she sat up rubbing the sleep out of her eyes, looking around she quickly located her phone on the floor and turned her alarm off. "What a strange perspective." She mumbled to herself as she looked at the time. It was only six in the morning so she had plenty of time before she needed to be in court and part of her entertained the idea of setting an alarm for later and going back to bed. Of course, that would be beneficial now since her mind was already flooded with memories of her friends from the host club. It's been six years since she's graduated high school and two since she graduated college. Now she was running her own firm and things were going well.

"It's been a while since I've seen any of them, I wonder why I dreamed of that again." She mumbled as she rolled out of bed, stretching. She saw Honey and Mori on more of a regular basis since they were the only ones who remained in the area after graduating college. Tamaki frequently called from France trying to persuade her to go visit him, and the twins popped in from time to time but they were usually out of country and Kyoya, well he opened a branch in England and hasn't returned since. Not even for their reunions.

It didn't bother her so to say, she expected to lose touch with Kyoya out of everyone but she didn't expect him to distance himself from all of them. The only person who's seen or heard from Kyoya since he graduated from high school was Tamaki as far as she knew. With a heavy sigh Haruhi shook her head and went to take a shower, thoughts of calling Tamaki on her mind. Maybe she kept having that dream because she needed to talk to him, maybe not either way a quick conversation wouldn't hurt.

After showing and drying off Haruhi grabbed her phone and dialed Tamaki's number. It was about seven in the morning her time which meant it was about midnight for him. She knew it was early there but it always ended up being like that when they conversed. "Haruhi, what's wrong? It's not like you to call me first." Came his sleepy voice on the other end after a couple rings. It never ceased to amaze her how no matter what he was always there when she needed him, and anytime she called the phone never rang more than twice. Distance did not change how he was always willing to be there for her and she was grateful for that.

"I'm sorry for waking you, I just have been having the same dream recently and I wanted to talk to you about it."

"My darling daughter, are you having nightmares? If so I'll be on the first plane there so I can comfort you at night," twitching Haruhi remembered what Tamaki was like and how easily he could get carried away. "It's nothing like that so no need Senpai" she quickly cut him off before he actually seriously considered coming to visit her. Of course she would be thrilled to see him but she was busy with her case load currently and wouldn't be able to spare the time to spend with him. "Okay then. What is this dream about?" Tamaki asked, fully awake now. "Do you remember the conversation we had when I confessed to you?"

"Of course, I would never forget that moment, why?"

"Well, that's what I dream of, but it's a little different."

"How is it different?"

"Our conversation is the same, but Kyoya overhears us. He just eavesdrops and then walks away muttering something about my opinion of him being interesting before he disappears."

"Haruhi, here I was thinking you were only dreaming of me and now you're telling me you dream of other men, and Kyoya of all people. Daddy is very disappointed." Tamaki teased but Haruhi's sharp tone shut him up. "Hey, you're really bothered by this aren't you?" he asked after she fell silent. With another heavy sigh she grunted in response, "It's just that I haven't seen Kyoya since that day, the day you two graduated. I don't know why I'm dreaming this. I thought maybe if I talked to you about it then it might help."

"I can't say I have an answer for you. Have you ever considered calling Kyoya and talking to him about it?" The suggestion struck Haruhi as absurd. "No, Kyoya and I were never really that close outside of the host club, and I honestly can't see him sparing the time to talk to me about my dreams. Time is money after all and we all know how much he values money."

"Okay then, since talking to Kyoya is out of the question. Let me ask you this, do you regret how things happened between us? That we agreed not to pursue anything?"

"No," came her immediate reply. It's true that she loved Tamaki, but her love for him now is more of the love she'd hold for a sibling for a family member, Tamaki was no longer an interest when it came to a romantic relationship. "Well then, lets assume you were to be with someone from the host club on that level, what other than the points you made would keep you form doing so? Certainly over the years you've found things to add."

Oh boy did she, "Well, I think the main issue now wouldn't be so much the type of lover a specific person would be but their ability to meet me in the middle."

"You think we're incapable of compromise?"

"That's not what I mean sempai, I mean in terms of lifestyle. You're all filthy rich which has adjusted each of you to a certain comfort as far as living situations go. I am the exact opposite of rich, in which I've adjusted to certain discomforts. When I was in the host club I had to rise to your guys' level on a social scale. I managed to do so without losing sight of myself, but would any of you be able to do the same for me? If I were to marry any one of you my life would change drastically as far as living arrangements, and it's not that it's a bad thing. But, would any of you be able to or even willing to make the change to live on my level, a life without unnecessary material possessions and of fair quality. I'd want to be consulted and considered when it came to those things, but you're all so used to throwing money around like it's nothing. It'd be uncomfortable and I wouldn't like it."

"You never cease to impress me Haruhi," Rolling her eyes Haruhi muttered something about not being here to impress him which only make Tamaki laugh. "I don't know what will help you, but I appreciate your honesty when it comes to loving one of us. It's refreshing to know we'd all be rejected for the same reasons."

"That, you can always count on Senpai."

11111111111111111111111111111111111

Sooo what do you think? obviously this is a Haruhi and Kyoya Fanfic. please let me know, next time well get to see the start of a budding romance.