*My little disclaimer here ^_^ First Racel is a character out of Lady
Nari's universe. She gave me permission to shape the character somewhat.
The character is Racel if you haven't' guess ^.^ Well enjoy!*
Moments of Time by: Aikyo
Chapter 1
Before the Storm
She sat on the balcony. The waist long brown hair blew in the ocean breeze. The blue crystal eyes seemed to reflect the light of the waves, were half way closed against the small eye lids. The breeze brought oddities of the sea to her every breath. She could feel the sea more and more, she could feel him. Dressed in a pale blue dress. She should get prepared. Tonight there was a ball... again. She could feel the uneasiness shift within her. She liked balls she liked to dance, but lately they had stirred uneasiness in her. She had almost made a fool of herself at the last one.
She exhaled the long kept breath only to take another one when two arms came around her from behind. She could feel his chin rest against on the top of her head and she fell hi back into the arms. His flowing cap was being played within the wind now along with her dress. Silence was something they both shared with complete open hearts. Simple moves and gestures said more to each other then words. She always felt calm with him. The uneasiness seemed to subside and disappear into the depths of the deepest ocean to be kept by them.
"Are you ready," he asked
She felt him turn her to his face. She opened her eyes to his smile which was thin and somewhat worried.
"My lord may we stay home this evening and forget the ball," he voice was direct but soft.
"Why?" his smile was now a worry. She knew he could sense her moves like he could sense the ocean.
" There is a darkness coming my lord as dark as the shadows and more." She seemed unaware when she spoke that she would turn to prose as if a poem was being written.
He sighed and cupped her face.
She leaned into his hands wanting them not to move and for him to pull her closer. She closed her eyes and could feel her wish being fulfilled. The kiss was gentle and full of their feelings. She could be stubborn and mischievous but also as scared as a water nymph, but that side he only saw. Only way others saw of it was through her art and poetry which were also hidden at times.
She felt him place his hand behind her head. She breathed through her nose only to get more of him than air. He smelled like the sea. It filled her blood with a small ecstasy. The kiss got deeper. All thoughts from before were gone. He never appeared to be passionate but it was a side she only got to see.
Her arms moved around his weak in full acceptance of the blooming kiss. Her fingers ran through his auburn hair and he leaned fully into her. Her body was close against his and every breath was him. He was the one here, the heat was him, and he is the one that has captured her.
The lengthy kiss was broken by mutual need for breath. He embraced her fully in his arms and she him. He always felt complete with her. He breathed her in again. His eyes closed at the smell of her hair, which reminded him of fresh water lilies. He could feel her lean more into him. She was always different at these times, more open to him.
"If you want," he sighed, "we don't have to go my water warrior."
She stiffened under him. She could hear both the disappointment and understanding in the unique voice. Her herself has found the voice of her own take his shape. The others always wondered how he came with such a voice. she loved it, but she hated to hear it sad or angry. She could never stand him unhappy. It unnerved her and actually scared her. he never got mad really but fear of him being so and at her made her take notice.
"But you do wish it my lord and my heart shall weigh heavy if it knows it has made you unhappy."
"As long as you are with me," he smiled, "I could not be unhappy."
"But you long to be with the others. I have no right lord to keep you from them," she stepped away and lowered her head. "Please lord.."
"Why do you say it like that?"
"My lord?"
" I am yours as much as you are mine. you don't have to call me lord when we are here,"he lifted her chin, " nor do you have to bow to me as if I was of a high status."
"It is proper my lord."
"If you do want to make me happy please do not call me this not when we are alone. My Racel."
She smiled weakly and placed a hand on his cheek.
"Shin please do not be discontent with me and go to the ball."
"My love I rather die then be apart from you. And soon our union will be complete in the current of life and eternity."
The marriage will be coming soon. The engagement had be for almost a blue moon cycle. She remembered the night when he came to her with the pearl and sapphire ring, which she wore on her hand. He was white as the drift of a wave. Their courtship was not long and their personalities seemed to reflect each other once in awhile. She can remember the first time he raised his voice. Her stubbornness had brought it on. She was never open with anyone before him. There was no one before him and she wanted no one after.
Lately it was hard to keep from the temptations of closeness. But tradition called and honor called for them to be married first. She was glade it was coming. So many nights she wanted to ask him not just stay with her but to be with her. his patience astounded her.
All these thoughts happened in a blink of time between the two.
"I do look forward to being Lady Mouri. My love neither time nor space could stop my love for you. even in death we could find each other if it is destiny. Our souls would never part. We could be as continuos as the sea and it would be you and me. One and forever."
He smiled at her prose. Both were part of the water in some way so in part each other. But she had another ability. Empathic not only to the animals of the sea but on the land. Her feelings were hardly ignored by him. They had been beneficial in governing his kingdom and in battle. He smiled his water warrior. She was not great with her staff but efficient and determined. But lately her feelings were odd and not provable. He knew she was hiding something.
"Then if our love may not be burden by boundaries of mortal or immortal worlds why do you delay your thoughts to me?"
"I delay nothing that is of importance to you my love."
"Then tell me what has made you of late be restless as a hurricane."
"I do not know. I am sorry."
"We must trust each other to accomplish everything"
"Oh Lord! I do I do! may I be swallowed by my own hurricane and drowned down to the depths of the fathoms if you think my heart does not trust you! I would follow you through both heaven and hell and battle against anything that might cause the latter."
"Then let's walk through your fears and tell me what they are."
She forced herself to swallow. She was almost brought to tears. She was not one to cry, and only one to see was Shin, and even that was not often.
"I fear for our kingdoms and Lady Nari."
"Why?"
"I have had dreams of a great ball the darkness. We could not stop her from being swallowed by it. I fear it will come to pass. And after we will be separated."
He was uncertain of this. The wars were over was it not? But her dreams were often true, but not always. Neither of them noticed the servant enter.
"Lord Korin and Lady Nari are waiting in the parlor my lord," he said.
Shin turned and thanked the servant. "I will go and tell them that this ball will be missing our presence."
"But Shin you want to go and see your fellow lords. Please don't be denied because of me."
"I will not leave you here besides it would be proper for me to leave my future queen behind." He took her hands and kissed them and left the balcony before she had time to say another rebuke.
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The alabaster stone with the turquoise lines shined beautifully against the moon light. The palace was always opened to allow the ocean breeze to come in and the curtains of ocean blue swayed with every blow.
Lady Nari was in her ball gown of fine green silk and velvet. Lord Seiji was also in a green suite. Not surprising most of these balls the couples came with matching attire. Last time it was a soft purple, Nari's color. It didn't matter though both of them always seemed to radiate a beautiful light together. They were always happy it seemed.
Seiji wore a thin crown with interlacing emeralds, but it did not help with the hair that always feel on his eye. Racel looked at him. He was always a spectacle to look at, but with a air of non-chalance.
Racel slowly entered behind Shin.
"Ahh..there you two are!" Nari exclaimed.
"You ready my friend, the carriages are waiting," Seiji asked.
"I do regret to inform you that me and Lady Racel will not be attending,"he answered.
"Why?!" Nari sounded surprised and worried in that one breath.
"It is my fault my lady. I have brought unneeded worry upon him. Please tell him it is not worth his time and take him to the ball."
"I will not go with out you," Shin was now angry. He could hide it but once he made a decision it was impossible to change his mind.
Nari walked to her friend and could see the worry.
"Tell me, I demand to know what weighs both you and your lord."
"My lady," Racel lowered her head, "it should not be worried upon. I am being silly."
"Then let me free you of this silliness. Come to the ball and forget your worry," Nari said.
"The ball is her worry Lady," Shin stated
"But why?" Seiji asked
"It is nothing unrested sleep. Please take my lord and go. Give my greetings to the others."
"I will not here of it!'Nari was getting flustered she didn't like to see any friend troubled, "I will stay here with you and forget the ball myself."
"Oh no my lady!" Racel exclaimed
"What?!" Seiji said
"I will hear none of it. If you will not go because of worry I will stay here until we find the cause for it."
"But my lady..." Seiji didn't finish his thought and gave up rather rapidly, one thing for sure was changing Nari's mind would be impossible.
"Oh my lady please forget me," pleaded Racel
" I will NOT!"Nari was determined as ever, "You are my friend to me and I to you for many years."
Racel sighed a beaten breath. She now would not only be the cause of her lords absence but Nari and Seiji's as well. Lord Shu would not be happy. He was always mad if someone missed his balls or parties.
Shin had moved along side Racel.
*Please my water lilly* he mentally pleaded.
"I can't go to the ball now even if I wished too. I am not prepared," motioning to her dress. The time she spent on the balcony and with Shin was the time set aside for preparing. She was not about to give that time up for any excuse or any ball.
"We can make quick work! Trust me." said Nari taking Racel's hand.
Racel nodded and sighed. She had lost this battle. She looked towards Shin. His smile was happy but his eyes were worried.
*I'm fine as long as you are with me* she called out to him
*In this life and the next* he answered her
Before Racel knew it she was dressed and ready to go. Nari knew how to make sure worked of things. There was no talk of Racel's fears, much to Racel's liking.
When they came down both men were talking of happy news on both ends. Seiji of his kingdom and happiness and Shin of his. Racel was happy to see him smile. If it weren't' for the balls the Lords would rarely meet each other. They were good friends and being apart from each other was hard on them.
Shin noticed the two before Seiji. He was astounded by how Racel looked. She beamed in the lilac blue gown. She wore a pair of earrings made of seashells that he had given her when they were courting. Her long hair was done up in a small beret of pale blue.
"You both look lovely," Seiji commented holding a hand out to Nari.
Nari smiled and took the hand only to brush close and whisper something in his ear. Seiji gave a small blush but it disappeared quickly. It always amazed Shin that Nari could do that to Seiji. He drew his attention back to Racel.
"You look stunning"
"Thankyou Shin..."
Shin walked to take her hand. Racel freely gave it to him. She felt like fighting once more but knew it was helpless. And Shin looked so happy she didn't want to spoil this for him.
They entered the carriage and set off for Lord Shu's.
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When they arrived the palace was full of all people from the kingdoms. When one went to Lord Shu's you could be certain of two things, good food and drink.
The thought made Racel laugh.
They entered the main ball room to be faced with a cavalcade of persons dancing and talking. At the far end the other lords stood with their ladies.
"Well it's about time!" Shouted Lord Shu.
"We had a small delay," Seiji answered.
"But it was nothing," Nari quickly added with a small glance at Racel.
"Does not matter, you are here now," the low voice was of lord Ryo's. His raven hair had grown since last Racel saw him. All of them had changed a little both physically and mentally.
There was dancing and drinking and food as expected during the night. Racel was happy to see Shin with the others again. He was happy. The other ladies were also commenting on how things had changed and people. Racel tried not to get to involved, she didn't want to make a fool of herself. Last time she made a comment that was very out of line and Shin didn't admit it but he disapproved of it.
The dancing took up most of the night. Racel loved to dance with Shin. He always seemed to make her float. During one dance when you changed partners Racel ended up with Lord Touma. He was the youngest lord but he did not look like it. He had a lot of energy always and surprised Racel with a certain step.
Racel escaped the gossips and the ideal talks. It was not easy though, her herself missed the other ladies. They were all friends and very close. But she found a way to go to the west balcony.
Unbeknown to her she spent the rest of the ball there. She was lost in thought and self worry. She wondered if it would happen on a night like this, when they were all off guard. She shivered at the thought and tried to push it from her mind.
"You're silly," she said to herself, "Soon you will be married to Shin and nothing will worry you except what to do with your next painting or how to spoil your children." At this comment she smiled. She loved her art but she loved children more. She couldn't wait to have Shin's children. She couldn't wait to have him. She blushed at her own lust. They had talked about children and even names. Lilly was her favorite. And she was certain that if there would be son's they would bare his grandfather or father's name like Shin did. She closed her eyes and pictured the palace being destroyed by three children. Shin would make a great father. He was patient and caring and he knew how to talk to people.
Racel was somewhat startled to hear Shin's voice all of a sudden.
"So this is where you got to?" his voice was filled with laughter and a whimsy.
"Did you have fun?" She asked in a I told you so tune making sure to point out she was right.
His smiled and nodded. Racel laughed. It was obvious Shu got Shin to drink more than usual. She almost made a comment when a commotion under the balcony caught her attention. She looked over to see Nari and Seiji.
There was an exchange of jibs and foolishness. Racel smiled only at Shu's could the princess of light and her lord get tipsy. They quickly returned inside within eachother's arms.
The sudden fear came back. The dream came back to her like a cold slap. The darkness that surrounded her true friend and how helpless she also felt. Racel was aware that she was not a true fighter. It really wasn't in her nature for battle. Although she could argue and often did too much. Shin had taken most of that out of her. He never asked much about her anger, and she knew she could never tell him of it, but he calmed it somehow. But when it came to her friends she would fight any battle.
She could feel the storm rage in her belly. She wanted to go down there and tell everyone that something was wrong, that something was coming to destroy them. She stood there until she convinced herself that she was right. She didn't' care if she made a fool of herself again. She began to turn around. Totally forgetting that Shin was there.
"Where do you think you're going?" He could sense something was up, and he knew better then to let her run off, that's how she got in trouble.
"I'm going to warn everyone," she answered boldly.
"No... you have no proof of your fears."
"I've had my dreams and feelings!"
"That's not enough dreams can't always be trusted!"
She felt like someone had taken the breath from her body. He basically said he didn't' trust her, not just the dreams.
"Now come.. but no more talk about it to anyone till we get home. The ball is almost over it would be rude not to be down there."
The ball ended like it started with people coming and now going. She didn't' say a word about her fears even though she wanted to. Shin was her lord and she had to respect his decisions.
The good-byes were warm and cheerful for the most part. Talk of another ball was already swimming about, the next at Lord Seiji's. It would be lovely at the Korin kingdom Racel thought, but she did not comment. But every fiber in her wanted to scream.
When it came time for them to all leave Shin was the one to give the good-bye.
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When she arrived home she said nothing. She had said nothing since they left the ball, and none of that was directed at him. Shin knew she was concealing her anger at him. He was completely aware of her temper, but the main worry was when she just buried it. He had hoped by now that most of her anger would have persist. It was the main thing they worked on.
Before he could say anything she had announced she would be going to bed right away. He sighed and could do nothing but watch the one he loved run away from him. He contemplated on following her.
She quickly retreated to her bedroom and flung herself on the bed. She wanted out of the ball gown and for the evening to just pass, but it was too late to just forget everything. She still felt like she was going to explode from the storm in her belly. She wanted to lash out not only at Shin but everything. She quickly got out of the ball cloths, and got into her more Informal clothing. It really wasn't' proper for women to wear slacks but she did on occasion. The shirt was one of Shin's that she had kept from a long time ago when he got hurt. There was still a small hole near the right side of the shirt where the arrow went through. The slacks were just big and baggy of a beige color.
She wanted to get out. She planned to go down by the shore, but first she wanted to stop by her art room. Shin had made it for her soon after their engagement on her birthday. She was always drawing or painting or writing in the halls of the palace or on the shore, so to keep her from wandering he built it on the west side. For her to see the sun set and smell the ocean like it was right there. He said it would be a place for her muses to come without any interruptions. He himself would come and muse his music. She loved his music and loved to play her harp to anything he made.
She walked over to her most recent work. It was covered in a heavy canvas, but she removed it with great ease being use to the canvas' weight. It was a branch of her dream. Dark and disturbed the image was too much. She turned away hoping not to remember but now it was not only in her mind but on the canvas. She recovered it quickly hoping that the demons would not jump out of it.
She ran back to her room and unlocked the tall cabinet. She opened it and took out her staff. The staff was white and turquoise in color with carefully etched designs. It had the ability to change into any weapon she desired. It was an attributed power to her own natural mind power, which her armor magnified. It had been a very long time since she had used either staff or armor but tonight she wanted her staff close.
She made sure the palace was asleep before climbing out of her bedroom window. She was able to climb down easily with her strong limbs.
The night air felt good against her skin. It was cool and fresh carried by the sea breeze was the smell of it, urging her on to the sea faster.
Once there she wasn't' content just being there and being out of the palace. She wanted to be part of the sea, she wanted the water to wash her anger away. Before a second thought passed she had slipped out of her boots and ran into the sea with only moon light to swim by.
The water was very cold, but her body quickly adapted to it. She moved with every wave and immersed herself in the sea's open arms. Not noticing as someone stood on the shore.
She had no baring on either time or her surroundings, only thing she was aware of was the water around her. When she decided to get out of the water it was a decision hard to make. Emersing herself always made her feel better. She walked up on the shore, her oversized shirt hung from being drenched and the slacks that already did not fit right were also quite is disarray. She had forgotten to tie her back, and so it too had managed to give her a feeling of heaviness.
She gave no mind and decided to collapse by where she left her boots earlier. The sand was cool also, as she looked up at the stars and let out a long breath. It only took a minute for her too quickly realize that someone was near. She sat up and took out her staff. She was quite good just using the staff as a weapon. But she could also turn it into a sai or sword. She wasn't as skilled as some but she could hold her own.
She had proven this to many before, even Shin. She smiled at the memory of when during one of her practices he offered to spare with her. His face when she was able to knock the wind out of him before he had time to react was rememberable.
The presence had a familiarity to it. She knew whoever it was very close to her.
"You should not be out," the voice was unmistakable.
"I am sorry my lord," she managed to say before Shin appeared.
She got out of her fighting stance and just stood there.
He couldn't of been prepared for what happened to him. Seeing her emerge was enough to make his blood boil, with anger and passion. Even in the unbefiting outfit she looked so beautiful. When she took up her fighting stance the passion in her eyes and the way she held herself made him stop in wonder. She had sensed his presence very quickly, but he could see that she was ready to fight whomever it was. The caring soft lady was incased in a rough warrior shell, he knew he had stepped in on her own time. He could not help but love both sides of her though...warrior and lady.
Hs announcement only caused her to incase herself in silence.
"You know it can be dangerous to go out by yourself do you not? Without someone to be with you and if anything should of happened..."
"I am sorry my lord it shall not happen again."
"Why have you come out here in the dead of night with your staff in hand?"
Her only response was to kneel where she had stood and say. "I'm sorry lord it will not happen again..."
Shin was getting angry at this parrot response she could tell. She kept her head down and let him approach her. By leaving the palace without guards or attendants was looked down upon, but tonight she had no use for either attendants or guards.
"That did not answer my question Racel!"
"I do not know my lord.. I was just pulled by my element tonight."
"What is wrong?"
"Nothing is worn my lord...I ask for you forgiveness."
"What you did is not done by ladies of your status.."
She bowed her head at this comment, she knew it would do no good to speak up, it would just get her into more trouble.
"I know my lord. I again ask for your forgiveness."
"Come now with me. We shall go back to the palace," he held out his hand.
She got up though without his assistance and gathered her boots and stood waiting for him to lead. He was perturbed that she did not take his hand but at least she obeyed his command.
When they got to the palace the servants that were up were surprised to see the Lord up at this hour, but were more surprised to see the Lady Racel in the cloths she wore and that they were drenched right through.
When Racel and Shin entered the main living area Shin locked the doors while Racel went back to kneel.
"I want to know why you went out," in a hard tone. Shin could get angry just like others, but his way of it made him look taller and forceful. She hated to see him this way.
"As I said before I went out for no reason....please forgive me."
"Why do you play this game with me?!" He had reached his patience limit. He hated it when she couldn't or more wouldn't confide in him. She just turned her eyes down and bowed lower, he wanted her to talk to him not turn away. After asking again and with no reply he forced her to stand up and look at him.
"Now," trying in calm his voice, "Please Racel please what is it?"
"My lord please.. I must not rise until you have forgiven me."
"I have nothing to forgive you for."
"Then why do you take this tone?" She was trying to keep her voice and anger down.
"You are hiding from me.. you must tell me."
"I tried to earlier but you did not believe me!" She had come to her wits end also playing this game of formality.
"What!" Shin surprised both by answer and tone.
"I wanted to tell everyone that danger is coming but you would not let me! you do not trust me or my dreams!" For the first time she caught herself actually saying this, and could feel the cold on her body.
"I do trust you... but what you said was..." Shin was taken back and disoriented the had never really fought before. Racel had started shivering from the coldness of her cloths and fear, and anger.
"How can you say that?" Shin asked.
Racel just realized that she had just probably terminated everything between them by talking this way to him.
"Pleas Shin-sama why don't you trust me?"
"I do but your dreams are not real."
"They are to me! They are me as much as I am to myself."
"But nothing happened tonight..."
"Not tonight but it will happen I know it.."
"You don't know.."
"Yes I do! If you can't believe me then why even marry me?" she whispered.
"What does that mean?"
"I have no right to be here..."turning away from him.
"But I love you"
"But you don't trust me as I do you."
"I do what can I do to prove it?"
"Believe me just believe me."
Shin now just realizing that she must be freezing from the swim puts his cloak around her. She accepted it. She had turned inward again. "I'm sorry. Please I do believe you. Don't ever say you are going to leave. I love you."
"You deserve someone different. Some lady who knows how to obey her lord and make him happy."
"I don't want you to obey me, I want you to love me and I want us to be happy together."
"I'm happy when you are, but how can I be if I'm the reason for your unhappiness? I raise you to such anger. And I should not of raised my voice to my lord."
"I love you because of you. I want to be with you forever by my side with your temper. To rule, to live, to have children, and even to fight by my side."
"I would die for you."
"And me you. Please forgive me for not believing you earlier."
"And you me for my anger and voice raising and running out."
Shin's only answer was to kiss her.
"Over time you will be able to get rid of all your anger. I will help"
"Thankyou," she whispered.
Shin picked her up and carried her to her bedroom.
"Now rest. Tomorrow we will talk about what to do."
"About what?"
"We will discuss how to bring an audience up to Lady Nari and Seiji."
"No you are right. I need to have more proof."
"I'm trying to apologize. If you think there is danger towards our kingdoms it should be told and shared."
Her weak smile was a truce called on both ends of their first fight. Which Shin always remembered as not going to bad. Shin kissed her, but the kiss did not stop. Through the kiss they were apologizing for any wrongs against eachother.
Shin always thought she was beautiful before, but now with on both her lips and body and still having the image of his love walking from the sea looking so beautiful, his passion rose.
She didn't want this to end. When he was there she knew the dreams would not come. She wanted him to stay.
"Shin... stay with me tonight."
Shin trying to remain calm and himself a gentleman, "I should not, we are not yet married."
"Please Shin just hold me tonight, please if you are here the dreams will not come to me for they are scared of you. Please don't leave me."
She started to cry. He couldn't stand to see her cry. She never cried even in pain or for the slightest discomfort. She cried when she was feeling helpless and scared. He wanted to prevent her from feeling that.
"Don't cry"
"I'm scared... Shin.. I've seen death in my dreams...I don't want you to leave me."
"I won't ...I promise"
"Then stay please!" her plea was too much for him.
He nodded in agreement. Part of him wanted to stay anyway.
She was restless mostly in his arms. He hummed in her ear a soft lullaby that had been passed down from generation to generation into her ear. There was nothing sexual about the way they held eachother and none was expected. Only closeness needed on by both parties side and both granting the other's wish. She fell asleep with her head next to his heart.
His arms encircled her, with her bare skin smooth and white under the loose night gown that was somewhat revealing. Her hair still in disarray from the swim covered the lovely face.
He brushed aside a couple of strands only to trace her whole face with his index finger and to enjoy her warm breath on his skin. Even through his shirt he could feel her breath.
He was worried. If what her dreams showed her were true and were to come then there will be hardtimes coming. And would death. He sighed. No matter what he promised her that night while she slept.
"I will find you in any world and will always love you. Your passion for life and love is astounding and has taught me so much. Inside you are so beautiful you only need to let it out more. I swear I will never leave you, I will protect you from all things in this plane and others, in your dreams in this world. I will find you again if I should die for I will always be in your heart, and never forget my love for I will not forget yours. My true love and destiny we will never be separated."
He kissed her sleeping form and held her close.
Soon after both were lost in dreams, and that night Racel didn't have any nightmares.
Moments of Time by: Aikyo
Chapter 1
Before the Storm
She sat on the balcony. The waist long brown hair blew in the ocean breeze. The blue crystal eyes seemed to reflect the light of the waves, were half way closed against the small eye lids. The breeze brought oddities of the sea to her every breath. She could feel the sea more and more, she could feel him. Dressed in a pale blue dress. She should get prepared. Tonight there was a ball... again. She could feel the uneasiness shift within her. She liked balls she liked to dance, but lately they had stirred uneasiness in her. She had almost made a fool of herself at the last one.
She exhaled the long kept breath only to take another one when two arms came around her from behind. She could feel his chin rest against on the top of her head and she fell hi back into the arms. His flowing cap was being played within the wind now along with her dress. Silence was something they both shared with complete open hearts. Simple moves and gestures said more to each other then words. She always felt calm with him. The uneasiness seemed to subside and disappear into the depths of the deepest ocean to be kept by them.
"Are you ready," he asked
She felt him turn her to his face. She opened her eyes to his smile which was thin and somewhat worried.
"My lord may we stay home this evening and forget the ball," he voice was direct but soft.
"Why?" his smile was now a worry. She knew he could sense her moves like he could sense the ocean.
" There is a darkness coming my lord as dark as the shadows and more." She seemed unaware when she spoke that she would turn to prose as if a poem was being written.
He sighed and cupped her face.
She leaned into his hands wanting them not to move and for him to pull her closer. She closed her eyes and could feel her wish being fulfilled. The kiss was gentle and full of their feelings. She could be stubborn and mischievous but also as scared as a water nymph, but that side he only saw. Only way others saw of it was through her art and poetry which were also hidden at times.
She felt him place his hand behind her head. She breathed through her nose only to get more of him than air. He smelled like the sea. It filled her blood with a small ecstasy. The kiss got deeper. All thoughts from before were gone. He never appeared to be passionate but it was a side she only got to see.
Her arms moved around his weak in full acceptance of the blooming kiss. Her fingers ran through his auburn hair and he leaned fully into her. Her body was close against his and every breath was him. He was the one here, the heat was him, and he is the one that has captured her.
The lengthy kiss was broken by mutual need for breath. He embraced her fully in his arms and she him. He always felt complete with her. He breathed her in again. His eyes closed at the smell of her hair, which reminded him of fresh water lilies. He could feel her lean more into him. She was always different at these times, more open to him.
"If you want," he sighed, "we don't have to go my water warrior."
She stiffened under him. She could hear both the disappointment and understanding in the unique voice. Her herself has found the voice of her own take his shape. The others always wondered how he came with such a voice. she loved it, but she hated to hear it sad or angry. She could never stand him unhappy. It unnerved her and actually scared her. he never got mad really but fear of him being so and at her made her take notice.
"But you do wish it my lord and my heart shall weigh heavy if it knows it has made you unhappy."
"As long as you are with me," he smiled, "I could not be unhappy."
"But you long to be with the others. I have no right lord to keep you from them," she stepped away and lowered her head. "Please lord.."
"Why do you say it like that?"
"My lord?"
" I am yours as much as you are mine. you don't have to call me lord when we are here,"he lifted her chin, " nor do you have to bow to me as if I was of a high status."
"It is proper my lord."
"If you do want to make me happy please do not call me this not when we are alone. My Racel."
She smiled weakly and placed a hand on his cheek.
"Shin please do not be discontent with me and go to the ball."
"My love I rather die then be apart from you. And soon our union will be complete in the current of life and eternity."
The marriage will be coming soon. The engagement had be for almost a blue moon cycle. She remembered the night when he came to her with the pearl and sapphire ring, which she wore on her hand. He was white as the drift of a wave. Their courtship was not long and their personalities seemed to reflect each other once in awhile. She can remember the first time he raised his voice. Her stubbornness had brought it on. She was never open with anyone before him. There was no one before him and she wanted no one after.
Lately it was hard to keep from the temptations of closeness. But tradition called and honor called for them to be married first. She was glade it was coming. So many nights she wanted to ask him not just stay with her but to be with her. his patience astounded her.
All these thoughts happened in a blink of time between the two.
"I do look forward to being Lady Mouri. My love neither time nor space could stop my love for you. even in death we could find each other if it is destiny. Our souls would never part. We could be as continuos as the sea and it would be you and me. One and forever."
He smiled at her prose. Both were part of the water in some way so in part each other. But she had another ability. Empathic not only to the animals of the sea but on the land. Her feelings were hardly ignored by him. They had been beneficial in governing his kingdom and in battle. He smiled his water warrior. She was not great with her staff but efficient and determined. But lately her feelings were odd and not provable. He knew she was hiding something.
"Then if our love may not be burden by boundaries of mortal or immortal worlds why do you delay your thoughts to me?"
"I delay nothing that is of importance to you my love."
"Then tell me what has made you of late be restless as a hurricane."
"I do not know. I am sorry."
"We must trust each other to accomplish everything"
"Oh Lord! I do I do! may I be swallowed by my own hurricane and drowned down to the depths of the fathoms if you think my heart does not trust you! I would follow you through both heaven and hell and battle against anything that might cause the latter."
"Then let's walk through your fears and tell me what they are."
She forced herself to swallow. She was almost brought to tears. She was not one to cry, and only one to see was Shin, and even that was not often.
"I fear for our kingdoms and Lady Nari."
"Why?"
"I have had dreams of a great ball the darkness. We could not stop her from being swallowed by it. I fear it will come to pass. And after we will be separated."
He was uncertain of this. The wars were over was it not? But her dreams were often true, but not always. Neither of them noticed the servant enter.
"Lord Korin and Lady Nari are waiting in the parlor my lord," he said.
Shin turned and thanked the servant. "I will go and tell them that this ball will be missing our presence."
"But Shin you want to go and see your fellow lords. Please don't be denied because of me."
"I will not leave you here besides it would be proper for me to leave my future queen behind." He took her hands and kissed them and left the balcony before she had time to say another rebuke.
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The alabaster stone with the turquoise lines shined beautifully against the moon light. The palace was always opened to allow the ocean breeze to come in and the curtains of ocean blue swayed with every blow.
Lady Nari was in her ball gown of fine green silk and velvet. Lord Seiji was also in a green suite. Not surprising most of these balls the couples came with matching attire. Last time it was a soft purple, Nari's color. It didn't matter though both of them always seemed to radiate a beautiful light together. They were always happy it seemed.
Seiji wore a thin crown with interlacing emeralds, but it did not help with the hair that always feel on his eye. Racel looked at him. He was always a spectacle to look at, but with a air of non-chalance.
Racel slowly entered behind Shin.
"Ahh..there you two are!" Nari exclaimed.
"You ready my friend, the carriages are waiting," Seiji asked.
"I do regret to inform you that me and Lady Racel will not be attending,"he answered.
"Why?!" Nari sounded surprised and worried in that one breath.
"It is my fault my lady. I have brought unneeded worry upon him. Please tell him it is not worth his time and take him to the ball."
"I will not go with out you," Shin was now angry. He could hide it but once he made a decision it was impossible to change his mind.
Nari walked to her friend and could see the worry.
"Tell me, I demand to know what weighs both you and your lord."
"My lady," Racel lowered her head, "it should not be worried upon. I am being silly."
"Then let me free you of this silliness. Come to the ball and forget your worry," Nari said.
"The ball is her worry Lady," Shin stated
"But why?" Seiji asked
"It is nothing unrested sleep. Please take my lord and go. Give my greetings to the others."
"I will not here of it!'Nari was getting flustered she didn't like to see any friend troubled, "I will stay here with you and forget the ball myself."
"Oh no my lady!" Racel exclaimed
"What?!" Seiji said
"I will hear none of it. If you will not go because of worry I will stay here until we find the cause for it."
"But my lady..." Seiji didn't finish his thought and gave up rather rapidly, one thing for sure was changing Nari's mind would be impossible.
"Oh my lady please forget me," pleaded Racel
" I will NOT!"Nari was determined as ever, "You are my friend to me and I to you for many years."
Racel sighed a beaten breath. She now would not only be the cause of her lords absence but Nari and Seiji's as well. Lord Shu would not be happy. He was always mad if someone missed his balls or parties.
Shin had moved along side Racel.
*Please my water lilly* he mentally pleaded.
"I can't go to the ball now even if I wished too. I am not prepared," motioning to her dress. The time she spent on the balcony and with Shin was the time set aside for preparing. She was not about to give that time up for any excuse or any ball.
"We can make quick work! Trust me." said Nari taking Racel's hand.
Racel nodded and sighed. She had lost this battle. She looked towards Shin. His smile was happy but his eyes were worried.
*I'm fine as long as you are with me* she called out to him
*In this life and the next* he answered her
Before Racel knew it she was dressed and ready to go. Nari knew how to make sure worked of things. There was no talk of Racel's fears, much to Racel's liking.
When they came down both men were talking of happy news on both ends. Seiji of his kingdom and happiness and Shin of his. Racel was happy to see him smile. If it weren't' for the balls the Lords would rarely meet each other. They were good friends and being apart from each other was hard on them.
Shin noticed the two before Seiji. He was astounded by how Racel looked. She beamed in the lilac blue gown. She wore a pair of earrings made of seashells that he had given her when they were courting. Her long hair was done up in a small beret of pale blue.
"You both look lovely," Seiji commented holding a hand out to Nari.
Nari smiled and took the hand only to brush close and whisper something in his ear. Seiji gave a small blush but it disappeared quickly. It always amazed Shin that Nari could do that to Seiji. He drew his attention back to Racel.
"You look stunning"
"Thankyou Shin..."
Shin walked to take her hand. Racel freely gave it to him. She felt like fighting once more but knew it was helpless. And Shin looked so happy she didn't want to spoil this for him.
They entered the carriage and set off for Lord Shu's.
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When they arrived the palace was full of all people from the kingdoms. When one went to Lord Shu's you could be certain of two things, good food and drink.
The thought made Racel laugh.
They entered the main ball room to be faced with a cavalcade of persons dancing and talking. At the far end the other lords stood with their ladies.
"Well it's about time!" Shouted Lord Shu.
"We had a small delay," Seiji answered.
"But it was nothing," Nari quickly added with a small glance at Racel.
"Does not matter, you are here now," the low voice was of lord Ryo's. His raven hair had grown since last Racel saw him. All of them had changed a little both physically and mentally.
There was dancing and drinking and food as expected during the night. Racel was happy to see Shin with the others again. He was happy. The other ladies were also commenting on how things had changed and people. Racel tried not to get to involved, she didn't want to make a fool of herself. Last time she made a comment that was very out of line and Shin didn't admit it but he disapproved of it.
The dancing took up most of the night. Racel loved to dance with Shin. He always seemed to make her float. During one dance when you changed partners Racel ended up with Lord Touma. He was the youngest lord but he did not look like it. He had a lot of energy always and surprised Racel with a certain step.
Racel escaped the gossips and the ideal talks. It was not easy though, her herself missed the other ladies. They were all friends and very close. But she found a way to go to the west balcony.
Unbeknown to her she spent the rest of the ball there. She was lost in thought and self worry. She wondered if it would happen on a night like this, when they were all off guard. She shivered at the thought and tried to push it from her mind.
"You're silly," she said to herself, "Soon you will be married to Shin and nothing will worry you except what to do with your next painting or how to spoil your children." At this comment she smiled. She loved her art but she loved children more. She couldn't wait to have Shin's children. She couldn't wait to have him. She blushed at her own lust. They had talked about children and even names. Lilly was her favorite. And she was certain that if there would be son's they would bare his grandfather or father's name like Shin did. She closed her eyes and pictured the palace being destroyed by three children. Shin would make a great father. He was patient and caring and he knew how to talk to people.
Racel was somewhat startled to hear Shin's voice all of a sudden.
"So this is where you got to?" his voice was filled with laughter and a whimsy.
"Did you have fun?" She asked in a I told you so tune making sure to point out she was right.
His smiled and nodded. Racel laughed. It was obvious Shu got Shin to drink more than usual. She almost made a comment when a commotion under the balcony caught her attention. She looked over to see Nari and Seiji.
There was an exchange of jibs and foolishness. Racel smiled only at Shu's could the princess of light and her lord get tipsy. They quickly returned inside within eachother's arms.
The sudden fear came back. The dream came back to her like a cold slap. The darkness that surrounded her true friend and how helpless she also felt. Racel was aware that she was not a true fighter. It really wasn't in her nature for battle. Although she could argue and often did too much. Shin had taken most of that out of her. He never asked much about her anger, and she knew she could never tell him of it, but he calmed it somehow. But when it came to her friends she would fight any battle.
She could feel the storm rage in her belly. She wanted to go down there and tell everyone that something was wrong, that something was coming to destroy them. She stood there until she convinced herself that she was right. She didn't' care if she made a fool of herself again. She began to turn around. Totally forgetting that Shin was there.
"Where do you think you're going?" He could sense something was up, and he knew better then to let her run off, that's how she got in trouble.
"I'm going to warn everyone," she answered boldly.
"No... you have no proof of your fears."
"I've had my dreams and feelings!"
"That's not enough dreams can't always be trusted!"
She felt like someone had taken the breath from her body. He basically said he didn't' trust her, not just the dreams.
"Now come.. but no more talk about it to anyone till we get home. The ball is almost over it would be rude not to be down there."
The ball ended like it started with people coming and now going. She didn't' say a word about her fears even though she wanted to. Shin was her lord and she had to respect his decisions.
The good-byes were warm and cheerful for the most part. Talk of another ball was already swimming about, the next at Lord Seiji's. It would be lovely at the Korin kingdom Racel thought, but she did not comment. But every fiber in her wanted to scream.
When it came time for them to all leave Shin was the one to give the good-bye.
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When she arrived home she said nothing. She had said nothing since they left the ball, and none of that was directed at him. Shin knew she was concealing her anger at him. He was completely aware of her temper, but the main worry was when she just buried it. He had hoped by now that most of her anger would have persist. It was the main thing they worked on.
Before he could say anything she had announced she would be going to bed right away. He sighed and could do nothing but watch the one he loved run away from him. He contemplated on following her.
She quickly retreated to her bedroom and flung herself on the bed. She wanted out of the ball gown and for the evening to just pass, but it was too late to just forget everything. She still felt like she was going to explode from the storm in her belly. She wanted to lash out not only at Shin but everything. She quickly got out of the ball cloths, and got into her more Informal clothing. It really wasn't' proper for women to wear slacks but she did on occasion. The shirt was one of Shin's that she had kept from a long time ago when he got hurt. There was still a small hole near the right side of the shirt where the arrow went through. The slacks were just big and baggy of a beige color.
She wanted to get out. She planned to go down by the shore, but first she wanted to stop by her art room. Shin had made it for her soon after their engagement on her birthday. She was always drawing or painting or writing in the halls of the palace or on the shore, so to keep her from wandering he built it on the west side. For her to see the sun set and smell the ocean like it was right there. He said it would be a place for her muses to come without any interruptions. He himself would come and muse his music. She loved his music and loved to play her harp to anything he made.
She walked over to her most recent work. It was covered in a heavy canvas, but she removed it with great ease being use to the canvas' weight. It was a branch of her dream. Dark and disturbed the image was too much. She turned away hoping not to remember but now it was not only in her mind but on the canvas. She recovered it quickly hoping that the demons would not jump out of it.
She ran back to her room and unlocked the tall cabinet. She opened it and took out her staff. The staff was white and turquoise in color with carefully etched designs. It had the ability to change into any weapon she desired. It was an attributed power to her own natural mind power, which her armor magnified. It had been a very long time since she had used either staff or armor but tonight she wanted her staff close.
She made sure the palace was asleep before climbing out of her bedroom window. She was able to climb down easily with her strong limbs.
The night air felt good against her skin. It was cool and fresh carried by the sea breeze was the smell of it, urging her on to the sea faster.
Once there she wasn't' content just being there and being out of the palace. She wanted to be part of the sea, she wanted the water to wash her anger away. Before a second thought passed she had slipped out of her boots and ran into the sea with only moon light to swim by.
The water was very cold, but her body quickly adapted to it. She moved with every wave and immersed herself in the sea's open arms. Not noticing as someone stood on the shore.
She had no baring on either time or her surroundings, only thing she was aware of was the water around her. When she decided to get out of the water it was a decision hard to make. Emersing herself always made her feel better. She walked up on the shore, her oversized shirt hung from being drenched and the slacks that already did not fit right were also quite is disarray. She had forgotten to tie her back, and so it too had managed to give her a feeling of heaviness.
She gave no mind and decided to collapse by where she left her boots earlier. The sand was cool also, as she looked up at the stars and let out a long breath. It only took a minute for her too quickly realize that someone was near. She sat up and took out her staff. She was quite good just using the staff as a weapon. But she could also turn it into a sai or sword. She wasn't as skilled as some but she could hold her own.
She had proven this to many before, even Shin. She smiled at the memory of when during one of her practices he offered to spare with her. His face when she was able to knock the wind out of him before he had time to react was rememberable.
The presence had a familiarity to it. She knew whoever it was very close to her.
"You should not be out," the voice was unmistakable.
"I am sorry my lord," she managed to say before Shin appeared.
She got out of her fighting stance and just stood there.
He couldn't of been prepared for what happened to him. Seeing her emerge was enough to make his blood boil, with anger and passion. Even in the unbefiting outfit she looked so beautiful. When she took up her fighting stance the passion in her eyes and the way she held herself made him stop in wonder. She had sensed his presence very quickly, but he could see that she was ready to fight whomever it was. The caring soft lady was incased in a rough warrior shell, he knew he had stepped in on her own time. He could not help but love both sides of her though...warrior and lady.
Hs announcement only caused her to incase herself in silence.
"You know it can be dangerous to go out by yourself do you not? Without someone to be with you and if anything should of happened..."
"I am sorry my lord it shall not happen again."
"Why have you come out here in the dead of night with your staff in hand?"
Her only response was to kneel where she had stood and say. "I'm sorry lord it will not happen again..."
Shin was getting angry at this parrot response she could tell. She kept her head down and let him approach her. By leaving the palace without guards or attendants was looked down upon, but tonight she had no use for either attendants or guards.
"That did not answer my question Racel!"
"I do not know my lord.. I was just pulled by my element tonight."
"What is wrong?"
"Nothing is worn my lord...I ask for you forgiveness."
"What you did is not done by ladies of your status.."
She bowed her head at this comment, she knew it would do no good to speak up, it would just get her into more trouble.
"I know my lord. I again ask for your forgiveness."
"Come now with me. We shall go back to the palace," he held out his hand.
She got up though without his assistance and gathered her boots and stood waiting for him to lead. He was perturbed that she did not take his hand but at least she obeyed his command.
When they got to the palace the servants that were up were surprised to see the Lord up at this hour, but were more surprised to see the Lady Racel in the cloths she wore and that they were drenched right through.
When Racel and Shin entered the main living area Shin locked the doors while Racel went back to kneel.
"I want to know why you went out," in a hard tone. Shin could get angry just like others, but his way of it made him look taller and forceful. She hated to see him this way.
"As I said before I went out for no reason....please forgive me."
"Why do you play this game with me?!" He had reached his patience limit. He hated it when she couldn't or more wouldn't confide in him. She just turned her eyes down and bowed lower, he wanted her to talk to him not turn away. After asking again and with no reply he forced her to stand up and look at him.
"Now," trying in calm his voice, "Please Racel please what is it?"
"My lord please.. I must not rise until you have forgiven me."
"I have nothing to forgive you for."
"Then why do you take this tone?" She was trying to keep her voice and anger down.
"You are hiding from me.. you must tell me."
"I tried to earlier but you did not believe me!" She had come to her wits end also playing this game of formality.
"What!" Shin surprised both by answer and tone.
"I wanted to tell everyone that danger is coming but you would not let me! you do not trust me or my dreams!" For the first time she caught herself actually saying this, and could feel the cold on her body.
"I do trust you... but what you said was..." Shin was taken back and disoriented the had never really fought before. Racel had started shivering from the coldness of her cloths and fear, and anger.
"How can you say that?" Shin asked.
Racel just realized that she had just probably terminated everything between them by talking this way to him.
"Pleas Shin-sama why don't you trust me?"
"I do but your dreams are not real."
"They are to me! They are me as much as I am to myself."
"But nothing happened tonight..."
"Not tonight but it will happen I know it.."
"You don't know.."
"Yes I do! If you can't believe me then why even marry me?" she whispered.
"What does that mean?"
"I have no right to be here..."turning away from him.
"But I love you"
"But you don't trust me as I do you."
"I do what can I do to prove it?"
"Believe me just believe me."
Shin now just realizing that she must be freezing from the swim puts his cloak around her. She accepted it. She had turned inward again. "I'm sorry. Please I do believe you. Don't ever say you are going to leave. I love you."
"You deserve someone different. Some lady who knows how to obey her lord and make him happy."
"I don't want you to obey me, I want you to love me and I want us to be happy together."
"I'm happy when you are, but how can I be if I'm the reason for your unhappiness? I raise you to such anger. And I should not of raised my voice to my lord."
"I love you because of you. I want to be with you forever by my side with your temper. To rule, to live, to have children, and even to fight by my side."
"I would die for you."
"And me you. Please forgive me for not believing you earlier."
"And you me for my anger and voice raising and running out."
Shin's only answer was to kiss her.
"Over time you will be able to get rid of all your anger. I will help"
"Thankyou," she whispered.
Shin picked her up and carried her to her bedroom.
"Now rest. Tomorrow we will talk about what to do."
"About what?"
"We will discuss how to bring an audience up to Lady Nari and Seiji."
"No you are right. I need to have more proof."
"I'm trying to apologize. If you think there is danger towards our kingdoms it should be told and shared."
Her weak smile was a truce called on both ends of their first fight. Which Shin always remembered as not going to bad. Shin kissed her, but the kiss did not stop. Through the kiss they were apologizing for any wrongs against eachother.
Shin always thought she was beautiful before, but now with on both her lips and body and still having the image of his love walking from the sea looking so beautiful, his passion rose.
She didn't want this to end. When he was there she knew the dreams would not come. She wanted him to stay.
"Shin... stay with me tonight."
Shin trying to remain calm and himself a gentleman, "I should not, we are not yet married."
"Please Shin just hold me tonight, please if you are here the dreams will not come to me for they are scared of you. Please don't leave me."
She started to cry. He couldn't stand to see her cry. She never cried even in pain or for the slightest discomfort. She cried when she was feeling helpless and scared. He wanted to prevent her from feeling that.
"Don't cry"
"I'm scared... Shin.. I've seen death in my dreams...I don't want you to leave me."
"I won't ...I promise"
"Then stay please!" her plea was too much for him.
He nodded in agreement. Part of him wanted to stay anyway.
She was restless mostly in his arms. He hummed in her ear a soft lullaby that had been passed down from generation to generation into her ear. There was nothing sexual about the way they held eachother and none was expected. Only closeness needed on by both parties side and both granting the other's wish. She fell asleep with her head next to his heart.
His arms encircled her, with her bare skin smooth and white under the loose night gown that was somewhat revealing. Her hair still in disarray from the swim covered the lovely face.
He brushed aside a couple of strands only to trace her whole face with his index finger and to enjoy her warm breath on his skin. Even through his shirt he could feel her breath.
He was worried. If what her dreams showed her were true and were to come then there will be hardtimes coming. And would death. He sighed. No matter what he promised her that night while she slept.
"I will find you in any world and will always love you. Your passion for life and love is astounding and has taught me so much. Inside you are so beautiful you only need to let it out more. I swear I will never leave you, I will protect you from all things in this plane and others, in your dreams in this world. I will find you again if I should die for I will always be in your heart, and never forget my love for I will not forget yours. My true love and destiny we will never be separated."
He kissed her sleeping form and held her close.
Soon after both were lost in dreams, and that night Racel didn't have any nightmares.
