Disclaimer: Don't own them, I just wish I could.

A/N: Carby fans, this ain't for you. If you're going to flame solely because it's anti-carby, well, you've been warned.

What did I ever see in you, I never really saw much, romantically. You were one of my best friends, you were someone who I could trust, someone who I could talk to, you were always there for me, I can't believe I was stupid enough to ruin all of that. but now you're hurting, and I'm happy, and you know what, I don't really feel all that bad. Being out there helped me realize that even though you and I got along so well, and that I liked you, we just weren't mean to be romantically, we just weren't right for each other.

I was a fool to think that we could have been more than just friends, but now I know that we couldn't be, now I know that you and I are just too different. They say that opposites attract, but not people who are so different. We may have attracted, but we didn't stick together for long. We were just not meant to be, were we even happy when we were together? All we did was wonder if we really were right for each other, and now I know that we're not.

I know that I once said that I spent every hour of the day thinking about you, but twenty three hours of that was me wondering if we were right for each other. Even if I did spend all day thinking about you, it wasn't in a good way, it wasn't in a way I would have liked to. I wish I could say that I spent every waking moment thinking about you, and thinking about how great we are, or rather, how great we were, but I never could, I never really loved you as much as I thought I did.

I'm happy now though, I'm in love, and she loves me in a way you never showed that you could love me. I'm not saying that you didn't love me, but you never really showed it, Kem, she loves me, and she's not afraid of showing it, she makes her feelings known to me. With you, things were always a guessing game, I never could figure out what you were feeling, what you wanted, and all that was apt to change so quickly, you were so volatile.

I don't know what made me want to break up the wonderful friendship that we had, you were my best friend, and I was yours, we got on so well, we were always there for each other, it's what friends are for, aren't they? But instead I was a fool, I was too naieve, I thought that we could still be friends even if we moved past the friendship line, I thought that we could be friends with more than just benefits, but I was wrong.

I thought it was possible to love someone and be their friend, and while I'm sure it is, it just didn't work for us, we couldn't be both friends and lovers, with us, it was one or the other, and I overstepped those bounds. I don't know what ever possessed me to think that I fell for you, but I did, but now I realize that what I felt for you was just a glimmer of what I feel for Kem. I don't know what I ever saw in you to make me think we could be more than just friends, but it's not the thing I see in her. I see something more in her than I ever did in you.