She sat, hands on her ever growing belly, and thought. Thought about her life, when did it get so complicated? It used to be so simple, get up, work, go home, sleep and then do it all again. Then, Joseph. He was just a pawn in her little game, a way of furthering a well earned career. She'd hurt people before, burned those at Charing Cross just to get ahead. So why was he so different? Why did she fall in love? She'd hurt herself, lost any chance of a happy life with him, been oh so selfish. Thinking if she didn't have him then no one could. So she had told herself, promised even, that she wouldnt fall again. Love was painful and she didn't have the time for it. Then he came along. A wee nursie, and ruined her promises. Again, he claimed her heart and she destroyed his. Pressed the self destruct button, time and time again, although all she really wanted was roses over the door, same as he did. She had so many chances yet destroyed every single one, because really, she didn't know how to deal with love. This was one of the few times she had been given it. If she told him, he'd understand but look doan on her in pity forever. If she didn't, he'd never have her back. And what if she was like her mother, cold and unlocking. Where would he be, could he rescue her, help her. She needed him, couldn't face her impending motherhood on her own. She had to tell him, was going to tell him. For once she was going to be honest. Because she, Jac Naylor, was deeply and completely, head over heels in love with Jonny Maconie.

The redhead smiled to herself. Finally, she had worked it out. Life with him was simple and easy.