Disclaimer: I do not own Remington Steele or any of its characters.

The Ballad of Laura Holt

by Tanya Reed

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Why is it that every man

Wants to hurt me just as much as he can?

There have been two men

That I've loved in my life--

That is, before him

One was a strong man, a big man, a kind man

I remember being with him

Going to circuses, sitting in an old easy chair

Every minute was precious

He was my father

The other was Wilson--

He was a banker

Serious and predictable

He couldn't stand my wild ways

Wait--in the end, I guess he wasn't so predictable

Because I never saw him leaving me

Yes, both of them left me when I needed them most

I was left alone

My mother, she pushes

Marriage and children she cries

It's easy in theory, but how do I find someone

When it seems that no man can love me

I've toned down my wild ways

I'm all business and I'm just fine alone

At least that's what I tell myself

Even on those nights when I feel

This hole inside of me

And this Laura trying to break free

I'm a detective you know

An unusual job for a woman

That's why I invented him

Well, with the help of Berniece and Murphy, of course

That's how all this started--

With a typewriter and a football team

He came into my life nameless

Putting on names like other people put on clothes

He took my name and made it his

So smoothly, so easily

I didn't understand what it would do to me

Blue, blue eyes, and coal black hair

Tall and lean and beautiful

His smile would make angels sing

His voice could melt the Ice Queen

That's what walked into my life

How was I expected to say no

But I'm so scared

I think I love him

I know I need him

How can I keep on fighting?

All I want is a chance to...

No, Laura, forget it

Remington Steele is just another name to him

But I wish...

Help me, I don't think I can go on this way

Now Murphy and Berniece are gone

And the two of us work so closely together

Every day I want to throw my arms around him and beg him to stay

Every day I want to fall to my knees and beg him to just go away

I can't hold out much longer

I almost gave in today

The look in his eyes

The invitation in his voice

It's so persuasive

But I'm so scare

Why am I so scared?