I wake up and feel dizzy. It takes me a second to realize that I'm really single. I start to wonder when it all went horribly wrong. Was it Sav's fault for telling me about his stupid arranged marriage? Or was it my fault for pushing him to tell his family about me? Whatever. It's all over now and there's nothing I can do about it. When I got up to go get ready for another long day at Degrassi High, I see a magazine with two girls. One is in a little frilly pink dress and the other is in a leather jacket and skinny jeans. I start to think. Have I been more like the frilly girl or the leather one? And which one do I like more? Maybe I need to make change...
"Anya? Are you awake?" says a voice from behind the door.
" And if I was still asleep, how exactly did you expect me to answer that?" I answer jokingly.
" Oh honey. I know you're still feeling bad from the split." She stops and picks up the magazine I was looking at. " You know, I don't know why you read these things. They're full of nothing but fake advice."
I grab the magazine from her hand and walk into the bathroom. Hey, if I'm gonna start living, I might as well do it now. After showering and brushing my teeth, I look into my closet. I pick out a tank top and jean shorts. I take my old necklace that has a bullet pendant and put it on. That should be "edgy" enough. For my hair I just put it in a messy bun. After kissing my parents bye, I walk out the door and go on my way to school. I can't help but think that there's something missing now that Sav doesn't walk me to school anymore. i use my rage to decide not to go to school today. Instead I hang at The Dot, where Spinner tries way too hard to convince me to go back. I tell him that if I'm gonna have a new lifestyle, that I need to make some changes.
"Well, looks like we have a little jailbird!" Holly J walks in for her lunch shift. "Everyone's been wondering where you were all day. Should I wonder if the world is ending? Little Miss Perfect would never miss a day of classes to sip coffee and bottled water all day."
"Skip it Holly J! I have enough problems without you going on about stuff that doesn't matter anymore so just shut up about it and do your job!" I snap.
"It's not my fault that when people don't want you anymore that you take it out on everyone else. Take a hint, Anya! You're just not likable." She shrugs and walks into the bathroom. I stand up and start walking towards the bathroom but Spinner stops me halfway.
"Look Anya, I don't wanna make a scene in front of the customers but I can't let you in that bathroom." he says to me.
"Why not? I just saw a roach run in there and I wanna go squash it." I say back.
"I know exactly what you wanna do, and that's not it. I'm not gonna clean any blood off the bathroom walls, so how about you wait until you're ready to go back to school to do that stuff." he mutters to me.
I give him the dirtiest look possible, grab my stuff and leave without paying. I walk down to the back door and go in. The bathroom is right around the corner. I walk in and see Holly J. at the sink washing her hands.
"Make sure you get all the diseases out. In fact, you might wanna wash your face and get the herpes." I say to her, then walk toward the stalls. She walks over and pushes me into the stall door.
"Anya, why don't you just stop? Everything you do ends in a mess! Why don't we go back to the Freedom Fast?" says Holly J.
"That only got messed up because of your stupid insecurities! Go get a psychiatrist because I think you're CRAZY." I shove her back against the wall. There we are wrestling when I guess Spinner heard something coming from the bathroom,but he rushes in and holds us apart from each other.
"Let me go!" I scream. " You shouldn't even be in the girls' bathroom!" I push him back and call him a pervert while I leave. I go home and flop on my bed, satisfied. I like this new way of living. No rules, no structure. I might keep doing this...
