Today was a productive day...
Anyways, just so you guys all know this fic is my first Dangan Ronpa fic (splee!) and also happens to be part of the 'Sing for Me' series that I'm writing. It's a multi-fandom, multi-pairing series, with all the stories based on a song. You'll find out which later :)
Disclaimer: nope. I wish.
Note: Alternately, this fic is called "Boku no Subete, Kimi no e Subete"
My Everything, All of it to You
My everything, all of it, to you It's been so many years since then
So now to you
Some people don't believe in love at first sight. But at seven years old, Souda falls, and falls hard the second he lays his eyes on her.
She stands shyly-but confidently-to the side, her eyes scanning the playground, like she's looking for someone approachable to play with. At least, that's what Souda figures. Tinkering with the ring puzzle he had gotten as a present for his birthday, he watches her stand by herself. From the top of the monkey bars, he's got a pretty good angle. She's wearing a light green skirt and pale blue short sleeved shirt. Her light blonde hair is held back with a headband, and is pulled into a neat side pony tail. Almost as if she can tell he's staring at her, she looks up at him, and smiles.
And Souda almost falls off the monkey bars. Almost.
Catching himself, he self-consciously adjusts his glasses, and pulls his beanie over his dark hair that he's now all too aware is insanely disheveled. Glancing at her from the corner of his eyes, he blushes as he sees her small grin. Scowling, he sees her grin turn into a giggle, and he can't help but feel extremely smug for some reason.
She starts walking towards him, and he tries to swing down from his perch in the coolest way that he can. But karma hates him, and somehow the back of his overalls get stuck on the bars, and he ends up getting stuck handing upside down from the back of his clothes.
Letting out a yelp of surprise he flails around for a second, before suddenly becoming unstuck, and crashing to the ground. As he's falling he hears a cry of surprise, and he hits the sand a split second after.
Groaning, (and doing his best not to burst into tears) he looks forwards, only to see a pair of small pink shoes in front of him. Embarrassment creeping up into his throat, he looks upwards and sees the pretty girl's shocked expression.
With a cry of something he doesn't understand, she falls onto her knees, and reaches out to help him. Propping himself up on one arm, he accepts her hand and slowly sits up. "Eto…Hi." He says.
As if she's shocked at his casual greeting, her eyes widen, before she gives him the same smile that caused him to almost fall off the monkey bars the first time. "Hi." She says. Souda notices that she has a slight accent.
"My name's Souda. Souda Kazuichi."
"My name's Sonia. Sonia Nevermind."
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"Your highness." He greets her with a low bow and a smirk.
Rolling her light green eyes, she yanks his much loved, (read: flayed and holey) beanie off and sprints off. Yelling in indignation as his hair suddenly flops into his eyes, he stands up and sprints off after her. Running through the park, he dodges all the smaller kids as he follows her to the woods where they normally hang out since they've graduated elementary school.
It's been three years since they first met, but Souda feels like he's known her forever. He knows how much she hates being treated formally just because she's a princess, (when he found out a year after they first met, he nearly had a heart attack. And it took her months to get him to treat her normally) and how much she loves stealing his beanie, just to make him mad.
Naturally, he will occasionally do the former, while letting the latter happen as her revenge.
His sprint slows down to a jog, that slows even more to a walk. Crossing his arms, he sulks as he walks, kicking the fallen leaves. It's her birthday today, and Souda knows what that also means-she's going back to Novoselic in a couple hours. Apparently she had to go back because she was only supposed to be abroad temporarily, and had to finish middle school in her home country. She had told him that she'd probably be coming back for high school, but that seemed like a forever away. Stuffing his hands in his sweater, his fingers brush against his goodbye present he had made for her, and he blushes.
"Wow, some one's slow."
Looking up into the trees, he grins as he sees Sonia perched daintily with her legs crossed on one of the branches. Her fingers tuck a stray strand of hair behind her ear, and Souda is convinced that no one could ever be as pretty as she looks right now. Putting on a scowl, he lifts himself up into the tree as well.
Clambering up beside her, he straightens his sweater with mock formality. "Sorry for taking my sweet time. Can I have my beanie back?" he drawls, leaning against the tree's trunk.
Shaking her head mischievously, she grins shyly, "Nope." Souda opens his mouth in protest, but from inside her jacket, she pulls out a brand new beanie, and pulls over his hair onto his head.
Laughing in disbelief, he runs his hands over it in awe. "Oh man, seriously?! Sonia, you're the best!" He's never wanted to hug someone as much as he wants to hug her right now.
Sonia beams at him happily, her legs swinging lazily in the air. "I knew that you might need a new one, is all. And you know, it's something to remember me by."
Blushing furiously as he remembers his own present, he reaches for it in his sweater. "I-what makes you think I'd forget you, aho." He grumbles as gruffly as possible as he shoves his hand clutching her gift into her face.
Blinking in surprise, Sonia inspects the piece of handmade jewelry with curiosity. "Wow, Souda, this is amazing." She says. Several gears, most of them from watches or wind-up toys that he had happened upon hang from a chord of string. He managed to get them to fit together, and when one gear was turned, the rest would as well.
"Something to remember me by." He mutters, pulling his new beanie farther down.
Suddenly, Sonia leans on his shoulder and tilting her head up to look at him. "Thanks Souda, I love it." She says, giving him the smile.
And he almost falls off the branch. Almost.
"N-no problem." He mutters, not moving, just in case something that he does makes her back away.
"Sonia…I like….I'm gonna miss you."
"Mm. I'll miss you too."
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"Yo, Kazuichi. Have you seen the new chick?"
Rolling himself out from under the car he's currently working on, he wipes his greasy hands on a rag, before sticking it into his back pocket. Returning his trusty wrench to the workbench, he straightens his beanie. "Course I saw her Leon, she was with me helping to fix your car." He says sarcastically.
The red head snorts, walking into the auto shop work room from the school side enterance. "Well you are one lucky bastard, because she's in your class and she is hot."
Souda leans against the workbench, and gives Leon a toothy grin, his sharpened teeth making his smile more predatory than teasing. "Tell me more."
The baseball prodigy leans against the side of his car, and begins listing off points on his fingers. "Well she's blonde, and when I say blonde, I mean blonde. Goes all the way down to her knees. Light green eyes, she's wearing a dress, and damn, it makes her legs look like they go on forever."
Laughing, Souda snickers, "Hey hey, and here I thought you like Maizono."
Leon snorts, and based on the goofy smile that lights up his face, it's obvious how the red head feels about the idol. "Doesn't mean I can appreciate from afar, right?"
Stretching his sore arms, he gestures for Leon to continue. "Well, tell me more. Hot and blonde? Sounds like my kind of girl." He says casually, quietly reminded of a certain girl from his childhood.
"Not that much to say really. I just saw her today as I was coming in. Apparently she's finishing high school here. Something about her wanting to study here for all three years, but because the middle schools work differently in her country it got all messed up." Leon continues, oblivious to Souda's slowly tensing body, "And get this-apparently she's royalty of her country. Some small one in Europe-hey, where are you going?!" Leon shouts, as Souda suddenly sprints past him into the school.
"No way." Souda says to himself, dodging people left and right as he tries to find the new girl Leon was talking about. "No way, no way."
Bursting into his class room and skidding to a stop, he pants as he tries to regain his breath. Ignoring the bewildered stares, his eyes land on the back section of the room where a blonde girl wearing a green dress with white sleeves is sitting.
"Holy crap, you are hot."
Her eyes widen and Souda's mouth drops open in horror as the rest of his classmate that were already in the room stare at him in shock. There's a tense silence, and Souda is ready to jump out the window because holy crap he's got to be the biggest idiot ever. "Excuse me?" She says softly, her eyes narrowing dangerously.
Waving his hands frantically in front of him, he tries to fight the embarrassed blush that rises in his face. "No, wait, sorry, that came out wrong. Not that I don't think that you're not hot, but that was probably weird, and oh kami, I'm babbling, Sonia, Kami, what is a vocal filter?" He babbles, and her eyes widen when she hears him call her name.
"How'd you…wait, Souda?" She gasps, recognition dawning on her face.
Smiling sheepishly, he scratches the back of his neck. "Hi." He says like a complete dork, not trusting his voice.
Blinking in surprise she gestures for him to sit down beside her, and he meekly obeys. There's a bewildered and confused look on her face as she silently studies him for a few seconds. "You look…so different."
Biting his lip, he shrugs. Since she had left, he had grown his hair out down to his shoulders, and no longer used his old glasses. When he had first entered high school, he tried dying his black hair a vibrant red, but it somehow ended up being hot pink instead, and it just stuck. That year, he also decided to file his teeth into points. Why? Because he could. He's impulsive like that.
"What about you? How've you been? How's Novoselic? Wanna go out for lunch?" The last bit slips out unintentionally, and Souda once again opens his mouth in horror. "Like, I mean, like-"
And then Sonia bursts out laughing in a way he hasn't heard, and has missed so much. Then she smiles at him.
And he almost falls out of his chair. Almost.
He does some sort of rocking motion, and grins back weakly.
"I'd really like that." She says, patting his arm.
"Awesome! I'll pick you up at lunch?"
"We're in the same class silly."
"Ehehehe, yeah, um. I'm going to shut up."
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It's only been a couple years since they graduated high school, and Souda is already a proud owner of his own auto shop. It's small, and he doesn't exactly get a lot of business, but he's happy. Sonia had decided to stay in Japan for a few more years, and study at the University of Tokyo. It happens to only be a half hour walk from his shop, meaning that he gets to see Sonia on an almost daily basis. Making Souda, one very happy person.
"Souda-kun?"
"Yo Souda!"
Hearing the front door of his shop open, Souda grins as he sees the pair that walk in. "Leon! Maizono-chan!" He says, walking around his front desk to high five one of his closest friends, and hug his closest friend's soon to be wife.
Laughing, Maizono kisses his cheek. "Haven't I told you to call me 'Sayaka' enough times for you to get it? How thick is that head of yours." She teases.
Grinning sheepishly, he turns to Leon. "So what brings you two here? Don't tell me that you did something to your car again."
Leon rolls his eyes, and takes a swing at Souda, who dances out of the way. "We were going to ask if you wanted to come with us to eat out with everyone else, but that's okay. You don't have to come, even though we did invite Sonia."
The second that the last words are out of his mouth, Leon smirks smugly to himself as he and his fiancée are shooed out of the shop, and Souda closes up behind them.
"You sure you aren't going to go and change first?" Maizono asks, giving his mildly dirty yellow jumpsuit a once over.
"Nah, it's fine, let's go!" Souda says with a wave of his hand, as he bounds forwards.
When they get to the club, Souda realizes that it was a very bad idea to wear his jumpsuit. He is 95% sure he looks like an idiot. But when he sees her, he doesn't give a damn, and he's all smiles. When she sees him, again-like always-she gives him the smile.
And Souda almost trips over a table and falls onto his face. Almost.
Sliding into the seat beside her, he smiles back at her. "Hey Sonia, what's up?"
She shrugs, and waves a hand dismissively, "Alright, same old thing. How's the shop?"
Souda eagerly starts chattering about his daily life, and outwardly he's his typical energetic self. But inwardly, he's worried that their relationship is changing. They were side by side, almost like the way they were back when they were in elementary school, but the things that he knew about her weren't the same as before. It's been years since they first met, they've both changed, but his feelings for her have stayed the same. Sure they've taken a couple of detours, (some of them causing them to be half around the world from each other) but still. He likes her. As in, likes her. Somehow, at some point, she became his everything.
But he's not sure if he's ready to tell her.
For one reason or another, Souda's suddenly hyper aware of his surroundings, and down the table, he notices someone giving them a look that he doesn't like. The stare is coming from a man wearing a dark jacket and a purple scarf wrapped around his neck. To be honest, Souda has no idea how the hell he can survive in that, considering how hot it is inside the club. But he's in his work clothes, so it's not like he can talk. Souda also notices with a jolt, that his eyes are two different colours.
Sonia's eyebrows knit together, as she follows his eye line to see what exactly he is staring at. "Why are you glaring at Gundam-san?" She asks.
Shaking his head, Souda shrugs, "He looked familiar." He says simply. Which isn't a total lie. He does look oddly familiar.
Sonia's face lights up, and she nods. "Mm. Probably because he went to high school with us. He mostly hung out alone though…But he's taking a veterinary course at another university. You should see his pet hamsters, they're the most adorable things you'll ever see." She talks happily.
"Not as adorable as you." Souda says without thinking.
Sonia gives him a weird look before laughing. "Thanks, Souda. But They're pretty tough competition. Oh! And Gundam-san's into the occult too! It's amazing." She sighs, and waves her hand at the man in question. His glare seems to deepen, but he waves stiffly back, before returning his attention to the arm wrestle happening beside him between a man with a prosthetic arm, and a –ahem- well-endowed woman with unruly chestnut hair.
For some reason, Souda doesn't like how Sonia seems to know everything about this 'Gundam-san' as Sonia calls him. But he doesn't say anything.
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To: Sonia
From: Souda
Hey Sonia, what's up? You doing anything tonight?
To: Souda
From: Sonia
Nothing in particular. Why?
To: Sonia
From: Souda
Meet me in the woods behind the park. The one from when we were still in middle school.
To: Souda
From: Sonia
Sure, right now? What's going on Souda?
To: Sonia
From: Souda
Felt like hanging out. It's been months since we've last hung out. I'll be waiting for you. See you soon?
To: Souda
From: Sonia
Alright. I'll see you in a few
Souda doesn't like rehearsing for anything. Mostly because more often than not, he'll say or do something on impulse that immediately makes him forget what he originally planned to do, or just makes him blank out. But this is important, so he has to at least try.
"Souda? Souda, are you here?"
"Sonia-san!" He exclaims, turning to see where he heard her voice, but ends up almost falling out of the tree.
Hearing laughter from below him, he looks down to see her. She's wearing a black coat that looks like it's way too big for her. Her hair is down and in the moonlight shines. Her white boots rise to her knees, revealing her long stockings that stop just before they become level with her skirt. He stares like that moronically for a full minute before she gives him that god damn amazing smile.
And Souda actually falls out of the tree. Actually.
Letting out a yelp of surprise he flails around for a second, before suddenly losing his grip completely, and comes crashing to the ground. As he's falling he hears a cry of surprise, and he hits the ground a split second after.
Groaning, (and doing his best not to look any lamer than he already does) he looks forwards, only to see a pair of white boots in front of him. Embarrassment creeping up into his throat, he looks upwards and sees Sonia's shocked expression.
With a cry, she falls onto her knees, and reaches out to help him. Propping himself up on one arm, he rolls onto his back as she sits down beside him hesitantly. "Eto…Hi." He says.
As if she's shocked at his casual greeting, her eyes widen, before she gives him an exasperated smile. "Hi." She says, "Are you okay?"
Grunting, he shrugs, trying his best not to rub at his ribs. "I'll live." He says, giving her a toothy smile.
Sonia lets out a sound that's somewhere between a sigh and laugh as she lays down beside him. "You're an idiot."
"Thanks."
He winces as she punches his shoulder. The two of them stay like that silently for a few minutes, just staring up at the night sky. It really has been ages since they spent time together like this. With his auto shop's business expanding, and her continuing her studies with the goal of becoming a doctor, spending time together had become a luxury they didn't have as much time for.
After a while, Sonia finally asks, "So why did you want to hang out? And why did you fall out of the tree?"
Suddenly, Souda's mouth is dry as sandpaper, and his mind is blank. "It's late, but this is everything. This is everything, all of it to you." He says the first thing that comes to mind, as he sits up.
Sonia's eyebrows furrow, and she sits up as well. "Souda, what-?"
"And the reason why I fell out of the tree is because you're beautiful." He says, cutting her off. Reaching for her hand, and pulling her up along with him as he stands. "You've become more beautiful every single time I see you. And my heart beats faster every time. And I think you're amazing, and kind, and sweet, and funny, and down to earth, and I think you'll make an amazing doctor, and I know one day you'll be an even more amazing queen, and Sonia, please, don't look at me like you're crying, because I never want to see you cry, but if I ever have to I'll do everything in my power to help you feel better because I love you." He says in a rush, pulling out the ring he had made from his pocket.
Like the necklace he had made her when they were still kids, it's made of tiny gears he had found over the years. Again they're interlocking, and when the band is turned, the gears spin as well. Seeing her eyes widen in utter shock, she claps her hands over her mouth, and the tears that he though he only imagined spill from her eyes. "I-it's just a gift." He stammers awkwardly, blushing all the way up to his ears. "I mean, it's not like I'm propo-" Souda's mind completely blanks when he sees something glittering on one of the fingers of her left hand.
"I'm really flattered Souda, I really am…" She says softly, her voice hitching, as she offer him the smile, but it's weak, and it's twisted, and Souda realizes that that smile isn't actually the smile because the smile can only be shown to one person. And that person isn't him.
When he feels the dampness on his cheeks for the first time, he flinches in surprise, but doesn't move to wipe them away. Sonia lets out a shaky breath, steps forwards and kisses one of the tears away. With a tortured expression on her face, she steps back and slowly starts to back away.
"Gundam…?" he hears a voice that in no way sounds like his own whisper brokenly.
Nodding with a tiny smile on her face, Sonia tucks a loose strand of hair behind her ear. "Gundam proposed to me a couple days ago." She admits quietly. Giving him one last small smile, (it's more like a grimace) she runs down the trail and disappears into the night.
Souda doesn't move.
Omoi wo tsutaeta me no mae, nakigao no kimi ga iita
Mou osoiyo, zutto suki datta no ni
Kimi no yubi ni wa hikaru mono ga
boku no koi ga owari wo tsugeta
afureru kimi to no omoide namida de mae ga mienai
satte yuku kimi no sugata wo hiki tomeru koto mo dekinai mama
kougai dakega kienai mama
Song: Boku no Subete, Kimi no e Subete
Artist: Len Kagamine
This was so much fun to write, but at the same time, kinda made me die inside...