Hello me amigos. Jeremy Fisher here. Hubert unfortunately couldn't be with us today. And if he was he defiantly wouldn't allow me to post this fanfic. Mainly cause all we ever have posted in the past were crack fics, and this fic ruins our image. But what he doesn't know wont hurt me right? :D Ok, I always read fics about Edward leaving. But what if bella fell out of love with Edward? What would become of hmmmm?
Disclaimer: I don't own twilight. But if I did, renesmee would cease to exist.
I never thought my heart could break. But Bella saw to that. When I told her that I wanted her to take some time before deciding to live the rest of her life with a vampire, and look in other areas. A part of me wanted her to refuse. And I thought she would, I thought she would argue like she always did, and assure me of her love for me. But she didn't, and that is how she fell in love with a another man…. Pffft. Man. More like mutt. I couldn't believe it.
But it was my fault; I'm the one who told her to try new things. Bella was too fragile, too young to understand true pain. She hasn't seen the things I have seen. That is why we can never be. She has fallen in love with Jacob black, and all I can do is sit by the sidelines and watch over her. I contemplated on leaving; the pain of being near her and not being able to hold her was becoming unbearable. But there was a tiny part of me that had a sliver of hope that she would come back to me. And if that day ever came I knew I would agree. I am weak willed, maybe that is why she choose that dog over me.
I still watch over her every night, listening to her dream. Mumbling Jacobs name and words of love. All for him. Those words and affectionate phrases used to belong to me. But not anymore. Life without Bella seemed useless now. After all of these years I thought I had finally found someone I could be with, someone to love me the way I loved them. But I guess this is God's way of punishing me for my sins.
I guess I deserve it, I have killed many people. Innocent or not. I still killed them. That was another thing .I thought she would be able to understand. When I first told her, she said she didn't care. That she didn't believe was a monster. She said her love for me would never diminish. But after the James incident. I noticed her becoming more and more distant. I didn't blame her. Being with Jacob was safe, although he was a werewolf. He didn't thirst for her blood, and didn't fantasize about killing her. I really am a horrible creature.
I believed in Alice. She told me that Bella would make the decision best for me in the long run. What the hell did she mean by that? Her decision left me with a broken heart. Alice told me to have faith in her and her visions. But I've had enough. It's her visions and her advice that lead me to fall in love with Bella. And I want nothing more to do with her psychic abilities.
I've decided. I will watch over Bella, from a distance. Protecting her should that mutt ever phase and cause her any harm, all the while hoping for her to come back to me. And I will watch her grow old, and the day they put her into the ground, I will pay Aro a long overdue visit.
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