What I Wanted
I never wanted this, to leave you Rukia so soon, I never wanted to die like this, but I wouldn't want it any other way. I always knew though, I always had this feeling that the day I'd die it be for you and with you by my side. But I never thought I wouldn't be able to say my goodbyes. But I guess we all can't have what we want.
From the day I met you Rukia, you turned my life around, each day I died more and more until you came and gave me the power to protect the ones I hold dearest to my heart, the ones I love, just like you.
You gave me strength; no you were my strength, my will to go on living a life that I had abandoned oh so long ago when my mother died. It was you Rukia, who saved me, not me who saved you. My life would've been a living hell had I never met you, had you never come, I would've died so much earlier than this.
You say that these scars are your fault that, I would've been so much better off without you, you said I was stubborn and stupid, and yeah Rukia I may be all those things but you accepted me none the less, you didn't judge me by my hair color, but by who I am and who I've become because of you.
Don't blame yourself, my fate was sealed a long time ago, there was nothing you could do about it. I know it'll be hard for you in the future but you have to try, promise me Rukia, that you'll try not only for me but for yourself because I'll live on in you, the way Kaien does.
It would be wrong to ask you to wait for me, so I won't. Don't stop smiling Rukia it's really amazing the way you smile, so don't stop, heck I recommend you do it more, there's so much I want to say , but so little time to say it.
So in the end I guess all I can do is thank you so..
Thank you Rukia for everything you've done for me. Everything you've helped me become. You made the rain stop in my heart and that's all that matters. You asked me one last question "What did you want in life Ichigo?" It took me a while to get the strength to say my last words but I just thought you should know that...All I really wanted in life Rukia was to love you.