(A/N: I was upset again today, thanks to someone I am trying and failing to forget. Anyways, the good thing is, this angsty drabble of about 500 words came out of it XD Enjoy! BTW snap means next part. Formatting hadn't been working lately, stars are not appearing. Is it just me or is it happening to you guys too?)
Disclaimer: if I owned WOWP it would be an angst show. Trust me.
(Snap)
(From Justin's POV)
You are all right.
You are sure that you are all right.
It is this world around you that isn't.
Everyone else around you is not all right.
And that is the only reason why you feel-
Empty/defeated/shattered.
(Snap)
You are smiling.
You are smiling for others.
Because they are smiling at you.
You know they are not smiling at your misery.
They are smiling simply because they are happy.
But you just see frames of colors, fancy dresses, plastic chairs and empty hallways.
(Snap)
There's this piece of meat stuck in your teeth and you are trying to get rid of it for a long time.
(Snap)
Words are floating in the air.
Laughter is echoing in the halls.
You join in the laughter and the words.
Because you are happy.
You are forcefully happy.
(Snap)
The first thing you see when you enter the gate is her face. She isn't exactly looking beautiful (Blue isn't really her color, she looks better in red), but you can't tear your eyes away.
You have to walk past her. And you have no idea how you will manage to pull off such a courageous task.
Run. That's your first instinct.
Hide. That'll never work.
Walk. You have to walk past her.
You have to prove you are all right.
You have to prove you are happy.
Walk. You have to walk.
And when your back is turned against her and you have walked past her, you feel empty/defeated/shattered again.
(Snap)
You do not like chewing gums. After a while the sweetness is gone and it simply feels like rubber.
(Snap)
No emotion. Nothing at all. You are all right.
There's your cell phone in your hand and you are showing pictures of your favorite celebrity couple to your friend.
Distractions. You are distracting yourself. And it is working.
…until you see someone else with her.
And you know this is going on way too long. You know this must end.
You look away.
You walk away.
You run away.
…from sin. Forbidden. Wrong.
(Snap)
You are carefully avoiding eye contact.
Because… because….
You are not sure why.
Or maybe you are but you are lying to yourself.
Again.
Your eyes meet hers for a split second.
And the world ends.
Apocalypse.
Rain. Storm. Hail. Thunder.
It is useless running away.
(Snap)
That old stain in your shirt is still there. You still can't wash it away.
(Snap)
You need to cry.
But the tears are not coming.
You do not feel like crying.
You just want to sit motionless in your bed for hours on end.
Or get up and destroy everything in your room.
Apocalypse.
The end.
(Snap)
You are wearing those old small tight shows again and it hurts, and you wonder if it's really time to change it and move on.
(Snap)
You did not read her eyes. You looked away. But she was looking at you- you saw that much.
And you know that CD is stuck in the same place again.
Those old tight shoes are still in your feet.
That tasteless chewing gum in still in your mouth.
That old stain in your shirt is still prominent.
That piece of meat is still stuck in your teeth….
(A/N: that's it. I'm done :P review please?)