This is my frst fanfiction so bear with me please!!!

Dear Edward,

If you are reading this then I have ran away. Yeah, I know, stupid right? But i can't be in a house when my mom is never home and my dad (a.k.a. hobo) abusing me, like I have told you. I will be back but I just need to get away for awhile and think things through. I promise I am not leaving you and I will not do anything with anyone else. I would have text or called you but my dad grounded me for no freakin' reason and my phone is cut off. I'm sorry. I would have asked you to go with me but I know you wouldn't leave your family and you would have stopped me. tell my brothers, Jasper and Emmett, I said I am sorry for leaving them to face dad and tell them I love them. I love you so much and I am never going to get you out of my mind. I will send you letters, I promise. I also promise that I WILL come back. I just need time to think. I really do love you and it is killing me to leave but I....need to get away! I love you. Always have, always will.

Love,

Bella

As I read these words, tears fell. Again. It has been three years sense she sent me this letter, so why do I still cry about this? I keep telling myself I need to move on, but i just can't. Somewhere in my heart I just know she will come back. She never has broken a promise. Well not up until the letter. The first promise she has ever broken was when she promised to send me letters.

I have never loved anyone like I loved her. No not loved, love. She was my light to my earth. Before I meet her I thought when people said that it was the most stupidest thing I have ever heard. When I meet Bella, now I know what they ment. I missed her more then anything. I need her to make me happy.

When she left, I was in a deep depression. My family kept telling me, "she left, now get over her." But, I can tell my sisters where hurting also, because she was there best friend, too. She was basically already a sister to them. The thing is, I just can't. I have tryed and I couldn't do it. I will always love her and maybe, just maybe, she still loves me.

She doesn't, I thought, If she did then she wouldn't have left you. now stop thinking that nonsense.

"Eddie! Time to eat!" my mom yelled. I sighed, put the letter down, and went downstairs.

--------------------------------------------later that night-----------------------------------------------------

I sat in my bed, thinking about Bella. My Bella. A picture of her inplanted in my mind of the last time I saw her.

Flashback

I was in my room when I heard a knocking sounds at my window. I went over to it and opened it. I looked around and saw Bella.

"Edward, move back! I'm coming in." she told me. I backed away and she came up to the window (which I don't know how she did it sense I live on the second floor and there is nothing to hang on to. But, that's just Bella.)

"Eddie!" Bella yelled from the winndow, coming towards me.

"Bella! What are you doing here?" I asked. "Didn't you say you were grounded?"

"I snuck out. I wanted to see my wonderful boyfriend and my favorite besties." she answered.

"But wouldn't Charlie hurt you or something?" I asked.

"Ehh....I don't care about the hobo anymore. If he does hurt me I will call the police." she said.

"Okay, good. Now come here!" I said as I grabbed her waist and pulled her in for a kiss.

The kiss started as it usually did, passionate and welcoming, but then it changed. It was fierce and urgent.

I broke the kiss. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah. Why wouldn't I be?"

"Your lieing. Whats wrong?"

She looked down and sighed. "Edward..."

Alice walked into my room. "Bella! Your here! Come on, you need to see what I got!" Alice interupted. She grabbed her hand and towed her into her room.

End of flashback

As I remembered, I thought how that memory didn't fade or become blurry. It was still as clear as me seeing through a newly made mirror.

Again, I let tears fall down my face and cryed myself to sleep.