Kid has locked himself in his room again, he hasn't slept properly for weeks, getting a mere hour or two of sleep at night, three if he's lucky. Nothing makes sense to him anymore, his life, everything he does, it's just, it's all for nothing, he now understands, he understands, how Crona felt, the way Medusa treated him. He's sitting at the end of his head, his knees dragged into his chest and head resting on the headboard, he doesn't feel anything anymore, he just feels numb. He starts to cry, letting out silent sobs to himself and just letting everything out. God he was so worthless, he lost to the Kishin, he lost to Asura. He's such a worthless person, he is hopeless. the tears pouring out of his eyes making tear stains on his pyjamas, the black material becoming darker where they landed. Kid hears a knock on the door and it's hesitant, it's probably Patty or Liz again, they'd been trying to get him to go to the movies all together, they were trying to get Kid out of this state of mind.
"Go away, please." Kid replies putting his head between his legs and cries harder, he just wants to be left alone! Is that too much to ask for god dammit?!
"I'm not leaving until I get you out of this damn room Kid!" He hears someone stubbornly shout,
"GO AWAY BLACK STAR, I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE, WHY DO YOU THINK I'VE LOCKED MYSELF IN HERE?!" Kid wails, he doesn't want to be around anyone.
"KID IF YOU DO NOT COME OUR OF THIS ROOM I WILL KNOCK THE FUCKING DOOR DOWN! I MISS SEEING AT THE ACADEMY GOD DAMNIT, DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND, YOU'RE ACTIONS AFFECT OTHERS, I LIKE YOU GOD DAMNIT, I LIKE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE!"
"BLACK STAR JUST SHUT UP AND GET THE HELL AWAY FROM MY ROOM, I'M GOING TO PRETEND I DIDN'T HEAR THAT BECAUSE I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE, MY FAMILY IS FUCKED UP, I'M FUCKED UP, I'M A GRIM REAPER AND I'M WHAT?! ONLY FIFTEEN FOR GODS SAKE, SO JUST GO AWAY BLACK STAR, PLEASE, IT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD!" Kid shouts, tears now flowing down his face like a river, he hears something slump down against his door and a sigh,
"I'm not leaving you like this Kid, I love you, please just let me in and stop shutting others out!" Black Star says quietly,
"I'm sorry Black Star, but it looks like you'll be there for a while." Kid says quietly laying down on his bed, starting to fall back into his imagination and his illusions of a fake and happier reality, where people don't abandon each other and just where everything even if it is in the slightest bit or slightest way has changed and he's sucked into an alternate reality, and when he comes out, he doesn't know how he's going to feel, he'll probably try and sleep, but he knows it won't happen, but maybe..just this once..I think I might just read, like I always do, after all, Patty and Liz always make sure I have enough books so there should be plenty…Kid thinks to himself as he drags himself over to the bookcase on the other side of the room to grab a book and settle down for the night, it is quite late anyway…
Black Star is sitting against Kid's bedroom door, he never thought he'd admit his feelings like that, he just, he just really did hope that no one heard him, after all, they'd all think he'd gone soft. Everything he said though, those words that he'd chosen to use, they were the truth, but he didn't expect to say that word, the word love, it had just slipped off of his tongue.
"Ah fuck me." Black Star grumbles to himself and readjusts his sitting position so he's now more comfortable position, he's not leaving kid. Black Star hears a sharp grunt of pain and an audible thump as something falls on the floor, he doesn't hear Kid pick everything up, he can just hear kid walking around and getting into bed, Black Star can't help but wish that he was there, he was in that bloody room, taking care of Kid, but he needs to respect Kid's privacy, Kid needs to sort things out, it was like when he fought Kid for the second time, Tsubaki wouldn't let Soul stop him and Kid fighting, they both had to sort it out. He hears the door open and turns around to see Liz and Patty walking through the door with Maka, they see Black Star just sitting there in front of the door, leaning on the frame of it and just stare, surprise clouding their eyes when Patty breaks out in a smile and shouts,
"BLACK STARRRRR!" and laughs running up to him, Black Star just grunts and doesn't move to get up and greet the others, Maka is the first to recover out of her and Liz,
"Um, Black Star, what are you doing here? Did you leave Tsubaki at your place?" Maka questions,
"None of your business and yes I did leave Tsubaki, but she said, she'd be fine." Black Star says calm and collectively, he can't let them know about his feelings, not yet.
Kid looks up at the ceiling above his bed, he was trying to sleep but he just couldn't there was so much on his mind, so much he was thinking about, it wasn't natural. Apparently you can die from lack of sleep as well, is that true? Before he can go into the depths of his own mind any more, he feels unconsciousness tugging at his brain and darkness fringing the edges of his eyes, sleep was a luxury he couldn't afford, sleep just wasted precious time, life is precious and you only get one….
"Hey Kid, I know your awake, I haven't seen you in forever but I can tell you haven't been keeping yourself healthy lately, please at least try to sleep, for me. Good night kid." He hears Black Star say and somewhere in the back of his mind, he knows that this is the side of Black Star that no one ever sees, the quiet, calm and collected side. It was weird how that part was always brought out around Kid.
Kid wakes up, floating, he's in some sort of vortex and everything around him is frozen in time, Maka and Soul, Patty and Liz, Black Star.
"W-where's Tsubaki?" He asks himself quietly, Black Star wouldn't be caught dead without Tsubaki around, Tsubaki was his weapon and one of his best friends, where would she be then? Before Kid can question anything else he feels an immense amount of pain coming from his forehead and feels a warm liquid trickle down his face, he notices as it passes his eyes that it's a crimson colour, the metallic smell made him realise that it was indeed blood, Kid tries to leave the vortex he's in, he needs Liz and Patty, he tries to run out of the vortex surrounding him but he can't get out and everything's flashing now, like strobe lights, and then he sees it, in the corner of his eye, Tsubaki. He starts running towards her but she then smiles and disappears into thin air, and then Black Star starts moving, but his body not controlled by him, but by Tsubaki, his weapon. Kid doesn't know what to do now, what does he do, he can't help Black Star, the only way he could was if he killed Tsubaki and Tsubaki is inside Black Star and controlling his body.
Kid jolts out of bed and looks at his hands and notices they are shaking he can just see the outline of everything in the darkness surrounding his room, he notices it's still dark outside and realises that it is probably around one or two in the morning, Kid hears snoring coming from outside his door and realises it's Black Star. Kid starts talking to himself and decides that he needs to at least let someone in, but he can't. Not yet.
"You need to focus, you need to take control of your own life, you need to stop pitying yourself, you need to get the fuck up and get better." Kid chants to himself as he walks towards the door then starts walking towards his bed again, it annoyed him, the mess his room was in, but he could just never be bothered to clean it up with what's been happening the past couple of weeks, but if he did clean up it wouldn't take long, everything could slowly start turning back to normal, the only thing that was actually messy though was the books he'd dropped on the floor earlier after tripping over his carpet, he picks them up and puts them in their respective place on the bookshelf and makes sure everything is perfect, alined and symmetrical, and nods his head in content and then walks to his door and opens it, careful as to not wake Black Star, he picks Black Star up out of his door frame and carries him into the large double bed, Kid then closes the door and makes sure it's locked, he can only tell Black Star, Black Star's the only person the only person who'll understand what he's going through.
Kid smiles and tries to sit up, the time now looks closer to seven in the morning they were late, he could afford to skip one more day, he feels an arm draped around his waist and realises that it's Black Star's, of course the black haired boy has no intention to move the boy sleeping next to him so he doesn't wake up, not to mention he has to gather himself and his thoughts before talking to Black Star about what's going on and how he feels. He's just confused and lost, his mother he doesn't know anything about, he barely sees his father anymore and his brother is the fucking kishin, Asura. How does someone explain this, he has no control over his mental state either, it's all over the place, it's not right, everything in his mind is a negative thought about himself or something about being afraid of something else, he doesn't want to become like his brother, that can't happen, he needs to get a hold of himself,
"You're cute when you worry, of course I never worry, because I'm going to surpass god!" Black Star says tiredly, looking over at Kid and Kid smiles sitting at the end of the bed,
"of course you are going to surpass god, but in order to do that, you'll have to defeat me and my father." Kid says smiling,
"Piece of cake." Black Star says smiling
"Why do you like me? I mean I'm such a failure…" Kid hadn't meant to say that, it was an accident, he sees Black Star's expression harden and the blue haired boy gets out of the bed and walks over and sits on Kid's lap,
"What did you just say about yourself?!" Black Star says looking at Kid's amber eyes,
"I'm a failure Black Star." Kid says looking straight into Black Star's eyes, and Black Star just shakes his head and he then leans in, when his lips touch Kid's, it's completely different to kissing anyone else, he's so cold, it must come with being a reaper, a trait of some sort. Kid doesn't kiss back, he's taken by shock, Black Star had said he loved him but he just doesn't understand, he's never been kissed, never been kissed by anyone and now that it's happened he can't believe that it was Black Star who kissed him. Kid starts to kiss back slowly and unsure, his eyes closed he feels Black Star's lips leave his, and he hears a triumphant laugh come from Black Star,
"I knew I'd fix you in the end." Black Star says smiling,
"You know, I just needed to be woken up from the daze I've been in these past weeks." Kid replies,
"So do you like me, like I like you or not?" Black Star asks twiddling his fingers
"I think you know that, I wouldn't have actually kissed back if I didn't like you, or does that not apply sometimes" Kid asks cluelessly, smiling
"I fucking love you Death The Kid." Black Star says kissing Kid, who then smiles into the kiss, Black Star then starts to nibble on Kid's bottom lip, who then lets out a moan, it was deep and husky and it just made Black Star even more turned on, he pins Kid down on the bed underneath him and starts to kiss down his neck, he manages to find Kid's sweet spot, Black Star then takes his shirt off and Kid takes off his own, throwing it across the room. Black Star had brought his happiness back, and he didn't even know that was possible.
"What are you thinking about?" Black Star asks, concerned, getting off of kid then sitting on the end of his bed,
"How I was able to find happiness and content in my life again, after I shouted at you I thought you would leave to be honest…" Kid trails off scratching the back of his head, causing his hair to become even more messy at the back.
"now why would I do that?" Black Star asks
"Because I don't see why you care so much about me." Kid says,
"I care about you because I just do, I don't know how my emotions work, but you're able to make me feel like putty, Kid, and I realised that I do love you." Black Star says grinning, "After all I am the one and only Black Star, you should feel incredibly lucky, I don't like just anyone!" Black Star says cockily, walking off of the bed and then heading out the door,
"also Kid, before you come back out here I really do suggest that you somehow cover up this hickeys on your neck, seriously, you don't want everyone here to know do you?" Black Star says smiling and then leaves the room, closing the door behind him.
"BLACK STAR! KID LET YOU IN?!" Liz shouts and shakes Black Star, she couldn't get Kid to let her in even her life depended on it,
"Yes he did." Black Star says smiling at Liz and Patty
"How is he?" Liz asks, she's concerned for Kid, the guy hadn't been out of his room in weeks or eaten properly in weeks.
"He's just sorting through some stuff right now, he just wants to be alone, so I suggest you leave him in his room, I must be at least a little bit intimidating, I bet you feel intimidated being in the same room as an assassin as good as me, I am the amazing Black Star after all!" Black Star then leaves the symmetrical apartment and walks back to his and Tsubaki's.
Hey guys!
So my first time writing Black StarXDeath The Kid, did you like it? I hope you did, also this is just going to be a collection of one shots, some SoMa and others Black StarXDeath The Kid, so if you wanna drop in a request you can send me a request (cherricola32 ) or a private message, none of these will link together really actually...
Hannah (Cherri-Cola)