(A/N: I had Tomoyo write the letter in English with romanji because no one
else except for herself Touya or Sakura would read it.)
[A/N: please refer to the bottom of the page for translations and reasoning
for this story.]
DISCLAIMER: CLAMP ©® OWNS ALL RIGHTS TO CARDCAPTOR SAKURA©® AND ALL OF IT'S CHARACTERS THEREIN. THIS IS A FANFICTION MEANT FOR FAN VIEWING AND NOT PROFIT.
Dear Sakura-chan
Each morning as I awake, I realize that this is yet another day that I have to live in your shadow. I know that you will probably never notice me the way I want you to, but as I said to you all these times; I am happy if you are. That's a lie I tell myself each day, I'm happy if my Sakura-chan is happy, but the truth is that I want you to notice me! But no I could never tell you how I truly feel, you would probably respond the same way as you did every other time I've tried to tell you: "Wo ai na e Tomoyo!" You would smile that kawaii smile of yours and make me see your beauty. Do you think that I don't notice how perfect and special you are? You have magic.Syaoran-kun has magic, but I.I have none, all I did was tape you and marvel at everything that made you you. You are a Majo! Kado no On'nashujin!
This thought came to me one night as I was thinking of you Sakura, to tell you the truth I am crying because I realize that I will never be able to give this letter to you.you see you're making me cry again, but it's alright. You are probably off on your honeymoon right now even as I write these words. Syaoran is treating you well I am sure.don't worry I won't pry. I know you won't get tired of being the next female head of the Li household, but I wonder if you will ever get tired of being alone.that is what I mean to say is will you ever miss me or Melin-chan or any of the others that we have come to know and love? What of your Oniisan or your Otosan?
Gomen nasai that I wasn't able to make it to your wedding and I know that the dress I made looks gorgeous on you.I was also aware that Touya didn't come because it was too hard for him to see Tsukishiro-san present.. after all they did share a bad falling out.
Tomoyo threw down the pen disgusted with herself, how could she even think of writing this, her friend would probably never speak to her again if she ever found this. She was about to get up and throw the paper away, but a strong hand on her shoulder stopped her. Looking up she saw that it was the hand of Touya. It was late at night, she was basically the only one left in the university music studio. What was he doing here and exactly how long had he been standing there?
Quickly she looked back down to the paper and wiped the running mascara off of her eyes with a handkerchief, she was twenty for Kami's sake and here she was crying in a little dark room like she used to when she was twelve. Standing up, she tried to walk away but she couldn't pull out of his strong grasp. "Tomoyo o miru boku." he said.
She didn't want to look; it was too hard to look at the brother of the person you loved with all of your heart. He pulled her to him and she broke down. Was this what it was like to be held by another? she wondered through her tears. He gently pulled her to the floor, where she was rocked back and forth as she let out all of her sorrow.
He knew what it was like to be in so much pain, but he had never cried.rather he had turned to alcohol. Eight years had been taken from one moment, and that was the realization that Yukito had said that he loved someone else. He had known for years that Tomoyo had loved Sakura and for a while she had even had a crush on him because he reminded her of his sister.. but he never expected as he held her then that his heart would pull at the sight of her tears.or how he would respond by pulling her closer to him as she began to cry harder.
When she had finally calmed down, she looked up at him again, "Gomen ne Touya-kun" "For what?" he asked in stuttering English. "Watashi kitanai anata wa shatsu." She answered back. "Don't worry about it." he responded stumbling over the syllables of English usage.. damn he had been to America before and had no problem speaking the foreign words.why was he having such a hard time now? "Gomen boku na warui de hanasu eigo." :"Daijobu." she said laughing gently despite how she truly felt and looked.
"Daijobu ka?" he asked realizing that he had been stroking her hair the entire time. "Iie" she responded
"Touya-kun I was hoping I could practice my English with someone but no one was here so I wrote a letter.a letter to Sakura, it got me upset. I'm sorry." She said in one beautiful display of the language that gave a hint of her accent. "Why did you really write this?" he asked feeling more confident in his speech. "I wanted to get it all out." she confessed. "Why were you going to throw it away?" he questioned. "I didn't want anyone to find out.I feel ashamed!"
She turned away and he stood there silent, here was a young woman in the prime of life and yet she was as sad and bitter as someone whom had nothing left to give.
When she turned back around, she found a note on the corner of the letter, Call me whenever you're ready to talk.you know the number.- Touya.
Sakura- Cherry Blossom Tomoyo- Plum blossom Syaoran- Little wolf Touya-Peach arrow Tsukishiro-san- Mr. White moon Yukito- Snow bunny Kami- God
-chan [ A term of affection used by close family or friends also more reserved for young children to use.]
"Wo ai na e Tomoyo!"- I love you too Tomoyo!
Kawaii - cute
Majo-Witch
Kado no On'nashujin!- Mistress of cards
Otosan-Father
Oniisan -Brother
Gomen nasai- I'm sorry
"Tomoyo o miru boku."- Tomoyo look at me
"Gomen ne Touya-kun"- I am so sorry Touya [ -kun is used as a term of close affection and is often associated with romantic interest or closeness.]
"Watashi kitanai anata wa shatsu"- I dirtied your shirt." [anata means dear or you and is used by close family or a girlfriend as a means of affection. It is also used as the general term of you in appliance to strangers.]
"Gomen boku na warui de hanasu eigo"- Sorry I am bad at speaking English.
"Daijobu."- It's all right.
"Daijobu ka?"- Are you all right?"
"Iie"- No
A/N: I wanted to write this story, because no one really seems to understand how Touya or Tomoyo truly feels when it comes to their love lives, I mean most people think that Yuki and Touya would stay together forever, but the truth is that Yukito as the false form of Yueh has a moral obligation to follow Sakura wherever she goes. Also Tomoyo has loved Sakura for years but Sakura was always too young or too slow on the uptake to understand what it meant whenever Tomoyo would say I love you or create outfits to tape all of her adventures or even making homemade chocolates to give her on Valentines day. So why not write something that a lot of people in this world would relate to? The loss of a lover due to their love for another or even love unrequited. Thank you for reading this story and I hope that you will continue to the next chapter!
Celtic Sorceress
DISCLAIMER: CLAMP ©® OWNS ALL RIGHTS TO CARDCAPTOR SAKURA©® AND ALL OF IT'S CHARACTERS THEREIN. THIS IS A FANFICTION MEANT FOR FAN VIEWING AND NOT PROFIT.
Dear Sakura-chan
Each morning as I awake, I realize that this is yet another day that I have to live in your shadow. I know that you will probably never notice me the way I want you to, but as I said to you all these times; I am happy if you are. That's a lie I tell myself each day, I'm happy if my Sakura-chan is happy, but the truth is that I want you to notice me! But no I could never tell you how I truly feel, you would probably respond the same way as you did every other time I've tried to tell you: "Wo ai na e Tomoyo!" You would smile that kawaii smile of yours and make me see your beauty. Do you think that I don't notice how perfect and special you are? You have magic.Syaoran-kun has magic, but I.I have none, all I did was tape you and marvel at everything that made you you. You are a Majo! Kado no On'nashujin!
This thought came to me one night as I was thinking of you Sakura, to tell you the truth I am crying because I realize that I will never be able to give this letter to you.you see you're making me cry again, but it's alright. You are probably off on your honeymoon right now even as I write these words. Syaoran is treating you well I am sure.don't worry I won't pry. I know you won't get tired of being the next female head of the Li household, but I wonder if you will ever get tired of being alone.that is what I mean to say is will you ever miss me or Melin-chan or any of the others that we have come to know and love? What of your Oniisan or your Otosan?
Gomen nasai that I wasn't able to make it to your wedding and I know that the dress I made looks gorgeous on you.I was also aware that Touya didn't come because it was too hard for him to see Tsukishiro-san present.. after all they did share a bad falling out.
Tomoyo threw down the pen disgusted with herself, how could she even think of writing this, her friend would probably never speak to her again if she ever found this. She was about to get up and throw the paper away, but a strong hand on her shoulder stopped her. Looking up she saw that it was the hand of Touya. It was late at night, she was basically the only one left in the university music studio. What was he doing here and exactly how long had he been standing there?
Quickly she looked back down to the paper and wiped the running mascara off of her eyes with a handkerchief, she was twenty for Kami's sake and here she was crying in a little dark room like she used to when she was twelve. Standing up, she tried to walk away but she couldn't pull out of his strong grasp. "Tomoyo o miru boku." he said.
She didn't want to look; it was too hard to look at the brother of the person you loved with all of your heart. He pulled her to him and she broke down. Was this what it was like to be held by another? she wondered through her tears. He gently pulled her to the floor, where she was rocked back and forth as she let out all of her sorrow.
He knew what it was like to be in so much pain, but he had never cried.rather he had turned to alcohol. Eight years had been taken from one moment, and that was the realization that Yukito had said that he loved someone else. He had known for years that Tomoyo had loved Sakura and for a while she had even had a crush on him because he reminded her of his sister.. but he never expected as he held her then that his heart would pull at the sight of her tears.or how he would respond by pulling her closer to him as she began to cry harder.
When she had finally calmed down, she looked up at him again, "Gomen ne Touya-kun" "For what?" he asked in stuttering English. "Watashi kitanai anata wa shatsu." She answered back. "Don't worry about it." he responded stumbling over the syllables of English usage.. damn he had been to America before and had no problem speaking the foreign words.why was he having such a hard time now? "Gomen boku na warui de hanasu eigo." :"Daijobu." she said laughing gently despite how she truly felt and looked.
"Daijobu ka?" he asked realizing that he had been stroking her hair the entire time. "Iie" she responded
"Touya-kun I was hoping I could practice my English with someone but no one was here so I wrote a letter.a letter to Sakura, it got me upset. I'm sorry." She said in one beautiful display of the language that gave a hint of her accent. "Why did you really write this?" he asked feeling more confident in his speech. "I wanted to get it all out." she confessed. "Why were you going to throw it away?" he questioned. "I didn't want anyone to find out.I feel ashamed!"
She turned away and he stood there silent, here was a young woman in the prime of life and yet she was as sad and bitter as someone whom had nothing left to give.
When she turned back around, she found a note on the corner of the letter, Call me whenever you're ready to talk.you know the number.- Touya.
Sakura- Cherry Blossom Tomoyo- Plum blossom Syaoran- Little wolf Touya-Peach arrow Tsukishiro-san- Mr. White moon Yukito- Snow bunny Kami- God
-chan [ A term of affection used by close family or friends also more reserved for young children to use.]
"Wo ai na e Tomoyo!"- I love you too Tomoyo!
Kawaii - cute
Majo-Witch
Kado no On'nashujin!- Mistress of cards
Otosan-Father
Oniisan -Brother
Gomen nasai- I'm sorry
"Tomoyo o miru boku."- Tomoyo look at me
"Gomen ne Touya-kun"- I am so sorry Touya [ -kun is used as a term of close affection and is often associated with romantic interest or closeness.]
"Watashi kitanai anata wa shatsu"- I dirtied your shirt." [anata means dear or you and is used by close family or a girlfriend as a means of affection. It is also used as the general term of you in appliance to strangers.]
"Gomen boku na warui de hanasu eigo"- Sorry I am bad at speaking English.
"Daijobu."- It's all right.
"Daijobu ka?"- Are you all right?"
"Iie"- No
A/N: I wanted to write this story, because no one really seems to understand how Touya or Tomoyo truly feels when it comes to their love lives, I mean most people think that Yuki and Touya would stay together forever, but the truth is that Yukito as the false form of Yueh has a moral obligation to follow Sakura wherever she goes. Also Tomoyo has loved Sakura for years but Sakura was always too young or too slow on the uptake to understand what it meant whenever Tomoyo would say I love you or create outfits to tape all of her adventures or even making homemade chocolates to give her on Valentines day. So why not write something that a lot of people in this world would relate to? The loss of a lover due to their love for another or even love unrequited. Thank you for reading this story and I hope that you will continue to the next chapter!
Celtic Sorceress