hey...I got a plot bunny in my heads that kept Irish dancing untilI wrote this down. NowI have, andI rather like it!I was rather depressed when I wrote this after having an 'Is Severus good or bad' argument with my friends.
contains...err... mentions of Suicide and sex.
Disclaimer; Severus isn't mine nor is Harry, or just about anything in this. It all belongs to JKR, very lucky lady. IfI could buy Severus off her,I would
Anyway, reviews appreciated, flames laughed at. Have fun
Damn you
You weren't supposed to do this.
Damn you.
How could you leave me here?
Alone.
Damn you to hell
I suppose you're already there…
I miss you
My beds so empty without you
How could you do this to me?
I can see your glasses
You were supposed to wear them
You didn't
He got you.
You didn't see him
Damn you.
I can see your wand
You took that
It wasn't enough.
You didn't survive
But at least he didn't either.
That's one small amount of joy I can have from this
But that's it.
How could you do this to me?
I need you here with me!
Not in some cold tombstone next to Dumbledore's.
You were supposed to come with me to the ministry ball that was held when it was all over
You didn't
I was alone.
I hate being alone without you.
Damn you for this.
Damn you.
I can't do this
I can't carry on without you.
The hurt aches too badly
I can't open my eyes knowing that I wont see you.
I can't open my mouth knowing I wont be talking to you.
I can't breathe, knowing I'm not breathing the same air as you.
I can't walk, knowing you aren't walking beside me with that smile I'm so fond of.
I can't look at the hands that I used to touch you so often.
I can't use the lips that I used to make you cry out.
I can't live without you.
Damn you.
Damn you.
I need you
But you aren't here.
I can't sleep
You aren't there.
Damn you
Even my life long love is dulled now
I can't enter my laboratory.
I see you perched on the stool in the corner, watching me
You always said I was a master
You always said it was like sex as you watched me work.
You said you liked watching what my hands did. The way my mouth moved when I was concentrating
I can't concentrate without you
Not any more
I've lost it all.
Damn you
I've lost you
You were my soul
My salvation
My satisfaction
My sex
My hero
My golden boy
My Gryffindor
My lover
My toy boy
My husband
My happiness
My love
My will
My spirit
My breath
My words
My frowns
My scowls
My anger
My tantrums
My points
My husband
My anger releaser
My cheer-upper
My joy
My hope
My happy rainy day
My storm clouds
My heart
You were my everything
I love you
I loved you
I need you
You were there.
All through school
I could never get rid of you then
But now I want you here so badly
Please come back
I can't cope
You are my sanity
And now you've gone
It wasn't supposed to happen.
Damn you
Am I a coward?
You were my bravery.
You're gone now
Damn you.
I am a coward
But a loving coward
I need to see you.
My life is you.
Without you I'm nothing.
Just a death eater
Just a potions master who can't make potions anymore.
Just a professor who can't face a class without remembering you and crying.
I've lost my scariness.
People whisper around me for a different reason
Pity.
Not fear.
Damn you
Damn you to hell
My hell.
I'll see you there
Goodbye, my sweet.
Goodbye Harry.
I'm coming...
I'm coming
For you.