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They have been friend's since childhood. Closer than most sibling's. Always there when things go wrong, and always there for the best things that happen. But Bella is having feeling's for both, confusing and heart racing feelings. Her desires have changed, friendship - want - need. But for which one? How could she choose between them? Lately though she's been thinking, why should she choose?

FRIENDS

Growing up in small communities has its advantages. Alot of people would laugh and say ' yea, right! ' But I have always been so happy here. Knowing everyone and growing up with same people. I don't like change, so the slow pace and quietness of small town living are perfect for me. My two best friends tease me and tell me I need to come out of my little cocoon. But why should I? I have everything I need right here. My Dad, Charlie, greatest Dad a kid could have.

A home that is comfortable and never lacking in warmth. My best friend's and their families. A community that has everything from small connivance store, a strip mall and pizza shop. Yep, I have everything I need right here. And anyway, college is right around corner and I can't wait to experience that. it helps that they will both be with me too.

Ok, ok, so what, it makes me happy to know they will be close by. But we've been together since, well, since we were babies. I can't remember ever not being together and it helps that our parent's have been friends forever also. Almost like having siblings, but without the whole rivalry thing going on.

What surprises people most about our friendship, were not the same, ummm, sex that is. My two best friends in whole world are both boys. And what boys they are! First, is my Emmett. Yep, they're both my boys and everyone knows this.

Emmett McCarty, big as a bear, and gentle as a giant. He's one of stars of football team, go Grizzlies! and all around one of most popular boys in town. He stands 6' 5", around 250 lbs., but not ounce of fat. Just muscle and more muscles ripped. Brown curly hair and summer blue eye's. Dimples that are always there, but when he smiles more, their deep crevices that just add to his appeal. Yep, total yumminess!

And then you have Jasper, Jasper Whitlock that is. I can never hide my feelings from him, he just seems to know when something is wrong. Kinda of creepy but hey, that's his magic. He's no troll either, no way. 6'2" and 180 lbs. of walking sin!. Jasper is our local ( and state champion!) long distance track star. People think he's skinny, but when you see him in track shorts, you realize his lean looks a deceptive. Pure muscle! In other words, drool worthy, and boy do the girl's drool. Seriously, I have thought of making bibs and handing them out at school.

Me? Oh well, I'm an average looking person. Long hair is down to top the of my rear end and has curls at ends. I keep telling myself that it should be cut shorter, maybe help me look older. But, well, my boy's like it. Their always playing with it when were sitting together, so yep, it probably won't get cut any time soon. I'm on the short side just barely making it to 5'4" and somewhere around 100 llbs. or so. Skinny but I have curves, I just prefer to keep them covered in front of people. When its just us though, I like to ummm showing them off.

My boys tend to loose their train of thoughts when I wear tighter clothes. The first time after puberty hit, I walked out of the house in short shorts and wife-beater. Our parent's found this funny, watching the reaction of the boys'. I stood in front of them watching while they turned into guppies. Placing my hands on my hips, glaring up at them I finally asked them what the hell they were staring at? The adults completely cracked up as both boys turned into tomatoes right in front of us all. I couldn't hide my smirk after that, internally, I loved their attention and reaction to the new me.

But then again what girl wouldn't like having these two stare at them the way they did me?

Summer that year and every year since, has been an experience. They are so protective and well, kind of possessive of me. But you won't hear me complaining. Nope, my daddy didn't raise no fool! Ok, well, I'm just as possessive of them. I hate having some little tramp eye them like their some new toy or candy. Usually it takes one look from me and they back off. But that's becoming more difficult the older we get. Their starting just to look back at me and frankly blow me off. Their just unable to resist the temptation of my boys' looks.

They say its only fair,my boys', because they have to shove the boys away from me. Oh yea, right, like theres a line trying to get to me, pleaseeee. Well, ok, maybe small one, and he is becoming stalkerish, Mike. He just doesn't get, "LEAVE ME ALONE!". Its like he has radar about when Jasper and Emmett aren't around. He shows up and becomes leech-like. Wanting to fuse to me, like trying to hold my hand or just literally being right behind me when I turn around.

I haven't said anything yet because well, I do like Mike and I don't want my boys' to hurt him.

We're starting our junior year this term and there's been rumors flying about new family that will be here for start of school. Its always funny when ' new blood ' shows up. Unfortunately though that's all everyone is talking about.

Its already old and we have almost two weeks left until they arrive. My friend Angela, she's hoping they have son's. She wants to have a boyfriend, oh excuse me, a relationship. And she teasingly tells me that I have the two hottest and best in town already, so maybe she would have a chance with one of new ones. I stuck out my tongue and told her she was jealous laughing whole time. She agrees and says that if I want to shove either, Emmett or Jasper, her way she would definitely catch them. The boys' thinks it funny and sweet, knowing full well she would be shocked into a coma if either one of them seriously would hit on her.

They think of her as a true little sister. One who can be teased and flirted with, but know they aren't taken seriously. I keep trying to tell her that Ben is always looking at her like shes the best thing he has ever seen, but she just smiles and says I shouldn't make up things to try to make her feel better.

Seriously, if she realized he has had this thing for her since grade school, she would probably flip. I can't wait for that moment. I know its not funny, but, oh hell YES it is! Instead of her looking up, she should try moving her eyes just a little lower than her nose and see what is there. I've always like Ben, he's a decent guy and I couldn't think of anyone better than my Angela having a relationship with.

Jessica is another friend, well, not for about two years now really. We became 'friendly rivals' as Angela calls us now. She wants Mike and thinks that I want him too. SERIOUSLY! Can't she tell he freaks me out? Whatever, I've told her time and again that I don't.

But she thinks I'm just hiding my 'true' feelings. Ok, well she is kind of right. But, not like she thinks. I'm hiding my revulsion at him being near. But then again shes not too bright. So maybe that comes across as attraction in her weird little mind. Ok, sorry, becoming snarky! But how could she even think like that when my boys' are around?

Then you have Lauren, the biggest tramp at school. She's always hitting on anyone with dick. Yep you guessed it, and the one who literally pants after Emmett and Jasper constantly.

Which its hard not to become all snarky and smirky with them. If they hadn't paid her attention when she developed tits, well, then we wouldn't need to have crow bar handy when shes around. I told them they were lucky she didn't have disease in them days. Or I wouldn't have them near me now. They blush and shuffle, its too cute really.

I know that neither one of them are without experience, but I really don't know to what extent. And really don't want to know.

I have zero experience, well hmmmm, I have kissing experience. But not alot and after being taught how to kiss. I couldn't think of taking that memory away and replacing it. It was definitely something to remember! You've probably guessed, but my boys' gave me my kisses to remember. Well, the whole thing was something to remember and it tops my list.

We had been having a sleep out, something we've done since were little, we we're like 14 . They had started talking about making out with Lauren and couple of others, which yep, pissed me off. When they wanted to know whom I've kissed. Of course, this embarrassed me and I tried to change subject.

But neither of them would let me. I then tried hiding under the covers, which they pulled off and threw to the I still wouldn't tell them, they turned into two 8 year old again. Tickling me until I cried 'uncle' . When I finally said that I hadn't kissed anyone yet, they sat there totally unmoving. I tried to turn away from them, but the both quickly caught me. Frustrated, I finally snapped that I didn't like anyone but them enough to even think about it.

Then wanting to crawl into hole.

I watched as their faces changed from shock to them both smirking at me. Watching them curiously, I seen them look at each other. Then exchange some type of silent messages. I knew I should be worried, but some how their look made me have instant butterflies start in my stomach and travel through out my body.

Pulling me between them, they each had arm over my shoulders laying us down side by side. We've been in this same position are whole lives, but there was definitely something different about this time.

Both of them leaned on one elbow looking down at me. Jasper it seems became spoke person, telling me that they could 'help' with my first time kissing. Then I wouldn't have to embarrass when it happened with someone else. Tingling at the thought, I could barely move my head to tell them ok. Both my boys' grinned and moved closer to me. Lowering their heads, they both starting to kiss my ears and kissing down my neck.

Some how I managed to get an arm under and around both of there necks, sneaking my hand up into their hair. They could have been synchronized swimmers the way they both seem to know exactly what the other one was doing. Once the reached my collar bones, both kissed and licked their way down them causing me to moan at the sensation.

I could feel identical smiles as their lips continued this delicious new feeling. Pulling back ever so slightly, Emmett looked down at me and smiled, leaning in to kiss my cheek. Jasper followed his lead but then went back to my neck as if he was drawn to it. Emmett slowly lowered his lips to brush ever so lightly against my own, like a butterflies wing. Moving his curls away from his forehead, I smiled up at him and he let out what could only be a small sound that sent shock waves down my body, when he lowered his head and taking my mouth in his own.

Right then and there I knew they were going to kill me. My emotions were scattered and just flying everywhere.

Emmett's lips where knowing and knew exactly what type of pressure to apply and when to pull away. Then acting like they were a tag team, they switched. Emmett's lips and tongue where back on my ears and neck, while Jasper's lips seem to attack mine.

Moaning into his delicious flavor, I opened my mouth to him when his tongue licked my bottom lip. We both dueled with each other for what seemed like hours. But in reality, only minutes. Growling at Emmett when he pulled me to him so he could have this new thing that was happening.

Both of them pulled away from me and seemed to become slightly worried on how I would react after. Watching them I smiled and sounding slightly breathless, I told them it was good thing I was laying down because my legs wouldn't be able to hold me up.

This relaxed them and we all laughed. But I couldn't help but notice, there was some more possessiveness like quality to them both after that. But we haven't ever repeated that night, and frankly it pisses me off to no end!. But I definitely have in my dreams.

But when I'm awake, I know that those do not compare to real thing.

Well, its almost time for school. Another 2 days, and all the homework, football games and track meets we can't wait for (but not admit to) will be here. Hmmm... and we finally will get to see the 'new kids' . Should be fun!