BELLA'S POV

Edward and the other Cullen's had to go hunt, leaving me with the only one in the Cullen clan that couldn't stand me. My usual baby sitter Alice Cullen was in desperate need for some hunting otherwise she would have stayed. I practically had to force them all out the door especially Edward, he hates leaving me with Rosalie. ever since Alice had that vision of Victoria and her army of new born vampires coming after me they have on edge. I actually think they are more worried than I am myself, it's understandable seeing as where they are the ones that have to fight. this will be the second time they fight a vampire or vampires to save my life. I hate being a human. Ya know I wouldn't mind staying with Rosalie if she didn't hate me so much. I guess I understand why she hates me though…she feels as if I intruded into her family secret and I keep putting her family in danger. It's not like I mean to though I just can't help it. Either way when I become one of them it will no longer be a problem for her. More and more lately I have begun to doubt that I will get turned, it's because I have a secret that I haven't told anyone else… that's when I heard a knock at Edward's door. it has to be Rosalie but what would she want with me?

ROSALIE'S POV

I think i knocked hard enough for her to hear me. maybe she's sleeping, humans tend to do that a lot. I decided against walking away and slowly open my brother's bedroom door. he had put a big bed in there for his human girlfriend. God I hate saying that…it's not why you think though, I don't hate her just the choice she's making. if I could become human I would, plus Bella deserves better than my brother is giving her. Anyways I slowly opened the door…

"Bella you up? Can we talk please? if you don't mind."

" Yea Rosalie I'm awake, come on in."

I walked in and sat on the bed beside her. looking at this girl I began to really see why I didn't want her heart to stop beating… it wasn't because I thought being a vampire was so bad because its honestly not it's just umm well I think I may li-

" Rosalie I know you must hate me because of all the danger the family has been put in because of me but just know I wish it weren't like this."

If only she knew that I didn't hate her, not even a little bit. I am perhaps the only one that truly loves her, even more than Edward. it was that idiots idea to have Bella in the center of the fight with Victoria. He thinks she'll be the perfect distraction for the new borns. although yea if Bella was there it would be an easier fight for my family and the mutts but I don't wanna lose my Bella. I guess she really isn't mine but she could be. I'm glad that I was the one put in charge of protecting her, I know that way she'll be safe. no new born will get through me and if Victoria or her army's leader try I'll rip them to shreds. but if it were my choice I would have her far far away from here where they would never find her. if Edwards stupid plan gets her killed I swear…

" Rose? Rose? I mean Rosalie what's wrong?"

" Nothing is wrong, why would you think something was wrong?"

"Rosalie you're practically shaking. What's wrong? is it the new borns or Victoria?"

BELLA'S POV

Rosalie hates me I get that. but is sitting next to me making her this upset? maybe she's thinking about the fight and having been put on Bella duty AGAIN.

" Rosalie can I ask you something?"

" Sure Bella go right ahead."

"Aside from the not wanting me to become a vampire thing why do you hate me so much? Is it because you don't want me with Edward for eternity?"

"Honestly?"

"Yea of course"

"Well yea it's kinda about that and besides I think you deserve better. if I were with you and we may be getting married I wouldn't allow you anywhere near that fight. I love you too much. I'll be playing the piano if you need me. I gotta go."

BELLA'S POV

Did she just say she loves me too much? Did she really mean that or was she saying that if Edward loved me enough he wouldn't have me in danger? I'm so confused? Now that I think about it loving Rosalie wouldn't be so bad. To be perfectly honest Edward's not the one I love she is. But I know she's happy with Emmett so that's why I never told anyone.

ROSALIE'S POV

I had to get away from her, maybe if she gets some sleep she'll forget what I said or at least not see how I meant it. I can't bear explaining myself to her; it would make things too complicated for us. I know she wants us desperately to be friends but I can't handle that. I would rather be more than friends and if I can't have that well then I can't be friends with her. I would feel like I was lying to her. She'd be putting everything into our relationship as friends and as she's telling me secrets I know I can't be as honest with her. But maybe it's for the best because I think if we were together and she asked me to change her I would. I'm not like Edward I don't have enough self-control to keep her human I would want her to live an eternity with me. But in the same sense I wouldn't want her to miss out on a normal human life…I guess it's too late because she's too stubborn to walk away from us without killing herself in the process. If she were turned her beautiful chocolate brown eyes would turn a crimson red and that drumming heart beat of hers would die still. What I will miss the most is perhaps the rose red her cheeks get when she gets embarrassed, I love when they get that color. The more I thought about it the more ager and venom that filled my body. I heard her heartbeat even more when I tried to ignore her this way. So in a way to distract me from this tempting girl I began playing the piano. Usually I played a specific piece but this time I just played from my heart. I haven't done this since I first met Emmett he reminds me so much of my friends little boy the child I yearned to have on my own. I haven't wanted anything more then I wanted to have a child until I met Bella. From the start I have loved her but knew I couldn't have her. Ya know I guess this fight could be dangerous for my family it's quite possible that Emmett and Edward may not walk outta it then maybe…no I feel horrible for even thinking that way. I love my family I just wish it were possible for me to be with Bella.

Bella's POV

I needed to talk to Rosalie. Something had upset her drastically and I felt like it was my fault. Plus I had some questions I just couldn't ignore. Like what did she mean by she loves me too much? Nothing made any sense right now, first she said that and then she goes to the piano? According to Alice she did that only when she was really caught with a puzzling decision. What could it be, maybe it's the fight again. I hate causing her to be upset. I walked to the room where she kept her piano and quietly listened to her play. It's like nothing I have ever heard eve Edward play. It was beautiful. As the song came to a finish I figured it was the perfect chance to walk in.

"Rose, that was amazing. I didn't know you could play that well."

"Oh Bella I didn't hear you come in. Can I help you with something? Are you hungry is that it?"

"No, that's not it. Umm I wanted to talk to you about something."

"Oh okay what is it?"

"Umm I know you said you don't hate me but I can't help but feeling you do. I would totally understand if you do but I just need to hear you say it."

"Bella I wish I could tell you the complete and open truth but I just can't"

"That's just it, you can tell me anything Rose, I mean Rosalie."

"Not this Bella. This I definitely can't I'm sorry. But it's for your own good."

"What is with you young Cullens thinking you know what is best for me? I can make my own choices."

"I know you can Bella."

"So why won't you tell me?"

"Because too many people would get hurt."

"Who would get hurt?"

"You, Edward, and it could tear my family apart."

"Even more I should know what it is."

"Fine you really want to know?"

"Yes I wanna know Rose."

"Fine but don't say I didn't warn you. And you can't tell ANYONE, not even Edward."

"Okay I promise."

"Well you remember my story about becoming a vampire?"

"Yea"

"Well that is part of the reason I wish you would consider staying human but not the whole reason. The other part is that well Isabella Swan I am also in love with you. Now before you say anything I know you love Edward but you wanted to know so I told you."

"Rosalie what if I told you I didn't wanna marry Edward?"

"You don't? Why not? Is it that smelly mutt?"

"Calm down Rose it's not Jake."

"You called me Rose, you never call me that."

"Oh I'm sorry I'll stop."

"No don't I kinda like it when you say it. It's kinda cute"

"Plus you called me Isabella and no one calls me that."

"Oh well I'll stop."

"No it sounds cute when you say it though."

"Bella, can I ask you something? If you don't wish to marry Edward why do you still wanna become a vampire?"

"What if I told you there was someone else and it's not Jake?"

"Well then I would ask who it is. Are they human?"

"No actually another Cullen vampire."

"Well is it Emmett or Jasper?"

"Neither."

"Carlisle?"

"Eww he's like a dad to me Rose jeez."

"Aww you called me Rose. I like when you call me that. It's cute coming from you. But I gotta ask you, Bells who is it?"

"Rose it's you…"

"Me? Really?

Before Rosalie could finish what she was going to say Bella ran outta the room and into Rosalie's room on accident. Before she can walk out Rosalie is blocking the door way.

ROSALIE'S POV

Bella doesn't want Edward she wants me… I would've never expected that. But to be honest that makes me so happy to hear her say that. She didn't even give me a chance to answer. I was just barely able to block her from leaving my room. For the first time I allowed myself to inhale this girls intoxicating scent. The venom began flooding my mouth and I know that if I didn't love her so much I would have killed her. Slowly I began to walk towards her, her eyes were clearly focus on switching between my eyes and lips. I wanted to kiss her but I wasn't sure how it would go. I sat on the bed and she followed. I looked in her eyes and tried to convey all my feelings for her in that one look. She began inching closer and before I knew it she was moving to kiss me. Before I closed the gap I had to give her the chance to change her mind. As I waited I uttered three words I had wanted to say so many times before. I love you. Then I closed the gap and her warm lips touched mine. First it was cautious but then it became needy, passionate, loving and caring. It was unlike any kiss I ever had before.

BELLA'S POV

The kiss with Rosalie was amazingly perfect. Her lips were soft and warm unlike Edward's. It was so filled with excitement and love. The perfect first kiss with the girl I am in love with. Just as our lips were about to collide again Emmett busted through the door.