Secrets

Warning: This is a yaoi story; therefore there is male/male relationship in this story. If you are below the age of 18 or think that yaoi is the scum of the universe then I'm really sorry but you can't read it (under 18) or screw you big time (yaoi haters).

Disclaimer:I do not nor have I ever owned Rurouni Kenshin or any of its characters, storylines or dialogue. Tears fall amid many sobs of anguish

Author's Note: This is one of my first yaoi fics so I could really use some feedback.

PLEASE, GIVE ME SOME FEEDBACK!

Sanosuke was bored. He had nothing in the world to do. Then he had a thought, 'Maybe I could go get a drink…' "Naw it's no fun to drink alone," he said to himself. Then another, possibly brilliant, idea struck him, 'Maybe Kenshin would like to drink with me!' The thought lifted his spirits immediately. So he made his way over to the Kamiya Dojo where he found Kenshin, surprisingly doing nothing at all.

"Good afternoon Sano! What brings you here so late in the day?" Kenshin asked of his friend. Secretly he was glad that Sano had come because he had missed him terribly, even though they had only been apart for a day – but Sano could never know this. And of course Kenshin would not be telling him anytime soon.

"Hello Kenshin. I just stopped by to see if you were doing anything later on tonight," said Sanosuke. 'Please say your not.'

Sanosuke looked to his friend, awaiting a reply. Though, in his heart, he hoped for an affirmative reply, he still wasn't too sure if it would be a good idea to be alone with the older man. The reason why was something Kenshin could never, ever know.

"No," Kenshin replied, looking straight back at his friend though not meeting his eyes, which were so very anxious while Kenshin took his time answering. "No, I'm not. Why do you ask, de gozaru?

Sanosuke's heart did a flip flop and he almost jumped for joy before remembering that Kenshin was right there and might take it the wrong way. He was so happy to be able to spend anytime with the former Battousai, that he almost didn't hear anything else Kenshin said and embarrassingly had to ask him to repeat himself.

"Oh, I was just wondering if you wanted to go out for a drink. Do you want to?" Sanosuke's thoughts were suddenly reduced to a pleading chant, 'Please say yes, please say yes, please say yes…'

"Hai, de gozaru. I think I would like that." 'Though you can never know how much.'

This time Sano did jump – but not for joy. He was so lost in thought that Kenshin's reply had frightened him a little, but as soon as his startled eyes met Kenshin's, he suddenly found himself falling into those beautiful amethyst orbs. When he realized he was staring, he quickly glanced away blushing.

Kenshin saw Sanosuke's fleeting look and blush through somewhat hurt eyes. He did not understand why the younger man had looked away but in his mind and heart saw it as a small rejection. He took Sanosuke's shoulder in an effort to turn him around, but Sano just pushed his hand away, making Kenshin even surer that his advances would be welcome. 'If Sanosuke cannot even look at me without turning away, then how can I tell him that I love him? If I said that, he'd probably run away.' Kenshin thought sadly.

Sanosuke seemed to notice after a while that Kenshin was unusually quiet. As he looked over his heart almost broke at the solemn look on the older man's face.

"Kenshin? What is wrong de gozaru?" Sano queried quietly as he placed a large hand on the smaller samurai's shoulder. He was surprised at Kenshin's reaction to this movement.

Kenshin shuddered slightly at Sanosuke's touch and moved away. He remained silent, choosing not to answer his friend because he could not find an answer to his sudden recoil from Sanosuke's touch. He looked up at his friend with the blankest face that he could manage but his expression did little to hide his true feelings. He hoped that he had hid his emotions from the younger man but knew it was not so as soon as their eyes met for a second time.

As soon he met his friend's eyes, Sanosuke became aware of a terrible sadness in his friends almost lavender eyes and once again turned away from the older man, not being able to hold the depressing gaze Kenshin held on him.

"Kenshin please tell me what's wrong. Tell me so that I can make it better. Talk to me please." Sano pleaded as he laid a hand on his friends shaking shoulders once again.

"No, Sano, I will not tell you what is wrong. Please just leave. I do not feel like going out tonight anymore." Kenshin spoke so softly that Sanosuke barely heard him but he understood his friend's tone perfectly. He wanted Sano to leave but Sano would not be turned away so easily.

"No, Kenshin-kun. If you will not tell me now, I will stay until my presence aggravates you enough that you must tell me." Sanosuke knew that that would never happen but he hoped Kenshin would grace him with a small smile in recognition of his horrible attempt at a joke. Kenshin did not tell him what was wrong but rewarded him with a small grin.

"I cannot tell you what is wrong Sano-kun because I myself do not know." Kenshin murmured, "I am confused, Sano, about something that I'm not sure you would know much about."

"Confused about what, Kenshin? You know that you can tell me anything." Sano whispered.

Kenshin bit out a bitter laugh before continuing. "You are so young Sanosuke. I sometimes forget that you have not been on this earth as long as I have nor seen or done some of the things that I have done." Kenshin sighed despondently before carrying on, "You would not understand, so do not even try."

"You won't even let me try to understand Kenshin!" Sanosuke shouted. "You act like there are so many years difference between us, but there aren't, so don't even think that you're gonna get out of this by playing the age card." Sano groaned with effort not to keep shouting and said, "Kenshin please, please tell me what's wrong. You know that you can tell me anything." He repeated.

"I'm in love with you Sanosuke."

End

The second part is coming. I hope you like it. Please review. I need 5 reviews before I write a sequel.